definite maybe

Tumblr!

2009-11-24T20:24:00.000+08:00

I am rather pissed at Tumblr right now. I love it way more right now, as compared to Blogger, but I want to cross-post Blogger and Tumblr so I can choose which one to update. But it's pissing me off because it won't let me!

Oh well, I shall just, leave Blogger for a while? I hope ya'll will follow me on Tumblr too!

http://cheskaverse.tumblr.com !

Anyway, here I am, at home, in the Philippines, and I am loving it.

Shopping, Family, Fun :)

I'm trying to get into a habit of jogging atleast 3 times a week, and next Monday I'm gonna be doing a run with my cousins. Yay?

I'm also trying to sleep earlier, and get up earlier. Grow taller you see? I really want to grow taller. seriously. I can't stand being my height for the rest of my life. I doubt I've grown at all this year. Everyone who hasn't seen me in a while always comments on my hair, or my face, or my clothes, but never "oh! you've grown so much!", unlike everyone else...

That sucks you know? Being this height... Pray for me please...

Anyway, I'm gonna try to get ready for bed, after I fix up the Tumblr thing.
And if you never see updates here in a while, do be sure to check out my Tumblr!

facebook crosspost.

2009-11-10T18:09:00.001+08:00

EDIT// Originally posted on my Facebook, yesterday. Since my previous post is kind of not what i'm feeling now, I decided to put this up here, so you'll know what i've been up to.

Also, today is Tuesday and according to the list, I was supposed to clean out old books and worksheets. I'm glad to say I have accomplished that :D

Now because the Internet does not reach as far as where I am sitting, I am typing this out on the Text Editor of my mom's Macbook. Wow, that sentence sounded like I was doing product placement -.-

Anyway, I am officially boring myself out at home. So bored, so bored in fact that I ended up hitting the gym just now. It's just that there doesn't seem to be anything for me to do! Sure, there's holiday homework, but who really wants to do that right? On the subject of holiday homework though, I would like to say that I have completed the English homework, which was the 1100 Words book. Pretty much the only thing I've done though. The math assignment is tough! I tried doing it, and I was doing pretty well until the second question came up and I was stumped. Answers anyone?

So in lieu of my inability to do anything, I have decided to set up a daily to-do list, to keep myself occupied.

Tuesday - CLEAR ROOM. Put old books into a box. Recycle old worksheets. (I can do that, right?)

Wednesday - SC Chalet. (should I go? I mean, I already paid...)

Thursday - SC Chalet.

Friday - Re-organize closet. Put clothes-that-don't-fit-anymore into a box.

Saturday - Chinese tuition in the morning. Do something to my wall in the afternoon.

So there, Sunday is a rest day, so nothing on that.

My room wall is looking a little bland lately. What should I put on it? I've put some pictures, but there's too little of them! I can't think of other things to put on them. If you want to see what my ideal wall looks like, go to Youtube and search for charlieissocoollike. Look at his wall, isn't it brilliant?

I'm so jealous of Keith right now. Here I am wasting away at home, unable to go out because I'm still H1N1-contagious... And he's off in Sydney doing God-knows-what. Not fair is it?

Why couldn't the school just put the streaming results up earlier? Do they really need two weeks to process everything? I mean come on, it's a bloody computer that's doing the sorting, not an ancient Sorting Hat! Ugh. Just get it out already so I can hop on my plane and be off to the Philippines!

Oh and speaking of Philippines, I get to watch New Moon earlier than all you people in Singapore again. It comes out there on the 21st of November, last I heard. It only comes out here on the 3rd of December, so IN YA FACE.

too bored. too pissed.

2009-11-06T21:54:00.002+08:00

I'd just like to let you know, that because I am not wearing my glasses, my screen is actually magnified to about 5 times its original size. Isn't that cool? And everything is still rather blurry. :D

So, day four of being cooped up at home. It's rather tragic. All I can do at home is sit, stare, sit. Okay not really. I can watch TV, and use the computer, and make music, but that's not ALOT. Granted I might be just as inactive as I am now even without the sickness, but having the sickness makes me feel all the more pathetic.

I was so sick of using the computer that I ended up lying on my bed, attempting to take a nap. After about 1 hour of lying there, I eventually got up and decided to strum randomly on my guitar.

SEE THAT?! I WAS TOO BORED TO FALL ASLEEP.
how in the world is that possible?!

I can't believe I'm going to miss the last Cat class of the year. Would the catechists postpone it just for me please? (Yeah... In your dreams -.- ) Oh well, I hope Vicky takes loads of pictures, as she always does, and I'll just live vicariously through them.

I just realised that the main reason I am blogging, is cause I'm just so bored I can't do anything else. Plus, typing out a blog post is like talking to yourself, only you get to publish your conversation to the world and let others see what wacky things you can talk about. With yourself.

Did I just make myself sound doubly pathetic?

Anywho, I swear, I am going to hit the gym everyday when I get better. I'm fat. And I need to get rid of it! And, I have to build up my stamina... Not that it matters anymore though, Coach already chose the team...

!@#$@#$^%&(*%&$#~!@#$(*)(*#$@!~@#%$(*)*@#!~!@#$&^

UGH. I can't stand this already. One of the really really really bad downsides of staying at home for prolonged periods of time is being in too close proximity with my parents.

As of now, my mom's still cool, because she's sick as well, so she's got no energy to do much.

But my DAD. Gosh, it's alllllllllllllways my dad.
He's downloading something for the computer, and when it's downloading, you're not supposed to shut it off. But hey presto, there was a short circuit a while ago, and OBVIOUSLY, the power supply would be cut off. And obviously, cause and effect, the computer would shut off too. HENCE, the downloading would cease, and no download for the computer. Aw. Well, because I'm using the computer now, and I wanted to get my dad to download something for me, I clicked on that thing he was downloading for the computer and I wanted to show him and he immediately went...

"DON'T EVER SHUT THAT DOWN. YOU ALWAYS SHUT IT DOWN."

in a tone that was obviously blaming me for the delay in download and making me sound like an absolute retard. EVERYTIME something happens to the download or to computers, it's. always. my. fault.

bloody hell.

Couldn't even pause to think that maybe the short circuit had shut the computer down? And since he already started up the computer, he already had all the time in the world to process that it was the short circuit's fault.

In a fit of rage, people can do silly things. But I still blame you.

H1N1 Positive.

2009-11-05T20:55:00.002+08:00

Yep, I got it.
I got the H1N1 flu bug.

So now, I'm stuck at home, unable to do anything.

Which sucks, because this darned disease made me miss one very important thing.
The class chalet!
I wonder how it went...

Anyway, I'm feeling all better now. Just having a slight irritation in my throat, but other than that, I'm feeling good. The fever's passed, though i'm not sure if it's because of the Panadol I'm taking. And the resulting body aches are gone too.

But I'm still a confirmed H1N1 case.
whoopdedoo.

I shall tell you how they tested for the virus.

First, Ms Doctor puts on a pair of goggles.
Then, she takes out a sample tube thingy. It's filled with blood-colored liquid.
Next, she opens up a sterile container and takes out one really long cotton bud thing.
Afterwards, she takes that long cotton bud thing and STICKS IT UP YOUR NOSE.
She pokes and digs around for a bit, causing your eyes to involuntarily close and tear up.
Finally, she is done extracting your snot and you're good to go.
Snot sample is then sent to the hospital for testing.

voila!

I'd like to emphasise the length of the cotton bud, because it is really long. And it goes right up your nose, touching places you never knew you had.

How interesting this sounds, right?

Anyway, because of my virus and potential contagious-ness, I will miss out on so many wonderful things this week.

1. The movie-date with Trice, Gitta and possibly Ariel. D:

2. The school's open house. That would've been fun.

3. The last lesson of Catechism. This one's only a possible miss, all depends on if I'm still contagious or not.

4. (already missed) The class chalet and BBQ.

How tragic.

Everytime I have so much lined up for me, BANG, and I get sick.

Funny thing is, even if it is H1N1 this time, I still got the same old medication that I always get with every other sickness.

Just goes to show how sneaky H1N1 is. So my advice to all ya sick-feeling people out there. Google the symptoms for H1N1 the moment you're sick, specially when it's worse than you've ever been. If your symptoms match, go see a doctor. Might save you a lot of pain.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand you get to enjoy the thrill of having a long cotton bud stuck up your nose.

ALLTIMELOW.DW.little bit lost.

2009-11-02T21:50:00.003+08:00

Feeling just a teeny-weeny bit lost and confused at the moment. I don't know. I'm being weird I guess. I don't know what I'm doing. A little melodrama? Maybe it's the anxiousness of the situation I'm in.

Here I am, waiting for my streaming results, absolutely helpless as to what would happen. I'm hoping and praying I'll get into the stream I want (obviously the first choice).

At this point I'd like to point out that I can't actually see the blinking thing that shows you where you're typing. That little "I" thing. D:

Anyway, not just streaming, but what about next year? Am I being weird, or crazy, but I feel like my heart's not that into netball anymore. I mean, I don't mind trainings and such, but it's not as interesting and as fun as before. Am I crazy? I hope not. But I am actually deliberating if I should join a second CCA next year, or actually quit netball. Yes, at this point, I'm bordering on "insane".

On a brighter note, I came back from my voice lesson today. Mom says there's a general improvement in technique. I can sing, but now I sing better (: Yes that made sense.

I'm moving towards the art-sy side right now. As I always do during the holidays. Music takes over ever second I'm awake. Poetry slowly seeps back into my brain, and I actually form rhyming couplets now. In fact, I'd much rather spend my time playing the guitar than watching TV, on some days of course (:

And I'd really love to take up some dance classes. Not so much hip-hop anymore. I'd kind of rather do Jazz, but hip-hop would be fun too (: Drama classes would be fun too, and of course, voice lessons.

And Doctor Who. Ah Doctor Who. I haven't watched it at all this weekend. That's rather depressing. Can't go a week without the Doctor!

Also, I was at Gitta's house for Halloween on Saturday, as always. Dressed up as some weird white-faced black-eyed woman. The trick-or-treaters said I looked like a character from Japanese horror shows. Actually, I don't look THAT scary on first sight. But of course, with a couple of seconds of staring, and awkward movements on my part, you'd get creeped out. :D

In conclusion, our Halloween act every year relies on the scarers' acting skills.

wonderful shot eh, this one? My mom took it outside the Asian Civilisation Museum, as we were walking away from the opening of the "Land of the Morning" exhibit. If you haven't gone to that exhibit, you should. It's a great way to see the Philippine culture and its people and history. What's funny though is that some of the pieces were borrowed from the Ayala Museum in Makati, which I had gone to. And here they are, and I saw them again. But then again, this exhibit was partly sponsored by the Ayala group, so I shouldn't be surprised.

I'm in love with All Time Low. I swear, could there be a better band than them? They're awesome. Music's amazing, lyrics are amazing, and the icing on the cake? They're a bunch of really awesome, cool, funny guys that just love having a good time.

I promise I will grow taller this holiday. sleeping way earlier than I usually do, I should do that. Grow grow grow. Before the summer, Marion and I were about the same height, sort of. She was less than half a head taller than me. When she came back, she's definitely a whole head taller than me. That's not fair.
Then again, her parents are extremely tall. But I will still try to grow. It sucks being short ya know.

On the subject of being short.... My patience has really been worn out during the course of the year. I didn't mind the comments at all throughout the first semester. But come last term, I was shooting daggers out of my eyes at anyone who slams my height.

To those people who like to pick at my height.
It's not that funny you know. Making all those tall-short jokes. Yes I know me standing between two tall people makes a valley. Yes I know the air I breathe isn't as "fresh" as all you people "up there". Yes I know I can't reach higher up areas, that's why I ask you for help duh. Yes I know many things you like to tease me about.
I'm sick and tired of all these damned jokes. Honestly, if you take pride and joy in picking at other people's (let's say...) disabilities, then you're a sick person. Sick. Grow up will you? Really, being short wasn't so bad until everyone started poking fun at it.
You could do it once in a while, I wouldn't mind. Might even be a cheery laugh. But over and over again? Especially when you use it as a conversation starter? That makes you lame, and makes you seem unable to carry a proper, intelligent conversation. I keep asking myself, WHY AM I FRIENDS WITH YOU?

Oh, the "I" thing's back.

Anyway, to you people who make fun of my height... Get a life.

With all my bad attitudes towards things that irk me, I'm really glad that the holidays are here, and I can take a long break from the people I see everyday. Everyone needs time apart right? This'll give me a chance to refresh.

Goodnight people. Have a good one.

"I fell asleep and dreamt of you. I woke up and wished it were true."

life sucks, but resolutions must be made.

2009-10-30T20:35:00.002+08:00

Alright, i'm depressed.

My results weren't TOO bad, I'm still in the top 150 in level, but I dropped 100 positions, and that makes me sad more than anything. I also dropped out of the top 10 in class, which sucks a hell of a lot.

I'm one of the 5 people in the level who got A2 for English though. Fat lot of good that would do for streaming since all streams only need a "pass" for English.

Mr. D says I'm too complacent, hence the terrible results. Ms Chia says that if I could set clear goals and work to be BETTER than I already am, then I would be really really good. But because i'm too content with where I am, I suck. (I'm curious as to why neither of my teachers could have told me this if they'd already observed it for a long time. thanks a lot for being such a great help teachers -.- )

That's the reality of it.. Because of my lack of interest in somethings, I lose out, and hence, suck.

Too bad for me, isn't it?

Atleast I didn't have to face my results alone. I was with the other councillors doing duty with me, so I didn't have the urge to cry or be sour the entire day. Thanks you guys (:

Unfortunately, it didn't help that the new batch of councillors for both Sec 1 and 2 had met the minimum requirement of being in the top 30% of the cohort to get into the board. So, other than Ivy and Zhen An, we were surrounded with the "elite" and the smart-ass geniuses.

Tough and demoralising ya know.

Anyway, for the calm before today's storm, I shall talk about yesterday. After the briefing for Open House duty, Kaline, Bryan and I went to KFC to eat a really late lunch. We were kind of bored, so we played "don't-say-words-with-S-or-F-for-half-an-hour". It was tough, and of course, me being the blur one, lost. I made one mistake every two minutes! bliddy hell.

It was fun though, and we couldn't stop laughing.

And as per usual, they both ended up on the bus to my house for the loop. Such great friends you guys are, nice enough to accompany me most of the way home (:

These few days have been tough.. I know it's after exams, but it just seems so much more complicated and tiring.

The only thing that's keeping me afloat after my disastrous comments and results is what Li Han said.

"It's better to be the worst of the best, than to be the best of the worst."

Wise words from a wise man, who loses his shoes often :p

Next year, I promise. No more complacency, no more "camping". I'm going to work out a study plan, a good one, that keeps me going. I won't become a burnout, not like what happened this year. I won't fall below anyone's expectations. I'll pick up the pieces and get back into the top 100 atleast.

Because my first three choices were all double science, I'm kind of worried. Won't people think that I'm not smart enough to get into triple science? It's not that i'm interested in triple, i'm more of a humanities person, but you know, being in double isn't exactly the BEST.

I'm afraid everyone will look down on me, specially since most people I know were aiming for triple...

but i'm just not a science person!

ugh.

life sucks.

worried, stressed, desperate, confused.

2009-10-28T22:30:00.002+08:00

Stressed, worried and desperate.

And no, it's not for exams. Those were looooong over. This, this is what matters. Our (goddamned) streaming choices.

I'm really curious as to why the government has to make us make such a huge decision so early in our life. At this stage, we know that the subjects we choose would affect our future. Not so much which career you would take, because not taking Physics now doesn't mean you can't be an engineer in future (though it would help). Not taking Literature doesn't mean you won't become a writer in future.

It affects our future, as to our credentials, our foundation. Say you made a huge mistake and picked the wrong combination for yourself. You fail, you do absolutely terribly, and so you don't go to a good JC, and end up not going to a good college. Some may be knocked down by this, and end up leading boring lives. But a special few would somehow pick themselves back up and shine, climbing up the career ladder at the speed of light. That's up to you of course, but for some, it'd just be much easier (and much more impressive) to be in top schools all through their education.

Back to the point.

Early decisions stress us out. We think too much, and we can't handle such big decisions. Not just because of our young age, but because we are teenagers! The age of which we are known to be rash, indecisive, unsure of what to do with our lives!

And now the argument would be, but you have parents that can guide you and lead you in making your choice.

MY argument is that my parents are foreign and did NOT study in Singapore with the British GCSE system, so they wouldn't know the procedure, and hence have almost absolutely no idea what to do as well. (In my case of course, the folks are trying their best to understand what the hell is going on. Appreciate the effort, but it's really annoying when you have to explain everything...) They might not even know how to calculate the bloody O level score!

So it sucks, sucks to have to choose at our age.

did i mention it also sucks to be the first-born of a family with parents who did not have the Singapore school system? Yeah it sucks big time.

Why? Because as mentioned, my parents have no idea what's going on. And secondly, being first-born, I don't know what the syllabus looks like, and what problems were faced and all that. Sure, I could have asked my seniors, but they aren't related to me, so they'd more likely be on a different brainwave frequency. Having an older sibling would have allowed me to see what went on in class, what changed between Sec 2, and Sec 3. Such an advantage that would have been.

Would have been, and will never be.

We're back to square one, I have a first choice in mind already. But what if I don't get into it? I don't have a back up plan. I have other combinations I'd like to consider, but I don't know which way to order them.

I'm worried, stressed and very confused.

you'll never get me,

2009-10-25T21:20:00.003+08:00

you'll never get me.
no matter how hard you try.
you try, you fail, so you make it up.

you fake it, you lie.
you prance about,
making yourself seem almighty.

but you'll never get me.
you'll never see.

Nothing saddens me more, than when someone you know, doesn't know you at all.
it's not fair.

ANYWAY, today was a really boring day.
I don't even know why i'm making this post.

I have nothing to tell you people.

mily<3

really? no? okay.

2009-10-22T17:28:00.002+08:00

Right, it's time for me to make a comeback from the dead.

if you want some Doctor Who-ness, I shall say, I am regenerating :D
But most of you won't know who DW is anyway, so moving on...

I haven't updated in a while, and i'm sorry. Things have just been really busy, ya know? Exams and all that.

It's all over now though, going through our papers this week.

I've gotten back English, Chinese, Literature, Physics and Geography.

I gotta say, those were ultimate heartbreakers (I mean the last three, the first two were fine)

I was so stressed and was having a massive headache by Geography that I finally cracked, and I was pretty much a leaky fountain, from my eyes and my nose. And I honestly felt that I couldn't breathe. What a tornado...

We shall rewind to happier times, when the sun was gold and the skies were like diamonds (another DW trivia there!)

(alright, i have GOT to stop doing all those little DW things.. Just can't help it though, DW sticks to your head. like a drumbeat, never stopping... alright there I go again and back to the point!)

LAST FRIDAY.

if any of you actually read the newspapers, you would know that last friday, Carrie Underwood had a free showcase at Ion Orchard. I've got a video up on Facebook of one of the songs she sang (COWBOY CASANOVA!), and there's more on Youtube of course.

I went there an hour early with Eunice and Gitta. It was pretty darn awesome, though our feet was aching by the end. We were so thirsty too! Made a mad rush to Burger King after the concert. It was good though. And Eunice couldn't get over the fact that Carrie was unbelievably pretty.

haha.

Nothing much happened over the weekend, though Tito Dino bought NOTHING PERSONAL and MITCHEL MUSSO (the album, not the person duh) for me from the states. I screamed.

Nothing more exciting than having Mitchel Musso and All Time Low staring you right in your face eh?

Joey, Bela, and Tito Adjo sent over a parcel, and what was inside??? A V-TECH JACKET! yay (:

Moving on to.... Monday? Tuesday? I don't actually remember doing anything else over the weekend...

So we move on to the most recent event, which is WEDNESDAY.

Went to the official opening of "Land of the Mornings" exhibit in the Asian Civilisation Museum. You all should really go check it out, see what the Filipino culture is all about. It was pretty good. Ended up taking loads of pictures outside with Mom and Tita Gina.

I got offered a glass of wine... does that mean I look old??
(and a cute boy smiled and nodded at me..)

AND....... BACK TO HEARTBREAK!

Today.

THE day.

the first day I've ever cried looking at my results.

You'd all probably say, oh it isn't too bad. And some might even say "HELL THAT WAS BETTER THAN MINE WHAT ARE YOU CRYING FOR?!"

Well it matters to me that I didn't do as well as expected. And it matters to me that I think these results would totally kill my average! I didn't get a single A all day, and that's saying something, considering I had 3 of my best subjects today.

that sucks.

life sucks.

Though, I could say English was the only good thing today. 31/50. Not that high? Well guess what, it's higher than a majority of the cohort, so that's pretty darn good.

that's only the comprehension though.

holy crap what if my composition was terrible?!

argh. And now, i'm back to having WEIGHTLESS - ALL TIME LOW as my sub-concious soundtrack-of-my-life.

I hope this update was good enough for you. At this point i'm actually considering not adding my usual blast of colors and size variation, but I think I will... In a while.

did i mention I managed to be one of the first few people to hear the Chartjackers song, I've Got Nothing?

Yes, they are awesome.

If you don't know who they are, then you're a loser. (or if you want to be a winner, go check them out on youtube.)

they're awesome for a huge number of things, and for introducing me to DW :D (yep there I go again...)

OH and when I went to Paragon yesterday, I stopped by Marks&Spencers and I saw the most awesome pair of boots.

Should I get them? I would love some boots, but hardly anyone wears boots here, much less back home in the Philippines. so wouldn't that make the boots pretty worthless to buy?

Opinions please (:

AND, when I'm done making a couple of All Time Low shirts, and a couple of Chartjackers shirts, I'd probably get back to re-personalizing this darned blogskin.

PS. HALLOWEEN IS AROUND THE CORNER, AND I'M SO EXCITED!

exams, stress, hormones. me, part of that?

2009-09-23T22:25:00.002+08:00

With all due respect.

why is that such a cool thing to start anything of with?

"With all due respect sir, but i think you're wrong. you see, the moon is yellow, however you have color-blindness, and hence you have difficulty seeing its colors."

"With all due respect (name), I think you're making the wrong decision. it's a left, not a right."

simple conversations you can have with yourself then. (:

ANYWAY, exams are literally right around the corner.

one more weekend (hey that's your corner!) and BAM!

it's gonna hit you like a big yellow school bus.

ouch.

I can't wait for it to be done and over with though. It's like, "HELL YEAH WE'RE FREE FOR THE REST OF THE YEAR."

of course, that's not exactly true, seeing as we'd have holiday homework and that crap. D:

School saddens me.

"School? Why do you have to be so damn sadistic?"

THIS BLOG SADDENS ME CAUSE IT'S DYING.
Like, honestly, who the hell comes to this blog anymore ):

PEOPLE IF YOU DO, YOU BETTER TAG ATLEAST JUST THIS ONCE. (or twice or thrice or quadruple times if you will.)

Exams. Stress. do hormones balance out the equation?

I know these exams are important, they decide what kind of stupid things we have to do next year! But, i don't have the will to study. Why? WHY?! This is the wrong time for stubbornness and cockiness to sink in Ches. Yeah I already know that.

I've gotta work hard.

I may not want a top stream, but I want to be able to make that choice. I don't want some silly computer deciding for me. It's for me and me alone.

There's Chinese Oral tomorrow. You'd prolly know that i am the most un-chinese-speaking-person in a Chinese school. pathetic, i know, but sadly that's my reality. I know the answers to questions, but only in English. My translator, I just hope it doesn't break down tomorrow.

I'm dying slowly. But this isn't the time to give in to it.
Perseverance, mental strength. That's all I need.
It's not rocket science, not yet.
it's just a simple mindset.

i'm just hoping i won't screw anything up, or get distracted by all the crap that i'm always thinking about.

(why can't i just be a part of that? why? why must there be such a big difference between you and me?)

disney. doctor who. hmm?

2009-09-06T22:29:00.002+08:00

Currently listening : Send It On - Friends for Change. (Radio Disney)

RIGHT. i should stop watching Doctor Who late at night, when i'm all alone. Honestly. I always choose the scarier, creepier ones by accident and ugh. I just can't help but keep watching it anyway cause it's bloody DOCTOR WHO!

:D

Oh gosh, i love Radio Disney. It's so bubblegum-pop-ish and comforting and nice to your ears. And I don't care if...

1. You think the Jonas Brothers are fags.
2. You think the Jonas Brothers are gay.
3. You think Miley Cyrus is a biatch.
4. You think there's something wrong with Disney.

Nope i don't care. Cause Disney's actually pretty awesome.

And if you don't like Disney, you just threw your entire childhood away (:

it's a free land.

2009-09-04T23:41:00.003+08:00

OFFICIALLY.

today was the last day of term 3, the last day of slack-ness in class, the last day of relaxed minds and calm composures.

and in a week, HELLO TO STRESS-FILLED STUDY DAYS AT THE LIBRARY.

bliddy hell, how fast time flies.

and 3 weeks after that week, we're on to our exams.
and then 3 weeks after that week, we're FREEEEEEEEEEE.

Right, I shouldn't get ahead of myself. Focus on the present, the most important, the top priority. I sound like I'm giving myself a pep talk before a match -.- WHATEVER.

Holiday Homework

- Geog. stack of worksheets
- Physics e-learning
- Math Revision Papers A + B + C1
- Chinese worksheet
- Literature stack of worksheets
- ART sew-up
- Home Econs report

holy cow.

that's a LOT of work.
wish me luck?? thanks.

"what's it like to stand behind these doors?"
"but you are behind."
"on the other side?"
"oh."
it's a free land.

"do you see them?"
"who?"
"the stars. they're oh so pretty to-night."
it's a vast land.

"I hear them."
"Do you? Hear what exactly?"
"The leaves as they rustle. the twigs as they snap."
"Music then?"
"Yes."
it's a free land.

THAT MADE ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE, i think.
oh well. just wanted to put more inspirational stuff that strikes me up on here, before i get too tired and too uninspired.

:D

BEEN TIRED AND UNINSPIRED.

2009-09-03T20:53:00.002+08:00

I'm not sure how true that title up there is, but i'm sure it does mean something to a whole lot of people right now.

I think of the upcoming exams and go, "cause all our brains have turned to mush and these days we have are numbered."

A little poetic, don't you think? And yet, that's as far as my inspiration these days go.

One line, two at most. And then I get stuck.
Or it just sounds nice that way.
Maybe it's my cliche :/

and then there's my favorite lyrics at the moment.

"and this is our ground zero,
so would you be my hero?
fly in like my superman
and save me cause I know you can."

i thought of it in Chinese. you know, ke4 wen2 26 i think?
the one of the chinese dude who goes in to save all those people in 9/11 at the World Trade Center.

COPYRIGHTED YOU GUYS. so no funny business.

pfft.

brains turn to mush.

I've had two tests back-to-back today. Like Meng said, "back-to-back action non-stop all day!"
I feel like i'm living the script to 'worst day of school'. I guess the tests went well though. Chinese wasn't as bad as I expected.

(side note: actually, chinese isn't as bad as it used to be. either i'm getting better, or it's getting easier. i'd like to think the first one though (: )

and Geography wasn't that bad either! although i'm sure i could have felt much much much better about it should i have studied better. lately, my revision doesn't seem to satisfy me...

I wanna go on an insane shopping spree someday.
Maybe not now, but someday I will. (:

chowders people. and wish me luck. i've got hard weeks ahead :/

excess energy and a one-hop dance.

2009-08-25T21:36:00.003+08:00

My current PM says : "wants to throw something really hard at something else".

And then, all of a sudden, there's this huge concern as to what the hell pissed me off so much.

I can't honestly say what it was, because frankly, I don't know what it was either. It's just, everything seems to piss me off these days.

Faulty internet connections, faulty speakers, faulty dvd players....

Seem to have built up a pattern have we? Faulty stuff pisses me off then.

But honestly, that PM had nothing to do with being pissed off.

If you have seen me in school recently, I have been ridiculously hopping about (especially on stairs) with this large bandage called a knee-guard on my (where else) knee. And with the injury of one's knee, comes great disadvantage.
For example, no sports.
Without sports, I have no way to release excess energy. And honestly, I can't even dance about on the spot too vigurously or whatever because my knee just can't take it.

terrible.

So, as I was saying, no sports, no activities, means a lot of excess energy.

And i really really really want to use all that energy at one go, but I can't.

Sigh.

And now i have to see a physio-therapist.
Not now, sometime. This week.

sigh.

ridiculously over-average.

2009-08-12T21:19:00.003+08:00

The average person laughs 23 times a day.

How you define times, is beyond me.

I'd say, one time is when you start to laugh and when you stop.

Example : if i said a joke and you laughed, that's once. and then you pause and take a break, but you're still thinking about that joke, so you laugh again. that's twice.

Generally, I laugh alot, so I'm probably not your average person.

Just this afternoon, I went with Roi (or Roi went with me) to the MRT station so he could take the MRT home and I could top-up the value in my card.

(see how it's compromise?)

Anyway, just that half and one hour would probably have been equated into the average 23 times of laughter.

Now add that to the rest of my day.
and the fact that I can find the beauty and joy in a hella lot of things.

Am I not a ridiculously life-enjoying, fun-loving happy person?

Yes I am. :D

I also have to study for a geography test on Friday so. toodles~

the lookback.

2009-08-10T21:09:00.002+08:00

NOTE : the following post is not in relation to anyone in particular, atleast, not to the general public. but to me, yes, these are real events, slightly exaggerated in the interest of literature, but real enough.

Weekend #1

He did the look-back. He did the LOOK-BACK. What's the look-back you'd ask.

You've got no time, no space to say.
You turn to follow the crowd,
then back to face him or her,
try to send a message with thine eyes,
unable to look away.

But time constraints and social expectations do not permit such open displays of words. So you do the look-back and hope he/she gets your secret message.

it's special.

it's special when you both get the same message.

And so you did the look-back.
Then you had to pull away, and I had to protect my dignity by walking away.

But inside, you've got my heart pounding like a million drums. I would've skipped away, but for fear of judgement in such a judgemental world, why would I?

the look-back.

the first.

weekend #2

Though the sun had set, and night was quickly falling, how different would it be than the first?

A little more different.

Number one was a "hope we meet again".

No, this was "I'm so sorry. I wished we had the time. But now I have to leave."

A hurried glance,
a last-ditch attempt at making yourself heard.
But you've been so vague,
and the doors were closing fast.

The look-back number two.

Not so much a heart-warming event. It was a sinking, emptying feeling.

I've lost.

You've lost.

We're lost to the world.

the look back number two.

you're both so special, in very different ways.

weekend parties, i'm an old courtier.

2009-08-07T20:54:00.003+08:00

Okay so i've been meaning to post this up for a really really really long while now, but everytime I open up blogger, i realise i need music to think, and then i get distracted with all my music and i end up not doing this in the end.

sorry guys.

ANYWAY, pictures of my birthday are on my facebook and bea's. so go check 'em out (:

THANKS to all those who gave me presents and wished me happy birthday!

I'm really honestly glad I didn't post up a wishlist, or even wish for anything beforehand, cause I got all sorts of lovely surprises from everyone (:

First present was Vanessa's though, early in the morning. A thick wad of paper from her journal/diary planner thing that she hadn't let me see for a week or two.
She actually slammed the book on my hand when I tried to sneak a peek.

And let me tell you, V's not actually violent EVER, so that was a surprise (:

However if you do count the new rollerblades that my parents got me two weeks prior, and the guitar they got me half a week early, then yeahh, she's the third (:

AND, all of ya'll got me really cool creative stuff that really seemed to fit into my non-existent wishlist so thanks so much!

Now then, on to more serious matters. what else is this blog for???

Serious serious matters, that's what.

Anyways, lately i've been feeling kind of blue again, but not for the reasons as before.
For the first time in a long time, i'm feeling out of purpose ):

I've been feeling this coming along for a while, kind of like, i'm barely doing anything for SC or the class or netball that's really specifically MY job, and then i'm feeling pretty useless.
Or I see people who are of a lower level (in terms of status/title) than me, and the higher-ups are approaching them instead of me.

i feel like i'm losing the opportunities to prove myself worthy.

no purpose at all.

and then i realised i've been slacking off, losing everyone's favor.

it's like those courtiers (1500s) and the courtesans(?) of Paris back in the day. Not do well enough, or not do enough at all, and you lose out.

simple.

and mind you, i was feeling pretty bitter and jealous at today's National Day celebration. Just staring and staring at the hosts and wondering if i even had the chance to get up there.

it's really like everyone's lost faith, lost trust, lost purpose in me.

and then I feel disappointment and frustration at myself, because I lose out on opportunities to prove to others that I am capable. And i don't know WHY i'm losing out!

ughhh,

People in school whom i used to talk to, we've drifted apart sure, but some really really really went all the way away.

I don't get it.

did i do something? or did i say something? or did i not do anything which is why they've gone?

I don't like this.
not one bit.

PARTIES ON THE WEEKEND BABY

tired, uninspired. confused.

2009-08-02T23:23:00.003+08:00

Hey people!

i had an awesome party yesterday.
thanks everyone for coming and hope those who came had fun! :D

haha i can't post photos now, cause i don't have them in this laptop, but they're on facebook so go check 'em out!

anyway, gosh, i feel really REALLY tired and uninspired.
once again.

sinking into boredom and stupor.

oh well. confused. ):

reupdation.

2009-07-30T19:36:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOSH THIS BLOG HAS BEEN DEAD FOR 12490485787 GAZILLION YEARS.

Just reupdating on what's been going on I guess.

1) MY BIRTHDAY'S TOMORROW. mark it down people.

b) I got rollerblades and a guitar from my parents! <3

iii) I MISS MY FRIENDS LIKE BEA, INAH, MARIE, MEI, GRACE, JOY, ANGELO, AJ, GERICHO, OMGDIDIMISSANYBODY?!

five) Trip to Marina Barrage today with class was awesome. super. damn. bloody. spastic.

54-386) DOCTOR WHO IS AWESOME.

1245) I used to be love drunk, but now i'm hungover <3

fifty) erm, i had something really important to say actually, like a long paragraph, but i forgot when i started this post so, never mind (:

alright you readers. i shall put this blog on a probable temporary on-off hiatus because i'm just always so distracted! :D

nerdfighters, lost in austen, DOCTOR WHO, MERLIN!

2009-07-10T21:36:00.002+08:00

Ariel's a blooody git for introducing me to Lost In Austen.

Now every time I gasp or go "ohmygosh" at something, it has definitely got something to do with that.

(though I suggest you read PRIDE AND PREJUDICE first, before attempting to watch this movie.. )

Either that, or my own discovery, with the help of nerimon and charlieissocoollike, DOCTOR WHO.

It's unbelievable really, how much better British television is THAT much better than any other.

seriously.

unbelievable.

i'm gonna get stuck on Youtube now, devouring it for Doctor Who episodes.

oh i do hope Ariel gets me my copy of Lost In Austen, as in EVERYTHING in it please (:

Plus there's MERLIN. MERLIN you guys.

Starring the oh-so-adorkable Bradley James and Colin Morgan.

Colin's accent is to die for, seriously.

amazing.

the series is showing on Hallmark, if you want to catch it, but I believe it's on a break now, you know, next season coming up soon..

AMAZING SHOWS.

that's the guy who plays Mr Darcy in LOST IN AUSTEN.

Elliot Cowan.

and here's our dear MR BINGLEY.

Tom Mison.

that's the current Doctor Who. if you knew about the series, you'd figure out that Doctor Who is the longest running sci-fi show in history. and is probably the best!

David Tennant, by the way.

he's gonna be gone and replaced in the next, next season, as they always do with the Doctor.

sigh, what a waste.

Bradley James as Prince Arthur in Merlin. Look at those true-blue eyes!

dashing, dashing....

and there's Colin Morgan, playing Merlin.

AGHHHH. i'm obsessed, and it's not even Harry Potter. sigh.

by the way, i've taken a liking to reading the books again, seeing as i've missed out so much.

i actually freaked out when I realised i forgot how to play Quidditch, which is insane, because i always knew how.

anyway, yep, rehooking myself, don't want to lose that spirit!!

gosh i'm such a geek,

but i don't care.

nerdfighters!

DOCTOR WHO IS FANTASTIC.

2009-07-09T18:10:00.001+08:00

DOCTOR WHO IS AMAZING.

Finally understood why Alex D. and Charlie M. like it so much.

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

For my birthday, could someone buy me the DVD of Doctor Who please?

and and and/ or or or LOST IN AUSTEN?

you guys can pool together money, i don't care. :D

i'm scared. this shouldn't be happening.

2009-07-07T18:35:00.001+08:00

This shouldn't be happening.

This shouldn't be happening to me.

This isn't what's supposed to happen to me.

This isn't the way I thought it would happen.

Never would I have thought.

And then, booom, out of the blue.

So, so, so, out of the blue.

You get the lucky strike once again.

How many times has this happened between us?

How many times have I openly told you about something, realized you were "contesting" for the same thing, and then find out that you got there first?

If only I had gotten over silly infatuations and ridiculous obsessions so long ago.

But maybe it wouldn't have helped, because one little thing, and your obsession picks up again. Just one little thing.

And here's me, toiling and hurting and hoping away for years and years, and you get yours just like that.

ugh.

Life is unfair.

birthday plans, homework plans, GET TALLER PLANS.

2009-06-30T20:15:00.002+08:00

Sigh.

I think i'm getting fat.

Sigh.

But don't worry.
I won't develop an eating disorder because I have no self-restraint whatsoever, plus, the call of chocolate and other unhealthy things is just TOO STRONG D:

hahaha whatever.

My mouse is going haywire.
pfft.

So, second day back in school.
Nothing too eventful has happened.

the school is taking "extensive precautionary measures" to keep us safe from H1N1,
and they have also provided new vending machines and a few new changes in the canteen, so gonna go spastically try them all!

oh weirdo.

My birthday's coming up, and i've got absolutely no plans!

Of course, i gotta have to have a sleepover with ARIEL LESLIE MERMAID FROOGLYDUP.

and then, some sort of BBQ.
but that's the problem.

I don't know which group of friends to do the BBQ with.
It has to be a big group, so i guess the "waterside/tanjongrhu" group is out, cause we're a pretty small group of friends. probably just invite them over for a swim party or something.

then there's the Bingo group, my ex-schoolmates, and my current schoolmates.

sigh.

GOTTA THINK GOTTA THINK GOTTA THINK.

It's so terrible in the first official day of school.
HOMEWORK.

okay, i admit, mainly my fault for not completing all my holiday homework, but that's cause i didn't know how!
but i will do my best to finish up, promise.

ARGH, it's 8.20pm, i haven't showered after going for a walk outside with my mom, AND i want to sleep by 9.30pm.

I want to get tall you know.

like, atleast 5 feet? Ugh.

being short, not always a joyride people. and now that you know that, please stop picking on short people, because sometimes, it's really a pissing-off kind of thing, especially if that person is already pissed.

seriously, don't.

and that Mr Yeo Shi Yuan is back in school.
He popped by our classroom today, and from all the way across the room he went, 'HI MARIA'.

what the eff.

eff off. seriously. STEP OFF.

gosh. insensitive stereotypical possible-racist jerk.

go away.

transformers, not holiday homework.

2009-06-27T20:53:00.002+08:00

Haven't posted in a long time!

this is probably getting to be one of those dead blogs no one visits.
but whatever.

i'm gonna try and keep posting and stuff .

Anyway, nothing much is happening nowadays, just the usual scramble to try to finish holiday homework.

honestly, why is it that only local singapore schools have holiday homework?
I tell my friends from other countries or IS about this fact, and they practically have a heart attack.

what's the use of this holiday homework other than to terrorize kids in a way that makes them paranoid of school?
seriously, if i had homework even in the holidays, then i'd start to feel like i hate school.
but if i didn't, then i'd be feeling, "hey shouldn't i be doing homework?" and then start to miss school and miss doing homework.

plus, it's a freakin' holiday.

whatever holiday we have, or even long weekends, WE GET EXTRA HOMEWORK.

pathetic.

it's really not gonna help us, atleast i don't think so.

Anyway, Michael Jackson, Mr. King Of Pop. has just passed on recently, as did Farah Fawcett.

Honestly, i am not the least bit affected, specially since he's been out of the limelight recently. So, it didn't hit me like a tragedy.

But nonetheless, condolences to his fans and family and friends.

I still have holiday homework.

and all of the remainder is CHINESE.
really, i am so anti-chinese-work.
i still don't understand why i accepted the school's offer to stay in Higher Chinese class, or the fact that i even picked chinese as my second language in primary school.

I DONT LIKE IT ONE BIT.

it's a tough subject for me.
i don't speak it to anyone at home, and hence my knowledge in it's vocabulary is way limited.
i don't write in it unless necessary, e.g. homework or tests or something.

basically, i don't use a single bit of chinese on days i don't have school, so why am i taking it!

ugh.

it's really tough for me, and i always feel stupid doing it, i have no interest in it, and i feel like it's a waste of time for me.

sigh.

Oh by the way, went to watch Transformers 2 : Revenge of the Fallen last night.

it was AWESOME.
the effects, the sound, the everything!

ya'll gotta go catch it sometime.

RADIO DISNEY, H1N1

2009-06-24T20:06:00.002+08:00

I'm so pissed that school wasn't extended.

I mean, seriously, the government knows for a fact that schools are the perfect breeding ground for viral stuff, especially flu.

From common sense, i'm no expert, but this is pretty much how a whole pandemic could occur.

Kids like us are rather nonchalant about this H1N1 thing, and it's like, we don't mind squeezing 30-40 people in a classroom. Which could easily result in a fast spread of a virus. And ugh, the CANTEEN. now imagine all that crowded-ness???

someone's gotta catch something.

I'm actually listening to Radio Disney right now.
It's pretty awesome, although it's pretty much teeny-bopper kind of music, if you know what i mean.

it's HSM soundtracks, Hannah Montana soundtracks, and pretty much that.

but it's refreshing to my ears for some reason.
i like it.

no, I LOVE IT!

(there's these weird sounds coming out of my computer and i don't know where.)

I think I deserve a congratulations.
why?

BECAUSE I FINALLY SYNCED MY IPOD AFTER A GAZILLION YEARS.

thank goodness. now i've got fresh new music to listen to.

anyway, thinking of changing my blogskin again. sigh.

false hope.

2009-06-09T20:02:00.003+08:00

EEEURRGGGHHHH.

people.

stop sending me stupid links to porn sites and live webcam shows.

firstly,

i am a girl and i am not lesbian or bisexual and hence not interested in seeing other girls being obscene and immoral.

secondly,

porn is for losers/perverts who can't control their over-raging hormones and are sick in the brain.

thirdly,

you stupid virus. you're giving me false hope that someone is actually talking to me. it's making me feel pathetic and i know i am.

yes you heard me.

the almighty never-bored me is feeling pathetic.

i'm in a house full of 12-16 people at a time.

and as of now it has 6 kids including me.

AND IM FEELING PATHETIC.

oh anna you really have surpassed yourself.

well anyway, i really just wished someone would talk to me.

hold a nice, intelligent conversation with me.

but on the bright(er) side...

WE'RE GOING TO THE BEACH ON FRIDAY!

yep.

packed with a ROAD TRIP!
and BEACH TRIP!
which equals FUN TRIP!

oh what am i talking about yes we're REALLY GOING TO A REALLY AWESOME BEACH.

not like those constantly-cleaned-by-students-but-still-very-dirty-beaches in singapore!

and anyway, i've been home for almost a week now, and i've done so much, but i haven't posted now have i?

well i didn't really want to, to be honest.

a) because it seems like no one is reading this blog anymore. oh haha, yes there's probably only 2 of you reading right now.

b) i was too lazy to.

and c) because i think pictures would be more effective but i can only upload an insane load in singapore when i get back.

honestly i think the hype has died over the number of people reading this blog. guess i'm not interesting anymore.

oh what sweet tragedy.

and i thought of this randomly while staring at the instant-messenger screen waiting for someone to pop up and start talking to me... (yes that's what i do most times, stare blankly and feel pathetic.)

pretty much based on this person doing exactly what i do (stare blankly at the screen and wait) and then that person sees their crush's personal message as

"i love you"

or something gooey that involves the crush expressing their love for someone ELSE.

and our protagonist begins to type in her/his own personal message...

"i just wish you meant it for me."

or something along those lines.

yep.

not very well thought out now is it?

but it just rolled off my mind.

and it ties in with the false hope i was thinking of at the time so there you go.

Yay this. Is. HOME!

2009-06-02T22:47:00.001+08:00

Oooh I'm home now, in the Philippines!

And I'd just like to say that I will not be able to text at all anytime soon because my phone keypad is dead. If you want to get through to me, ring me up and I'll try to communicate with y'all (:

christmas memories? LONG LOST BUDDY!

2009-06-01T21:50:00.002+08:00

HAHA OMG I JUST FOUND THIS OUT FROM MY MAMA.

there's this photo she found from christmas in the Philippines at Joseph's house.
in 2003.

and GUESS WHO WAS THERE!

AJ AND ANNE OHMYGEEEE.

and to think i always thought i just knew AJ now?

here loooooooooooook.

(and spot me if you can.)

should be packing,

2009-06-01T09:54:00.001+08:00

Alright, i think i should be packing right now?

my flight leaves tomorrow morning and i have to get to ACS(i) today from 1:15-9.30pm.

sigh.

and i think i'm sick?

but oh well.

heavy heart and a broken soul?

2009-05-30T21:36:00.002+08:00

Alright.

i've got my heavy heart on weight-supports.

I have consciously decided to become more active in Deviantart, especially during the summer in which i can go snap happy with my dad's Nikon and Leica.

oh yeah i'm so gonna enjoy the Leica.

FILM STRIPS BABY~

and anyway, yes i really wanna focus all this energy i have built up from bad times into something creative and artsy, just to have something to do other than homework.

speaking of homework, i have been diligently (sort of) trying to finish up so much of my homework within this weekend, not including monday because on that day i would be so tied up i'd be exhausted by the end of the day.

yeeeesh.

i have finished literature completely.

i don't want to rush Physics because i don't want to do just for the sake of doing.

i will type out my History reflection on the plane.(or write it whichever works)

i will attempt to do Math a little bit this week, because i can't understand some questions, then i'll try to finish up at home.

i will do geography at home in the phils because then atleast i'd have different weather than everyone else!

i will TRY seriously TRY to do chinese. what with all that to do, AND my tuition homework, it's kinda discouraging especially since i hate the subject.

i deeply and truly and INSANELY hate it.

but that's pretty much it right?

and class tee, well, i'm gonna chiong it.

sigh.

this is me and my pain.

2009-05-29T19:39:00.002+08:00

shitshitshit.

i feel screwed.
i feel like i wasted my emotional rollercoaster last year.

so today, i heard from a friend that well, people were talking about me.
oh sure fine, it's not me being a biaaatch or something. not the stuff i'm used to.
no, it was me being a suck up.

A SUCK UP.
A BOOTLICKER.

the first time i've ever been called something like this.
the first time i've ever felt so torn up and (idon'tknow) hurt?! since primary school.

and the thing is, the person who first commented on me being a suckup, was in the circle of people who i thought i was pretty okay with. you know, like big brothers or something.

and to think, i really did think i could trust them. who knew they really thought i was a suck up?! gosh.

so in short, i've just been told that i've pretty much been backstabbed by the very people who i really thought were friends?

wow, that's the real world for you girl.

so am i really a suckup?
sure i talk to the seniors.
i talk to them alot.

but i don't now, not anymore.
i'm sticking to my own sec twos more now, which is i think a good thing, though it's a pity i'm not as close to the sec threes anymore...

okay so maybe i'm acting on just a simple rumour. something that somebody created.

still, it poses the question...

am i really that well-liked as i thought i was?

shit people.
my defences are crumbling and my confidence is shattering.

my primary school friends, my very best ones, have already seen how i've somehow destroyed my own personality.

i've no confidence left in what i see in myself.

mentally/academically, i don't believe i'm all that smart anymore. which is true. i don't believe i'm as good as some people think i am.

physically, huh, i tell people i don't mind being short, or i just smile and shake off their taunts, but you know what? i really do mind. i mind not being able to do so much, not being able to go right into people's faces and telling them off the way i want to because I CAN'T REACH THEIR FACE. and always being teased that i can't play netball/basketball/whatever?!

please, you need skill, not height. it's a disadvantage, but atleast i think i'm good enough.

being the butt of so many jokes really takes a hit, just to let you know all you lucky average-height insensitive idiots...

and once again, to the topic of insensitive.

i hate that english teacher. Mr. Yeo Shi Yuan. (not the one from 2IT)

you see we were having a conversation, and we were like arguing (of course playfully, not so mean) and then, i said something real smart.

what was his response?
something not so smart.

he resorted to everyone's last resort.
insultation(?) of what runs in my blood.

i'm a filipino and i'm very proud.

but what do most people think of filipinos, especially in such a developed country like Singapore?

yep you guessed it, DOMESTIC WORKERS, also known as MAIDS.

now you see, he went along and called me Marianne(?) or some name he thinks is stereotypically FILIPINO and said, "i don't need a maid to follow me around."

now, sure that really cut my heart when he said it the first time.

but subsequently, everytime he saw me and wanted to say something, he always started by bringing up the topic of me being a "maid".

now i don't mean disrespect sir, but shit you.

you're just one of those typical Chinese people that thinks they're so high and mighty because most of them employ maids, and most maids employed are filipinos. so what, you think that just because we working as maids in some places, that we are all maids?

SHIT YOU.
you have no right to say such things.
you've got people of your race working as cleaners too, that's almost equal to maids. we filipinos have got positions at the top of big corporations and business.

you know what? stop being so egotistical, stop being so stereotypical. you're living in a goddamned multi-racial country so start acting like it and don't look down on other races.

and you know, haven't you ever thought that filipinos are maids because we're good at what we do?

i'm sorry readers, if this was too heavy for you.
but i swear, i'm sick of it.

and not only that, i really feel like i've shattered my own defences, let
my wall fall.
that i've lost my confidence, and just let what everyone else think rule my
actions.

and shit, you can see the tears that roll down my cheeks.

2009-05-26T23:04:00.002+08:00

alright the other post was rubbish.
but i love rubbish.

i really wanted to type out an entire paragraph of nonsensical rubbish to pollute your mind, but my own tiny little mind could not stand the temptation of TV and Dr. House! sigh, the downsides of having a short attention span...

tsktsk.

there's that boy in the corner
once again.
he's revealed by light
now and then.

so what is this creature,
strange, mysterious?
a boy perhaps, a man more like?
a clown, or much more serious?

every now and then,
a melancholy tune is whistled.
sounds like a man,
a man who's been through things and fizzled.

he's old, he's young,
he's a confused little soul.
he's strong, he's brittle,
he's who nobody knows.

ALRIGHT THAT CAME OFF THE TOP OF MY HEAD.

geeeeeeez. argh. PHILIPPINES!
amf.

anyway, i lost my train of thought, it was insanely long, but i lost it.
so for now, i shall leave you lonely reader one question,

plurk? or no plurk?

oh and by the way, if you're reading this, i suggest you seriously comment because right now, i have no idea why i'm still blogging when my blog is possible already dead. -.-

noone likes my life anymore D:

thank you good night (:

2009-05-26T16:01:00.001+08:00

random post of random words with barely no paragraphings.

that's apparently not a word according to Safari. I had this idea. "bigSMALLbigSMALL" and as i was typing it, i realised the word "screwed" should come in after. hence my current personal message as of now, 4:02pm and oh my gosh HOUSE is showing gotta go.

history trip, HE MINE.

2009-05-25T23:47:00.002+08:00

IT'S (almost) THE HOLIDAYS!

ohmygosh i'm so excited.

but wait...
there's more!

WHY!

i am excited, because I have printed out my Math Holiday Homework and I am GOING to do it! ohmygosh that is so so so exciting!

okay no not really.

i'm excited, BECAUSE IM GOING BACK TO THE PHILIPPINES YES OH YES OH YES!!!!

and i'm excited for one other reason that I don't really REALLY want to make public.
in ya face you nosy *bleeeeep*

ANYWAY, i have started Math holiday homework, and i intend to do the Chinese ones too.
sigh.

pathetic no life loser geek.
sighsighsigh.

FINALLY, i am done with section jacket.
FINALLY, i am almost done with class tee -.-

if it's not those cowboy boots in the summer,
then ohmygod i'd pray for another
chance to drive down back highways
til i stumble upon your beautiful (something. rhymes with ays.
eeek)

OHMYGODDDD.

why am i so hyper? I don't really know!

but in honest truth, i really did enjoy the history trip today. the information and stuff really did sink in, and i was so INTERESTED. ohmy. INTERESTED.

and also i found out that i am very much deathly afraid/paranoid of wax figures. i think.

ALRIGHT.
im done. for now. *evil laughter*

and ohmygooooooosh. he talked he talks he mineeee.

hallelujah.

2009-05-23T23:16:00.002+08:00

alright i'm ALMOST done with my class tee.
and calling suppliers too, but that's a different thing.

IT'S A COLD AND IT'S A BROKEN HALLELUJAH.

rips your heart out and sends shivers down your spine.
definitely.

well anyway, i was reading FML this morning and then i had this urge to send something in.

what would i send?

"today i woke up and immediately went to do my math holiday homework. i was
frantically searching for it in the school website and i really wanted to do it.
there's 1 week to the start of holidays. the homework hasn't even been published
yet. i'm a geek. FML."

there we go (:

awesome isn't it? I really actually wanted to do the work.

sigh. it's sad.

BUT OH WELL.

i'm beginning this half of the year in a new light.

definitely gonna attempt to do more art-sy stuff. I think i'll have more time in the later half. for some unknown reason.

and i did score insanely above my expectations for my MYEs, which is AWESOME.

and i don't know what direction this post is going but i'm just gonna keep going until i'm tired.

i'm quite tired now.

listen to HALLELUJAH!!!

DEVIANTART IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!

2009-05-20T18:57:00.002+08:00

Alright alright I know i'm insanely late in this, but DEVIANTART is coming to Singapore!

YES, FINALLY.

anyway, yep, i don't want to be the only kid there, and I need some people to go with me!
yeeesh.

TEXT ME IF YOU WANT TO GO (withme!)
or if you're going.

it's tomorrow, 4PM, at the Merlion Park
(the one near the Fullerton Hotel. Esplanade Drive i think.)

eyebags?! i need to lose weight -.-

2009-05-17T12:02:00.002+08:00

OH.

MY.

GOSH.

I HAVE FREAKIN' EYEBAGS LIKE SCADOOOSHBAMBAMBAM.

eyebags ew.

eyebags D:

ME, EYEBAGS *cries*

alright my mission these two and a half weeks before summer vaca....

1. LOSE WEIGHT DUH.

2. GET RID OF MY EYEBAGS.

plain old. deadbeat. people-stalker.

2009-05-16T22:37:00.003+08:00

"You can't break a broken heart"

that part in Kate Voegele's song just absolutely rips my heart out. I don't know why, but it just does. the whole vibe just kills me.

my playlist right now just really seems to suit my mood, though not so much the feeling I'm feeling. cause it's soothing to my ears. which is good.

So i just feel like i have to bring something up.

So on Thursday i went to catch a movie with Vanessa and Jeanette right? Well, i had to take the train home myself, and i cursed myself for forgetting THE most important thing in the world.

my earphones.

therefore i was stuck on a 30(?) minute train ride all alone, really alone.

so i got on the train and was followed by two groups of people.

the first would be a trio of teenage girls chattering on and on (standard duh) about hair and fashion and irritating parents and so on. So i drowned out that conversation.

the second is a pair of very tall 20-something guys who probably just got out of NS cause they were deciding what college course to major in. the majority of the conversation went to deciding what kind of psych course actually.

after a few stops, the girls got off and a group of filipinos got on. (oh yeah we're awesome. why? i don't know.) they were animatedly chatting about something i couldn't catch.

and do you want to know WHY?

because the twin towers behind me were so loudly (to me) discussing their college course in their boring monotone voices that were so YUCK that instead of putting anyone to sleep, they'd just drive any person nuts.

filipinos got off after a while, and i was stuck with the Twin Monotones for the rest of my train ride.

how sad.

basically from people-watching, i have noticed that teenage girls like to chat about almost anything under the sun that they have something to comment on (yes i'm guilty of this too, who isn't?). and filipinos talk with so much enthusiasm and facial expressions and emotions. (oh yeah, we rock.) and well, those guys....

they need an IB lesson, or maybe an EPS lesson (:

i feel so many things that usually, USUALLY, only people with a midlife crisis should feel.

i'm 13/14 for goodness sake.

THIS IS SO NOT HAPPENING TO ME.

a new blogskin and a summerblockbusterbuddy!

2009-05-15T19:06:00.002+08:00

welcome to the new blogskin.

"been tired and uninspired" by tm.

apparently.

basically, yes, i have been tired and uninspired lately.

so obviously, this was perfect.

AND, it's white, basic white. which is good.

the choosing of this blogskin would make sense in my head, and therefore, i don't think explaining it would help.

Caught AngelsandDemons with Christine today.

Understood perfectly why Teacher David didn't really encourage us to watch this.

but it was nice all the same.

By the way, i need someone, preferably someone conveniently free to be my backup movie buddy this summer, incase my dad isn't totally free.

basically you gotta be my summer-blockbuster-movie-buddy and we'll go and watch all the upcoming movies..

1. Star Trek
2. Ghost of Girlfriends Past
3. Terminator Salvation
4. Night at the Museum 2
5. Up
6. Land of the Lost
7. The Taking of Pelham 123
8. Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen
9. My Sister's Keeper
10. HARRY POTTER!!!!!
11. G.I. Joe
12. Bandslam
13. Sherlock Holmes
14. Public Enemies

there we go. that's my list so far.

13 and 14 have two hot guys (:

and 10, oh how can you possibly pass up HARRY POTTER?!

and the rest pretty much just seem cool.

whooooooop.

alright i'm done. Probably gonna put up another list soon (:

relief and triumph, disappointment and elation.

2009-05-13T19:28:00.002+08:00

I want new guitar strings!

Steel ones, no doubt. they sound way brighter. but i want the lighter ones. heard such things existed (:

and i need a guitar pick -.-

and a capo!

my fingers feel uncomfortable, but they're nice-ish.

We're so close, SO CLOSE to the end of MYEs.

everyone will be screaming in triumph and relief.
and then we'll be thrown into disappointment and elation during the debriefs.

that's so screwed up and sadistic isn't it?

SMELYALATA.

nice song, isn't it! wambambidum.

I was honestly seriously freaking out before the science exam today, and when we went in, checking the papers, i was still hyperventilating.

but then, as my pen touched the paper, it all came flowing back to me. (sounds melodramatic but whatever. deal with it.)

i hope i did okay.

and i'm not gonna study much tonight. it's only math. nothing i can't handle, right?

i think i want to change my blogskin. gotta get some of DJs blogskins...

alright ya'll, get a life and stop reading about mine (:

-GUITAR STRINGS
- CAPO
-GUITAR PICK
-NEW BLADES (freestyle oh freestyle)

am i?

2009-05-11T18:08:00.003+08:00

Using my mom's Macbook now. it's a rather strange invention, no doubt.

I was just thinking about this.

My mom likes to tell people now that i've changed. I'm always frowning or being a brat or whatever at home. and that i've lost my happy-go-lucky vibe.

she's so wrong.

You see it's not that I stopped being happy, it's just that, i can't find anything particularly interesting at home that makes me act like i am in school.

everyone in school sees me bubbly, happy, happy-go-lucky, insane, hyper. you all know how i am when you see me.

But at home i'm just dead. nothing's wrong. just that there's a whole lot of nothing at home.

mom thinks it's PMS or something, i say it's just growing up.

she's not exactly a ray of sunshine at home either.

just like that guy who wrote the Good Ship Tree person.

"childhood is like a habit." No one ever decides to give up on childhood things, it just happens. no explanations, just sweet ole memories you wish were still in the present.

and my bestie just left me alone for 24 hours now. the same one who said that these four days would be a long time apart.

oh please. give me a break.

i tried telling you how i can't handle what you're doing. you're too complicated, too serious, too over-everything. I can't even find the words to describe how all this has screwed me up right now.

i've shared so many problems with you, when i have just realised that one big problem is you and me. we get along so well, but when it all comes down to the basic skeleton of our personalities, we're just like fire and ice.

you're the best, but this isn't what i can take right now.

IT ENDS TONIGHT - THE ALL AMERICAN REJECTS.

(PS. wonder how i'd look with blue eyes. just like Bradley James, Colin Morgan or Tyson Ritter. i'd like to try with some contacts ;D )

WOKEUPONTHEWRONGSIDEOFLIFETODAY

2009-05-06T12:07:00.003+08:00

You know how loads of people go on hiatus during the exams ?

yeah well i don't believe in that kind of tradition.

BUT, because i have been so busy lately, studying and all, i have in fact been on an unannounced hiatus that even i didn't know i was on.

how's that for clever!

Went to study at the library with Jeanette yesterday. She went home at like, 6.15? So I ended up walking all the way to Popular on my own. sigh .

but mama came to pick me up so it's okay (:

HAHAHA I BIT MY TONGUE. and there were two bite marks that were not-really-bleeding-but-it-was-still-really-red!

and Darren dreamt of me. um, ew? i'm flattered but still. ew.

WOKEUPONTHEWRONGSIDEOFLIFETODAY.

change of playlist. BIGCITYDREAMS

2009-05-02T16:46:00.002+08:00

As you would have probably noticed, i have changed my playlist.

no, not just the layout you moron.
it's the songs.

no more preppy naive Taylor Swift love songs, for now.
it's a little bit of other stuff now (:

enjoy~

____________________________________________

alright so back to the usual blogpost.

let's just say i'm still a robotic emotionless freak panicking because she isn't studying right about now even though she's freakin' sick of seeing anything eduational.

my mom's making tortillas.

i figured out how to play KRISTY ARE YOU DOING OKAY on the piano. yay me~

sick of love? love sick? same difference ain't it. well that's me.

i thought of a few things.

these lines are what's going through my brain.

i thought of this in chinese compo exam... "if you're romeo, can i be juliet?"
and i imagined this scene of a girl walking in on a guy in costume. hah?

and then there's this line, "the Mafia's dangerous business boy. don't go messing around with it."
and that's accompanied with Robert DeNiro relaying that line to a little boy, probably someone who looks along the lines of Eric Bana. hah?

"you've got be putting x's everywhere." another random line.

time travel as stated by the English textbook doesn't work that way. it just means you'll go somewhere reaaaaally far, reaaaaaaally fast.

the Da Vinci Code is on AXN...

I HATE STUDYING LIKE MAGNETS REPEL EACH OTHER.

(i have no idea where that came from)

i need chocolate. do you?

LET GO is playing.
oh i love the new player (;

bambambambambooo.
chugachugachugachoochoofizzzz.

i think i'm done now .

eighth world wonder, it's not enough

2009-04-28T20:14:00.003+08:00

that's Paris you guys.
*deep drawn out sigh*

it's exactly how i imagined it.

i really wanna go now ):

Alright, got back two test papers today.

Chem - B4
Maths - A1

okay, it's not bad right?

But for some reason, i looked at my maths paper and went all quiet and sad.
i felt terrible.

It's soooo not me to want more than I have, especially when it's already so good.
But i wanted more than that A1, i wanted to get higher, top the class or something.
I couldn't understand it at first either, and then it hit me.

I've changed so much.

My brain has been fried in bio-chem-geog juice and coated with hist-lit-math-chinese sauce and served to a big fat green monster that chowedchowedchowed. D:

I'm an emotionless freak and all i can feel is stress.
I feel no empathy, no sympathy, no joy in anything. I cannot fully laugh out loud, i can't break down in tears and cry away my troubles.

i feel nothing.

but i know that this'll all be over soon.

suddenly, i don't feel like going for class chalet.
it's not the money or anything, but it's kinda what the money'll be worth.
i've never spent an entire day with the majority of the people who'll be going, so how can i stand it for 3 days?

sigh.

it's not helping that MYEs start tomorrow, and i'm still here.
here pouring out all this random nonsense.

I'm stressed, and i know it.

i can't find other ways to study.
i feel like i've studied enough, that's what my sane part of me is saying.
of course my insane part is screaming NO IT IS NOT ENOUGH.

then tell me then, dear heart, dear mind, what's enough for you?

Seven days and seven nights of thunder
The waters rising and im slipping under
I think I fell in love with eighth world wonder
-Kimberly Locke (?)

churcheeeee. smelyalata

2009-04-26T14:12:00.003+08:00

alright, hey thanks to people who tagged.

specially to my bimbo-on-the-fourth (:

dear me,
don't push me.
i'm already on the edge.
love, me.

//NEVERSHOUTNEVER

(isawesome)

ps. just a tip, don't overuse the phrase. just don't.

Kristy, Are You Doing Okay?

2009-04-22T20:06:00.001+08:00

Kristy, Are You Doing OK? - The Offspring

I want to be Superwoman. can i handle it?

2009-04-22T19:55:00.002+08:00

EEEUUURRRRGGHHHHHH.

I'm sick again.

I look bliddy shagged and deadbeat.

Is it because i'm sick?
Or because i really am already shagged and deadbeat?

Anyway, my mom came to pick me up after school today, and we passed these students who were obviously sec one.

Her main differential points were that they still looked fresh and bright, as compared to the tired-looking stressed-out students the rest of the school has.

she's right though.

And it seems like i'm trying to be superwoman by forcing myself to study NOW. Few people are mugging like crazy, and well, i'm one of the few.

Is it too early to mug? Everyone has theories that going too fast too early would eventually cause your engine to fail.

I don't want my engine to die out in the middle of the mountain climb.

Mr M. talked to me after class today.
He said he was very disappointed in my history essay marks. I was too for that matter.
So then he asked me why i was doing so badly. I told him i was just deadbeat and tired.

and that's when I had an epiphany.

maybe I wasn't made to be a mugger. but my psychological program is so screwed that i think i am. and maybe i've been slacking off way too much.

so i can't get it straight.

have i been slacking too much?
or have i been working myself too hard?

help D:

in the meantime, i'll be stuck here at home, feeling awful and miserable and uncomfortable.
sigh.

and bestie, i know you're trying for me, but please stop trying to be superman ):

studystudystudy.

2009-04-21T18:32:00.003+08:00

PEOPLE. STOP.
TELLING. ME.
TO. EAT.
MUSHROOMS.

explanation?

Well you see, Mario eats mushrooms and what happens? HE GETS BIGGER!
and so, if i eat mushrooms, people think i'll get bigger too.

pfft.

incase you've forgotten, Mario also shoots cannons after he's eaten tons of mushrooms.

(during Biology)
(via sms.)

Me: practical for sexual reproduction?
Xinhao: OF COURSE! Who do you want for a partner?
Me: ....
Xinhao: You can do pair work, group work, class effort, or solo. Which one?

Xinhao: Now you know why the chairs in the labs have holes.
Me: Now i know why there are curtains everywhere too.

What an intelligent conversation.

I'd like to announce that Andrew has successfully made something that isn't snot come out of my nose twice so far. And both, i think, were intentional. -.-

"I can't breathe."

Really had so much fun studying today after school for some reason. *big wide grin*

Also have come to the realization that I haven't been spending time with Roi, and we have now fallen back into the pattern of studying after school everyday.

Sigh.

I feel like a bliddy study-freak this year.

and so, that concludes today's chapter of my life.

i might add that I HAVE TWO BLIDDY PIMPLES THAT ARE EWEWEWEWEWYUCK.

you know there's a problem when you can't pull a straight face.

2009-04-19T21:55:00.004+08:00

When you can't help but smile in every photo,

When you can't seem to pull an "emo" face,

then you know you're truly happy (:

left unspoken.

2009-04-18T21:25:00.002+08:00

this piece is beautiful.

amazing.

it should have won, but no matter, winning isn't everything.

watch it, get the meaning behind it.

i think it's beautiful.

and watch it a few times.

1st time, get the overall feel of the movie.

subsequent times, enjoy the beauty of the film work and the DIALOGUE.

the dialogue is effing clever (:

"Do you want to go?"

"No."

"Besides, traffic will be a nightmare."

"This is not a test."

"Don't let go."

madewithlove folkguitars

2009-04-15T21:53:00.003+08:00

I know this might just be one stupid little mediocre thing to you, but I couldn't resist posting about this.

I met my first considerate smoker today.

I was out at PlazaSing's carpark cause it was too cold inside to wait for my mom, and i was just leaning against the railing listening to some music. This group of late-twenties people came out and one guy lit up his ciggy first. However, he walked down a flight of stairs to the lower deck and his friends were like, "what are you doing down there?!" and he gave me a look and said,

"smoke here lah. there got small kid eh."

THANKS FOR YOUR CONCERN.

but maybe, you should just quit your bad habit(:

Anyway, went shopping for a guitar today. I want that $502.90 one from Yamaha. (:
It's a folk guitar, FS720S if i'm not wrong.

It's pretty darn good, and the sound's really full, which is good. Plus, it has this black finish that is just PURRTEEEEEE>>>>

Then i went down to the 3rd floor(?). Found this store called MADEWITHLOVE.
it's this really cool scrapbooking store that has the coolest collection of scrapbooking materials ever. and there's workshops there and stuff.

I think i wanna work there part-time if i get the chance (:

I NEED TO EARN MONEY UGHUGHUGH. babysitting here i come!

Just realized i've lost my monthly income of $10-$20 ever since Gitta's family stopped coming to the same mass as mine.

I no longer get to go to their house = tito Mon no longer needs my help = NO MONEY TO EARN D:

Right okay, gotta go shower and homework and stuff.

pandemonium. (panda!)

2009-04-07T21:27:00.002+08:00

Out of the pure pandemonium that is my life now, I have decided to take time off and blog.
All for you lovely readers.
not really.

Sigh, what a waste of our match today.
We're leading 14-2, and then BOOMCLAPCLAPFIZZ,
it starts to rain.

Hopefully we get to pick it up from the 3rd quarter...

And what another waste, stupid geography test today.
If it were a class quiz, it'd be ownage. cause i knew the answers, CAUSE I STUDIED OKAY.
But no, it wasn't counted in school marks...

SIGHSIGHSIGHSIGHSIGH.

Thing's I haven't done..

1. English Book Review
2. UPLOAD EXCHANGE PHOTOS
3. SECTION JACKET DESIGN
4. Class Tee design.
5. Revision
- Chemistry
- Geography
- History

AND I JUST REMEMBER TOMORROW GOT HISTORY TEST SHIT SHIT SHIT.

okay bye now byebyee. *panic*

(oh and i even forgot about David A's signing today, ugh.)

harry potter is way better than twilight

2009-04-05T20:16:00.002+08:00

Gosh, my dad keeps yelling at me.
If i do something, he'll yell.
If i don't do anything, he'll yell.
What the hell is up with that????

Anyway, that was just a sidetrack.
This post has a point, strangely enough.

So, HARRY POTTER, or TWILIGHT?
(yeah i got this idea off of one of Hank Green's videos, the one of the harry potter song. there was this whole comment-debate thing and anyway...)

Regardless of how much I love Twilight, I'd still go with Harry Potter actually.

HP's been around since forever and I really did grow up reading it. For 7 years, it was my companion. Wait no, that can't be right, I can't remember if i could read it at 7 years old...

Point is, I grew up with it, grew up with the characters and all.

PLUS, if you take a look at the storylines, Twilight is just kind of a supernatural modern Romeo and Juliet. Harry Potter has it's own little world stuck in London, which is great.

Also, i'd like to point out that I didn't do anything for Twilight, because i know it would never happen. Seriously, a vampire boyfriend? I'd be first in line if there was such a thing. but nooooo.

I remember I was pretty disappointed on my 11th birthday. I thought i'd get a letter from Hogwarts, with an owl and everything. i felt super extra special for years and years because my birthday was the same as Harry's (: It still IS the same actually.

Didn't cry when i figured Breaking Dawn was the last book in the Twilight Saga. But i was bawling when I reached the last few pages of the Deathly Hallows. I couldn't stop reading as much as i wanted to. I DIDN'T WANT THE STORY TO END!

I think everyone thinks Twilight is better, because it appeals to a more adult audience, whose presence can be felt more in the world. HP appeals to kids, who don't know how to create fansites or posters or shirts or whatever it is we can come up with now.

So i made my point that HARRY POTTER IS BETTER, (and the fact that JK Rowling managed to squeeze in gay/homosexual innuendos is a plus).

And i don't care if you don't care what i just talked about in the entire post. Just wanted to prove a point.

comment on this in the tagbox!

Alex's video on Harry Potter's homosexuality... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5grBzXKKe_E

plastic cups, one point, let down.

2009-04-02T21:41:00.002+08:00

Sigh, another day, another story.

Finally figured out the british accent, cause well, I CAN DO IT NOW YAY ME.

We had a little match with HGSS today, and seriously, WE LOST BY ONE POINT.
D:

But no, the pain in that was in myself.
I STOPPED after just one quarter. I didn't know if i could continue or not, and i regret it. I feel like a failure, because my stamina is like shit, and well, THATS ALL IT TAKES TO RUIN MY POSITION.

Coach said... Coach ALREADY said, my position is shakey, and unintentionally, i think i'm making it worse? At the point of time, I make it worse and only realise when it's over. And regret sinks deeper and deeper.

Sigh. I let myself down.

And then, my progress report isn't TOO bad, did expectedly bad in Chinese, but that's about it really. Improved in my science, and dropped in my humanities.

but, i know what i did wrong for my humanities, so i'm kind of okay with my results.

Now, i have this drive to mug like crazy, and it's always there. That naggy feeling. Which means that at the end of this post, i would leave the computer and go study.

yes, Anna is gonna study.

ONE BEAUTIFUL THING I LEARNT TODAY...

Bryan was playing Stacko with those plastic cups we had, and well, i started playing, then Florence started playing, then JunLin started playing, and we all ended up playing it.

it was entertaining.
(posting up vids soon.)

ALRIGHTY, study time.

2009-03-31T22:09:00.000+08:00

hurhur. awesomeness.
(if you can find the ENTIRE description of this personality, it sounds alot like me. sort of.)

hoedown hankerchief with a dead keith and peanut butter

2009-03-30T19:47:00.003+08:00

hehehe, gave MiiChiang her present this morning.

made her close her eyes when i put the bracelet on her (:
I think she liked it.
She looked like it.
She KISSED me hahahaha.

Which made me forget to take a picture of her reaction *pouts*

But oh well, BESTIEE HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY!!!!

So, i want to murder Keith today. Really.
Keith, you should watch out.

First you pangseh. Then, WHAT THE HELL DID YOU SAY OMGGG~.
made me blush like ~~~~~~~~~

tsk.

Miley Cyrus - The Climb.

I have this fascination for TAPPY games.
If you don't know what i mean, DJ Max and TapTapRevenge are some examples.

OOOOH. JamLegend.com is awesome if you have a wireless keyboard (:

I'm addicted to those games ahahaha.

OH AND I DID THE HOEDOWN THROWDOWN.
in the middle of the fourth floor.
which was awesome. hahahahaha,
public humiliation (:

ANYWAY, KEITH I STILL WANT TO KILL YOU .

right, time to go chiong my overdue homework.

PS. There's this apparently well-dressed 40plus year old man around our school, asking for girls' hankerchiefs. And the entire time Mr Chua was describing this, the whole school was laughing cause he seemed to be describing himself. hmmm.....

tumblr back up!

2009-03-29T12:39:00.001+08:00

ANNOUNCEMENT.

my TUMBLR is back up and running.

(atleast for now)

LINK IT TOO IF YOU CAN.

checkyes-juliet.tumblr.com

and even better yet, GO JOIN TUMBLR!!

plain living.

2009-03-27T23:10:00.003+08:00

It feels good to know people love you.

This entire post shall be about appreciation.

To THE sectwo batch of councillors,
ohmy, you guys seriously brighten up my life everyday.
I love recess cause i get to see you guys, and even though nothing interesting happens, it's still nice to know we'd stick through stuff together.

To my C-going-on-B div team,
I love you guys to death seriously and we gotta stick, stick like super glue. Really love going to training because i get to see all of ya'll, and we can all get high and random and be totally stupid together (:

To my section, and to THE council board,
School would never be the same without you guys. It'll be a boring, monotonous life without SC. Really. Even just having a simple section meeting or seeing all of us together makes me feel happy and good (:

to my dear KEITH.
hurhur you know why i love you right right right! (funny eyebrow look)
that's all that needs to be said.
toodles honey~~
(weird finger thing)

and to THE MIICHIANG!

i just really love you to death because everytime you see me it's like you haven't seen me in YEARS and i love you for it! awww, it makes me feel really touched and loved you know (:
appreciation.

And this is where i have an epiphany.

I depend on others to get me through the day, which goes to show someone out there depends on me too.

we're like a card house. Each one is flimsy and weak, though some may stand out of course, but still, main point, WEAK. but stacked on one another, we depend on each other, and we can stand.

and so, just like the tree in the common test paper said, we shouldn't be selfish and live for ourselves, but we should think of others and think of what we do for them just by plain living.

PLAIN LIVING PEOPLE!

overeverything.

2009-03-26T19:21:00.002+08:00

currently listening to : THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS

So lately, i've been feeling slightly overwhelmed.

And with just that sentence, the one reader reading this would immediately think, "THEN GET OFF THE COMPUTER ANNA!".

and now you're nodding your head, cause you know i just read your mind.

ANYWAY, point is, i have been feeling overworked, overwhelmed, just OVER-EVERYTHING.

Coach just told me, and only me, that my position in the school team is shakey.

It could only mean one thing.
I'M NOT DOING WHAT IS EXPECTED OF ME.

but i can't push myself any further...
I'm trying my best.
I'm really worried because this isn't the first time he's told me...
I don't know what else i can do to please the team, please my coach.

I can't stay up like most people late into the night studying, because i would lose out during the day cause i'll keep falling asleep.

but if i rest early, i'll lose out on study time. And eventually my studies.

UGH.

My time management is crap, and no workshop will change that.

I don't know what to do anymore.
Where to focus my energy on, and at what time.

and here's my brilliant plan...
Turn into a super antisocial person who does nothing but mugmugmug during her free time.

but that's just not me!
I need FUN, EXCITEMENT.

which brings me to how everything i go through everyday has become monotonous and boring.

ROUTINE.

i know that's how life is supposed to be, but even little things like walking a different way home is a surprise, a change.

i'm really tired already, there's no more steam to keep this engine going.
and the same routine everyday is just making it worse.

just a little change.
try a little change.

and i found out i share something really important with hsintung, which i don't want to share with her.
(because it might put a strain on our friendship)
i don't know what to do.

i don't know if i should pursue it, because i don't even know what to do with my current situation, ahemahem.
and it would be slightly easier to LET IT GO, if we knew what the other side wants too.

right hsintung?

i shall stop moaning and whining now like a kid and just tell you all that ANDREW CHUA really sounds like a donkey sometimes.

EEYOOOORREEEEE.

2009-03-21T21:23:00.009+08:00

I'm at Ariel's house now.

AND IM LOVING HER ROOM LIKE OMFG.

anyway, i shall post about camp in a little while, when i have time, i promise this time.
But for now, i shall raid ariel's files.

What have i found?
(btw, she's writing me a love letter on graph paper with a quill and ink. seriously.)

that would be me, probably a year ago. it's outside Marina Square and i was trying to do the zoolander thing.

epic fail. seriously.

and this is eunice and me, swaying. to Paula Deanda's song.

and at the end, eunice freaks, and actually i did too, cause we didn't know ariel was filming.

WARNING : the following photos were commented on by ariel unless otherwise stated. please do not be taken aback nor freak out if she sounded spastic or retarded, or otherwise weird. remain calm and continue scrolling down for everything has to end. right?

i shall go read her letter and write her one back now. take care on your journey with her. it could be dangerous.

wait, what am i saying? how can ariel be dangerous? SHE'S A RADIO PIRATE THAT STOLE MEXICO FROM THE PORTUGESALS! :O

ohhhhh.

OHHHHH.

OOOOOH LALALALA. :D
*starts to break out into the twilight-parody-from-niga-higa song*

if you havent noticed, thats cheska with the glasses and the flyaway fringe.

Deep. Fried. Guacamole
But Mr. Moustache! Whatever happened to your beard? Come, come, dont cry now. We do hair transplants, so do not fret.

Because we're awesome, and you cant join us. (:

"ishh my camewa. ppppbbbblthhhhh!"

Im as awesome as this wall. :D

Cause im just a little bit caught in the middle,

Life is a maze, and love is a riddle.

RED ALERT. CAMERA UPSIDE DOWN ABUSE! ALERT. GAH. HUMBUG. BOOOOOO! :D

pondering life. and love. and war. yep, thats what she's doing.

you know you love us.

steph: "weeeeaaaahhhhh!"

cheskoo: " ? :D "

ariel: "OOMPALOOMPA, IM A BAKKWA."

haha. cant touch this, na na na na.

People from takashimaya suddenly gasped at the sight of these ravishing young cows stepping out of a Jane Austen book (from Kino, of course). They'd just gone for a midday stroll with Mr Darcy, Mr. Edward Ferrars, and Heathcliff (he escaped from his stupid bloody moors book).

Run, baby! Run!

Santa baby,

just slip a sable under the tree, for me

Been an awful good girl

Santa baby,

so hurry down the chimney tonight

'Cause its the best time of our life. Note the dresses, and the closeness of bart, joe & ed.

"Migs!"

"Guel!"

Hahah. Poor Miguel.

ALERT!

Pink shirts? check.

Pink shirts with stripes and squares? check.

Jeans? check.

Glasses? check.

Nerdy nerd awesomeness? check.

Blah Rah and Cheska Doodle. (:

Oh, yeah. We meant to look like that. Uh huh.

Bye bye birdie, from Ariel! :D

Cheskuur kur is writing me a graph paper love book, and my ~~quill~~ ink doesnt like her!

(this is where you double over laughing at someone else's expense)

But my computer does! ):

(this is where you go "awwwwww")

And she doesnt like me that much.

(this is where you make angry huffs and noises and swear that you will love Ariel forever and ever and ever and ever and ever)

Hahaha.

Whooops.

She's done.

GASP! (:

iloveyoucheskadingdonggooolygooly.

blogskin change.

2009-03-19T10:56:00.002+08:00

Finally changed my blogskin after all this time.

One hour to camp reporting time, ugh.

I'm so freakin out cause i might forget something.
ahahahaha.

oh well.

Right, that's it.

Just wanted to say i changed my blogskin.

AHEMspasticAHEM.

topurpledino;loveholybanana.

2009-03-17T21:26:00.004+08:00

忍

that's a motto worth sticking to.

(to my purple anorexic dino.)

Life means ups, and downs.

People make you smile, or frown.

Flowers bend and break through the wind,

but a tree stands tall.

Just think, think back to that paper.

The tree, it talked, about living.

It's never really for yourself,

but mostly for birds to sing.

somewhere, out there,

yes someone's wishing too.

that same bright star,

just reaching for the blue.

I know this year's gonna be tough.
I know it's really gonna be rough.
Everything's gonna be what we expected, and more.
So maybe we should raise our expectations,
over-estimate the world as we know it.
but for the sake of ourselves, and those depending on us,
we have to keep pushing.
we'll be the little engines that could.
stay strong, hold on.

(love your yellow holy banana.)

yeah i'm a dreamer.

2009-03-16T23:07:00.001+08:00

Young hearts,
I believe that we are not far
From becoming who we truly are
Love is on its way

Dreamers,
You see everything in color
While the world is getting darker
Love is on its way

So hold on another day
Cuz love is on its way
You’ll find it’s gonna be okay
Cuz loves is on its way
It’s alright, you'll find a brighter day
Cuz love is on its way
Ohhhh...

Leaders,
Show us how to love each other
It could help us to recover
Love is on its way

Lonely,
I believe that you will find me
And together we will truly see
Love is on its way
Yeah

So hold on another day
Cuz love is on its way
You’ll find it’s gonna be okay
Cuz loves is on its way
It’s alright, you'll find a brighter day
Cuz love is on its way

Yeah
Hold on another day
Cuz love is on its way
You’ll find it’s gonna be okay
Cuz loves is on its way
It’s alright, you'll find a brighter day
Cuz love is on its way

Cuz love is on its way
Cuz love is on its way
Cuz love is on its way

perfect writing.

2009-03-16T11:31:00.003+08:00

cause you're my bestfriend.
and you'll never be replaced.
so put on that smile i love so much.
cause it always makes my heart race.

I WANT A LINED BOOK WITH THE HARDCOVER TO WRITE IN.

criteria to be fulfilled?

1. preferably a compact size, though not too small, and not too big either

2. LINES HAVE TO BE PERFECTLY SPACED. i like the spacing between the school paper. that's a good spacing.

3. HARDBOUND. or else.

Yep.

Everyday beauty?
Today, I woke up with the sun shining in my face, and birds chirping outside. It's nice. Peaceful.

life is filled with self-conversations and rhetheorical questions.

i love records. and Borders.

2009-03-16T11:12:00.004+08:00

I think records are cool. It's the new IN thing.
Unfortunately, my dad won't let me fiddle with his record player, so i have no idea how to play the records. I do love it's quality though.

It's like old-hollywood-glamor.

which i love too (:

OH YAY.

SC camp is just DAYS away. Another happiness meter boost.

I think i'm gonna bring homework, and then i'll sit down with Kaline and Bryan and whoever else sec twos are there. And we'll put in the anti-climax of the camp.

HOMEWORK.

I dreamt that most people in school died. Isn't that scary?

Seriously.

There were guns and knives and people chasing each other. I don't know WHY we were getting killed, but we were. And it all took place at night, so when for some reason, all the lights were turned on and more people and police and officials started filing in, everything became clear.

People died.

People drowned (in the lake no less.)

And people like me were traumatized.

And we had a train(?!) running through our school.

and BARBEQUE PITS.

weird eh.

But scary. I do believe I woke up crying, because I think I was.

MOVING ON......

I have no idea what's wrong with me.

It's holiday, and i make plans to go out, and then BAM!

I get sick. (but it's a managable flu now.)

BUT ITS ACOMPANIED WITH AN ITCHY EYE.

you've got to be kidding me -.-

OOOOOOOOOH, and if you ever go to Borders' in Parkway, go straight to the place where they sell the notebooks and stuff, and buy me that TRAVEL STAMP NOTEBOOK.

that costs $26.

Or you could just stay at the entrance of the store and buy the NUMBER 2 TWILIGHT POSTER

which costs $16.

this is why Borders' pwns.

guys + skinnies = ew.

2009-03-15T19:01:00.002+08:00

Just finished posting some pictures on the class blog.
From last year.

I'm feeling super tired.
I think it's cause i don't get my happiness meter way up in the clouds anymore.

So Yuling was just moping about grades,
and i told her it was possible for her to shoot up into the sky like the lava from a volcano if she tried hard enough.

Nice use of metaphors, no?

GIMMICK THIS TUESDAY OH YEAH (:

i think that'll help my tired-ness.

Actually, i'm not tired.
I'm lethargic.

To put the term right.
I'm LETHARGIC.
yep .

gimmickgimmickgimmickgimmick~~~~

*happy dance*

What have i been up to lately?
nothing much.

Oh, but i have for some reason been people watching.

And you know what really irritates me?

Guys.

You heard me.
guys.

Why? CAUSE OF HOW THEY DRESS.

Seriously, have they never picked up a single fashion magazine, or watched something STYLE related?
(never mind, don't answer that)

Because well honestly, SKINNY JEANS DONT WORK ON GUYS.
it just looks wrong.

If that looks good to you, you have bad taste.
I'm sorry, but yeah.
Where are those BAGGY JEANS people!

That's better.

Guys, go save up to buy yourselves a nice decent pair of Levi's jeans.

And you know what else i think is gross?

non-full length pants, like 3/4 or something.

You can't figure out if it's shorts, or PANTS.

Which is disgusting for some reason.

Or maybe the skinny jeans TREND is only here. Because back home, i've seen a few guys trying it out, but it doesnt start a full on trend. Cause EVERYONE KNOWS IT LOOKS WEIRD.

back home you've got the polo shirt and the baggy jeans.

much better.

RIGHT. enough.

I don't want to start a rant.

ciao,.

taylor swift. i want my own songs.

2009-03-07T19:18:00.002+08:00

I love and hate the E! channel.
really.

I'm watching this special, on Taylor Swift.

And i love Taylor Swift.

She's like, my idol or something (:

ANYWAY, it's making me cringe with jealousy at her.

AND, it's like, giving me inspiration.
and more drive to buy a guitar.
and motivation to start writing again.

There hasn't been a single song coming out of my brain since last year.
And i feel bad.

Really.

I'm just gonna be spouting out random sentences that make sense in my brain, but won't string so well in this post.

There's this drive I have, always, to write. Write a song. Write a song about me, my life, people, guys, troubles, EVERYTHING. And i'm like, i already know the piano, so i wanna learn the guitar, hence the need to buy a guitar, just to try it out. You know?
The same drive is pushing me, you know, making me look up to Taylor, cause she was just so normal, and now this huge star!
ANYWAY, sometimes, i can actually write some songs, that are actually nice. And you know, i can't really do it PROPERLY with a piano, cause well, no passion eh.
But i'm intending to do it with the guitar, so i really really really really want a guitar!

EH.

So i really want to get that guitar.
And i really need that notebook, those big A4 sized notebooks.
(not the ringbound ones. i like those that seem to be glued together. but they can't be like the scream city kind, cause those break easily.)

So yes, that's why i love and hate the E! channel.

Lexie Hayden rocks. http://myspace.com/lexiehayden
http://youtube.com/lexiehayden

Taylor Swift rocks alot. http://myspace.com/taylorswift

ciaoooo.

tonsilytis, seventh heaven

2009-03-05T19:42:00.002+08:00

WOW.

AMAZING.

I got sick again.
OHMYGOODNESS.

Tonsilytis? (i don't know how to spell it eh.)

Basically, it means my tonsils are very inflamed and swollen, just like last year.
And just like last year, it happened around this time.
Coincidence?

Anyway, to add to that, I have this ulcer, right at the back of my mouth, which itches(?)
whatever. Basically it kinda hurts.

So right now, my mouth is pretty uncomfortable.

OH AND YOU KNOW I WAS LAUGHING WHEN THE DOCTOR TOLD ME WHAT THE ULCER WAS.

Basically, it's a STRESS ULCER. yes, you heard me.
STRESS.
But it's not like, stress stress, it's immune system stress.

And an immune system that is under stress, is a weak one.
and a weak immune system is caused by late sleeping.
AHEMAHEM, LATE SLEEPING.

Actually i might have made it to school, since it's kinda like sore throat.
Unfortunately, because it is TONSILYTIS(whatever), it is somehow accompanied by fever, and since my fever is constantly at 37.9, it's kinda giving me dizzy spells, and headaches.

So there we go.

Didn't make it to school today because of this.
AND, i won't make it to school tomorrow either.

OH MY, HISTORY TEST, WHEN SHALL WE BE TOGETHER AGAIN?
(drama queen)

My mom bought me this cute little ORANGE frock from Mango the other day.
It's fabulous.
I love the color! It just POPS in your face.
Like bubblegum.

Oh yes almost forgot, one thing i like about this sickness,
is what i get to eat.

Oh yeah, NO RESTRICTIONS baby!
Doc even told me, cold food like yogurt and icecream would be good.
Like, how cool is that!

Anyway, downside is i have to stay at home, because my temperature makes everything feel cold, even the slightest gust of wind. So, i have to stay home where i can get the temperature regulated.

that made me think i sounded very spoiled. D:

Atleast, i have my SEVENTH HEAVEN series to get me through.
Oh how i love that show.
It's so homely and family-y and stuff.
Life lessons, ya know?

Well, i gotta rest now, ciao people.

2009-03-01T16:36:00.003+08:00

i really have to find underground music.
PRONTO.

And i don't know, but i just gotta say this.

You don't just throw around the words so sweet,
you don't just say them to everyone you meet.
You'll build them up, "finally someone cares"
and then, to find out no, he/she didn't really.

You don't say these words, just cause you feel like it,
just cause you think they'd make anyone feel good.
You don't just say it, for the sake of it.

you say it with heart, with feeling,
with truth, honesty and everything in between.
you say it cause you mean it,
and you want your sweetheart to believe it.

yep.

desperation boulevard and annabananasypnocitis,

2009-03-01T15:58:00.002+08:00

ohmygoooooosh. yes, goo-shh. that's how you say it.

I wasted about 45 minutes bloghopping. And replying emails.
So before the hour is up, i'll actually post something now.

Nothing really went on this week. Um, yeah, i have this sudden study-and-don't-study virus.
Do you know what that is?
Well here's a definition.

study-don't-study virus, annabananasypnocitis
A virus that affects your brain, giving you the motivational drive to
study, however it also implements a lazy factor in your brain, so you want to
study, but is to lazy to.
Side effects include dizzyness and severe guilt.

THERE YOU GO.

Went over to Bea's new house yesterday.
I went there to TALK to people, and guess what.
Everyone brought laptops and PSPs and whatever and we ended up BARELY talking.

the non-techno-group = Bea, Angelo, and me.

EH OMG THEN WE MIGHT AS WELL HAVE STAYED AT HOME D:

sigh. Technological advances seriously suck.

Oh and the only reason this post is even up, is because of this.

dear blahblahblah,
yes for some reason i actually listened to your blahness and decided that i
might as well try to please you by typing out this absolutely nonsensical,
random, OMG LIGHTNING JUST FLASHED, blog post.
Be happy. I usually don't do this for anyone.
Yuck.
xoxo, me.

And there's this entire chorus that's been stuck in my head,
and the irritating thing was that, I CAN'T CONTINUE IT.
so i shall share it here and see who has suggestions.

baby, rain was coming down,
all we did was drive around.
no going nowhere,
wasn't all fair.
headed the wrong way down
desperation boulevard.

and i know it doesn't even rhyme.
It's supposed to be a song, but if it doesn't rhyme or even SOUND good, well, there's no point now aint there?
But i just have this NEED to write it.

desperation boulevard.

Nice ring to it actually.

Right. My hour's up and it's time to go.
annabananasypnocitis is creeping back in.

YEESH.

cause i was never just ordinary.

never say never <3

2009-02-20T20:16:00.003+08:00

NEVER SAY NEVER IS AWESOME.
go search for it.

Anyway, just another week has gone by.

I took a look at my planner and realised,

OHMYABCDEFGAWSH.

We have 3 weeks of school left to term break.

woooooooow.
Time flies when you're having fun.
And i think i'm having the best rollercoaster ride in the world.

Okay i'm done.

well, it's wednesday.

2009-02-18T19:25:00.003+08:00

Right.

This week has been, a rollercoaster.
And yet we're only halfway through.

Thanks to everyone who's been concerned and all.
It's nice.

Maybe this whole episode happened, simply because of ME.

I was so wrong to think i could approach her about this.
Yes, that's what did it.

Maybe i just should try and gain some self-confidence.
I don't think i have enough.
Insecurity issues eh.

I'm just so confused, it really sucks.

Oh and i'm seriously regretting not trying out for talent time.

happy valentine's day

2009-02-14T23:16:00.004+08:00

Something bout that picture just makes me wanna burst out in song.
Specifically FEARLESS - TAYLOR SWIFT.

Anyway, I have one very very important thing to say to alot of people,

HAPPY

VALENTINE'S

DAY

And i wanna thank everyone who gave me presents.
Really.
Love them all.

okay there. i let it out. (:

now i can sleep peacefully.

abnormal insanity.

2009-02-11T19:02:00.002+08:00

So anyway, i should be studying some useless crap from our Literature book right now, but i'm not.

I should be doing my maths worksheet now, but i'm not.

I shouldn't be using the computer now, but I am.

Woah, i really am sdrawkcab

Funny story this morning...

I had to go see some people at the concourse really early in the morning, so i went to my class to drop off my stuff, and i began walking through the new block and when i rounded a corner, the uncle guy popped out from somewhere and began talking to me about sign language.

And since i was rather distracted trying to restart my heart, i didn't understand what he was talking about until about 2 minutes into the blabbering. Wow.

so yep, afterwards, i just continued walking and by now i'm only bout halfway, around the science lab area, and i realised all the doors to the preparation rooms and the labs are all OPEN and it's really really dark.

and only then did i realise that

1. It's freakin' dark.

and

2. I'm all alone.

So this is where i start to panic and quicken my pace, and attempt to draw my attention away from above-stated facts. Which is infact impossible when the lake is a midnight black and perfectly reflects the perfectly round luminescent moon.

sucks right?

So we skip right along past the boring school part, and now we come to this part of my life, where I have decided to take some PRECIOUS time out of my schedule to write this.

I don't know.
I kinda regret applying for the writing course, and i kinda want it.

cause it coincides with the sec2 camp, which i really wanna go to.
(for reasons i'll only tell my closest friends)

but well, it's a good oppurtunity, and if i don't get in this year, well then great!
I can try again next year, AND go for sec2 camp.

But somehow, well, i don't know.

Sigh.

It's time to go study about Ponyboy and Darry and Dally and Johnny and Soda now.
Cheerio~

20 facts. or is it?

2009-02-08T20:20:00.002+08:00

Contrary to popular demand, i have decided to put this in point-form-ish,
I'm sorry.
(:

And i'm sorry to people if i haven't exactly replied your tags.
Haven't really gotten time. And if you have my IM, you'd notice i haven't been online much either.

Have i actually gotten over my "addiction"? Wow. Fabulous.
*rolls eyes*

Right. Back to point.

20 things I learnt this weekend (prolly in chronological order.)

1. Marie and I are so gonna get famous. Yeah, cause we're so totally blonde it's pink (:

2. I LOVE NETBALL C DIV TO DEATH AIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

3. Just by posting those two facts, i have ruined my plan for this to be chronological.

4. gah. I love my friends. I just have the craziest times with them. AND JANINE HAS BECOME A PERMENANT FIXTURE IN OUR GROUP! YAYYYYYYYYY. thank you angelo ;D

5. I have very weak legs. Specifically my ankles. -.-

6. People say i dress nicely. Why thank you.

TOM MILSOM

IS STILL

THE

HOTTEST

PERSON

ALIVE

AHAHAHA. no i'm kidding. but his songs are awesome.

8. Gavin can sing. wow. amazing. So now we can conclude that our YFs are pretty much all very musically inclined.

9. I love black and white now. Isn't that great? So plain. So wonderful.

10. I'm drifting away from the one girl i used to call "my bestfriend". Why? I dont know. But i'm afraid to patch it up. Because it's her life. And our pieces just don't fit anymore. Maybe it's just time to push it away, even if you still want it close.

11. I like watching the Hallmark Channel. do you?

12. Oh yes, if my nose is blocked, i can actually snort while laughing. EEK.

13. I WANT TO GET SOMETHING FROM STEPH THIS VALENTINE'S WHEEEE~ preferably a pink heart with pink hearts all over it (:
okay no please, don't do that if you value OUR sanity.

14. I want to watch Bride Wars, and Benjamin Button. And that Angus, Thongs and Snogging movie! :D

15. I. Need. To. Grow. Yep.

16. TOM MILSOM IS STILL HOT.

17. Joshua likes to think he's really tall. And so does Russell. But in reality, that's only when they're standing next to me. pffftttttttttt.

18. I realised the Marina Barrage place is really beautiful. Which made me realise my neighborhood is really lovely too.

19. I like the rain.

20. This is the last fact and actually i still have loads of things in my head that i wanna share cause i'm nice like barney but i don't really want to cause i set a target of only 20 so i'll stick to that and i'm sorry for not blogging so much because of said reasons stated above ah but what the heck i can't resist this.

21. I LOVE JACK SPARROW <3

screwed, sour, sore.

2009-02-03T18:18:00.002+08:00

Never thought i'd feel this screwed and effed-up in my life.

Never thought i'd feel this stressed, this troubled ever.

We lost, no, we were trashed.

So what? You say. Everyone's lost before.
I KNOW THAT.
I'm not afraid of losing. But the reason why we lost was worse.

A team.
Definition : A distinguishable set of two or more individuals who
interact dynamically, interdependently and adaptively to achieve specified,
shared and
valued objectives.

We are not a team my dear girls.

But i will not go on furthur, i would just like all netball C div girls to keep an eye on their phones. Emergency meetings may be called.

I'm in no state to talk, and i'm deadbeat.
Goodnight world.

rockstar

2009-01-28T20:27:00.003+08:00

To all the fakers, and posers, and haters and wanna-bes. Get a life.

Cause we just wanna be big rockstars and live in hilltop mansions driving
fifteen cars.
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap,
We'll all
stay skinny cause we just won't eat.

and to a friend. here's to you. drink up, baby down it straight.

Everyone knows it’s meant to be
Falling in love, just you and me
Till the end of time
But it’s cool cause we’re just friends

Maybe, Maybe Not.

2009-01-28T15:17:00.003+08:00

Okay, if you must know...

I have been attempting to blog over the last week, but things kept coming up.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaand, my computer kept crashing.

yuck.

(which is quite partly due to the insane incompatibility between the iTouch sync thing, and my laptop.)

don't ask me why.

So finally had to hand in my portfolio today.

I feel like this huge load has been lifted off.

Now all i have to do is wait...

Oh and finally, i have time to concentrate on other things that have become a burden.

AHEMpianoAHEMAHEM.

gosh i hate that.

You know, i seriously can't take piano anymore.

I can learn songs on my own!

But nooooo, i have to take lessons.

Which take up alot of my much needed study time.

I realised there isn't really much to talk about.

Maybe i'll just brag about how i can run 100m in 15.74s.

Or maybe i won't.

Maybe i'll let you see that i'm having a panic attack cause of my not-yet-done homework.

Or maybe i won't.

Maybe i'll talk about how i missed my bestfriend when he/she went overseas for the entire weekend.

Or maybe i won't.

Maybe i'll just stop now.

Yes, i will.

P.S. I'm so glad i found a new friend in Steph. Realised she was always there, just that i never thought she'd be there when I needed someone the most.

the long absence

2009-01-23T21:18:00.002+08:00

So i haven't been blogging much, again, because well, i HAVE been rather busy.

First time i managed to go online this week. So don't blame me.

1. Tournament has started, and we're nearing the end of the first round. Got thrashed in the first match, but we won in the second. So, we have some hopes. :D

b) I've begun to study. Maybe it was Pencil's influence or something, but i feel this drive to study. Is that weird or what! (Please say "or what").

III. Been attempting to write as much as i can for my portfolio, but it isn't really going so well. Submitted 7, or 8, or 9. But that's about it. Not sure if they're good or not, hope they're enough...

ellohvee) Have attempted to write a daily letter, of sorts. Well, i don't send it daily, but i write it daily. So yep, when you come back, I might pass you a small thin paper, or a giant stack.

19. OOOOOH, i can run 100m in 15.79s. Which is kind of fast. OWNS BEE'S SO IT'S OKAY.
JoLin still runs faster though, but i dont care. I mean, it aint all that bad. I mean, i never even knew i could run that fast. I MEAN. oh whatever.

So i'm sitting here alone, with my phone silent.
It hasn't received a non-duty related sms since you left.
Isn't that sad? Well, I'm sad.

I swear, next time i'm gonna take pictures of you.
One for every day you're gone.

Okay, so I'm gonna try and forget.

Night people.

(random pics at http://ninethedog.multiply.com )

Call Me Irresponsible

2009-01-10T23:03:00.002+08:00

Ugh so I was just at East Coast Park for dinner and guess what?

I had an accident.

This is where you're all supposed to gasp and act concerned.

Anyway so iwas rollerblading and this kid comes up to me on a bike.
It's a small bike Mind you, cheap, rickety, the ones ahbengs think are cool.

Basically it looks like an accident already happened to it.

So right, he comes up and he overtakes. And we're both going pretty fast too.

He starts zigzagging, and the moves to the other lane to avoid and overtake these people who were slow roller bladers.

At this point, we're still going pretty fast and then...

He swerves to try to make a uturn, putting his feet to the ground instead of using brakes to slow himself down.
The way dirtbike racers do it.

Unfortunately, he doesn't make it and falls. And I'm just behind him, so I crash ontop of the bike and WHAM! The bike gears hit me shin and scrapes off some skin.

If you start cringing now, then you're quite close to imagining the pain.

So I get this slightly deep cut and it's bleeding and I can't get up. My parents see, and get angry.
Guy tries apologizing, but seriously, through his behaviour, his apologies won't work.

Stupid ass.

deadbeat

2009-01-08T22:00:00.002+08:00

Huh. Probably the last training before tournament.

1. i'm freakin excited.
2. I'm freakin nervous.
3. I'm freakin pissed cause we don't get proper jerseys.

sigh.

anyway,

this week was a blast. lessons are surprisingly easy, but i may have spoken too soon. Things could get a lot worse in the near, very very near future.

So, i decided to use multiply as a photo-sharing site, instead of facebook, which gets me distracted into doing something else.

And it takes wayyyy longer to upload to facebook than multiply. so yep.

I know i know, i just couldn't let go of my blog when i saw the number of posts i had. Which to me, is somewhat of an achievement. :D

And besides, Multiply is only popular in the Phils. it's like the "blogger" of philippines. So while people here stick to blogger, people over there stick to multiply.

hmmm, i guess i'm still in the "people over here" category.

We got our new student handbook today, and it was hilarious when i flipped it open and was like,

OMG THAT'S KEVIN'S BIG FACE.

imagine, i almost fell off my chair.

You know what sucks.

You know what REALLY sucks.

I can't finish my portfolio PROPERLY. Because i felt that i needed a wider range of stuff to write, but all i'm writing is poems. It's something i can connect with better.

which is weird.

AND, i haven't finished my chinese homework due tomorrow.

oh gosh i have to get home early tomorrow to finish piano theory too!

awwwwww man.

okay well then, i'm gonna try to sleep now.

ciaoo (:

jealousy eats at you.

2009-01-06T15:23:00.000+08:00

God, i can never get over the fact that I get horrible mental blocks.

and that Jake has this stupendously amazing knack at writing that makes me wanna cringe internally.

yikes.

So i'm left with a few days to complete my Chinese, (i think) a few hours to complete History and a few weeks to complete my portfolio.

It sounds like i should be panicking, especially about the third point, but right now, i can't seem to be able to think of anything, and i know that when the time comes, i'll have something to pen down.

Right now, I'm just gonna work as hard as i can.

So I have plans to concentrate on netball first, specially since tournament is only a week away. And my stamina is crap, my skills are way down there, and well, i'm just worried.

After though, i'd try to concentrate on studies...

Maybe i'll go study with Roi and Cavan or something. yep.

Lessons are kind of interesting, but the teachers, hmmm, i don't know whether it's cause i don't like the subject, or cause i don't like them, but they're pretty weird.

Right so, things between us have been settled, and i'm glad. I mean, seriously, sure we can get angry at each other, but that's what friends do. Right? And if you were really meant to be friends, you'd forgive, but never forget. It's all in the journey, i guess.

Honestly, i think i'm going to cry when this year's seniors would graduate. I mean, i'm closer to them, much closer. So, not being able to see them everyday would be...

weird.

So PW for us sec2s had just started, and i put my name down for "Staging a Play - To Kill A Mockingbird". It's the one i want the most..

Well, anyway, it's getting late (nah it's only 8.20, but i have tons of things to do), so i'm going to sign off right here.

ciao (:

oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY XU CHAO!

PS. this would be my last crosspost to blogger. occasionally, i will crosspost, but for now, it'll just be multiply. so RELINK!

http://ninethedog.multiply.com :D

First day of hell.

2009-01-05T17:07:00.000+08:00

Okay, so well, the hell-hole wasn't so bad. Then again, it WAS the first day.

Wouldn't it interest everyone to know that

1. My chinese is total crap right now

and

2. I spelt STYLE wrong. (stlye)

Shows how much my brain was fried over the holidays.

*sigh*

Anyway, i was the first to wish ZJ happy birthday, simply because i was staring at the clock for 10min, waiting to press the SEND button.

And seeing as it was different time zones, i had to scour the world to find what time it was at his place. nah, actually, i just asked him. HA.

It was pretty fun today, but basically it was all the teachers giving their usual, "set goals and achieve what you can" talks.

Mr. Davamoni was ownage omg, FIRST LESSON. and he was talking about getting into Triple and Double and all that. gosh. nerve-wracking. (is there supposed to be a w?)

Anyway, let's just say Assembly today was super embarassing. And Keith (from my section) would probably never let me forget. aiiiiiii.

So, the whole lunch hour on monday for ALL levels was a freakin' stupid idea. I mean come on!

Sec ones all milling about, unsure of where to go, clogging up the path

PLUS,

other levels pushing their way through thinking they got the right to

PLUS

restrictions on where to eat

EQUALS

one jam-packed impossible rowdy hot stuffy INHUMANE canteen.

gosh.

you could barely get a proper seat.

Which is how several councillors wound up outside the canteen and getting chased back :D

hohoho.

So then lessons went by in a blur, and soon it was the end of the day.

Ended up by the lake, sketching out my art homework. Was done in about an hour and a half.

Kaline and YJ went home, so i decided to pay a visit to Cavan and Roi in their classroom. Hah, gosh i missed them. So used to seeing them every other day to study.

and it's my first day without Math tuition which is fantabulously relaxed. which i love.

alright people.

i gotta apologize to a good friend.

it's a new day.

2009-01-04T10:58:00.000+08:00

So who would believe that "last year" was just a few days ago?

Definitely not me.

Seems all so long ago, doesn't it? A little scary too.

So, first day of school went well. Mostly just the big P's talk, plus general announcements and all.

What was the best part of that day though?

Getting to school and being greeted by fullboard.

yep, possibly the best ever.

and i wasn't going to cry or anything, but it felt like coming back home. all the people (:

(i need to ask ariel's fam. something now, but noone can hear their phones. in other words, should there be an emergency, they would just leave me dead.)

yikes.

So friday went pass in a blur.

And we move on to Saturday!

It was CCA recruitment day, so we were all full-on salespeople.

NCC guys looked like vegetables, so netball thought we should look like carrots!

(eh?)

Anyway, i was looking at our school, and i thought,

our school looks best with all of us in it. (us = students)

shows off what the school is really about.

Played around, got people to sign the contact form...

blahblahblah.

Ended up at Mcdo at Kallang with a few councillors. thanks to Rachel's mom for bringing us there!

Then, sudden change of mind. We bought milkshakes, a latte and a cake, and brought it to KFC to eat.

hah.

Ended up running off all the fats i gained to catch the bus.

ow.

made it in record time though :D

So basically, there's no pressure yet.

Enjoy the pictures! ( CCA day 08 )

back. to. school. fuzz.

2009-01-01T18:04:00.000+08:00

It's back to school.

That's really sad. I mean, it seems like the two months break just whizzed by.

*sigh*

anyway, i'm kind of having mixed emotions now.

Little of everything.

Anxiety. Panic. Anticipation. Excitement. Dread. Guilt. Worry. Stress. Happy. Hyper. Tired. Exhausted.

yeah you get the picture.

By the way, i forgot to mention this but my multiply is....

ninethedog.multiply.com okay!

JOIN MULTIPLY :D

"mama? I wanna ride another rollercoaster."

2008-12-31T20:42:00.001+08:00

So everybody, it's a new year and well, I think it's time to start afresh.

If only it were a new school and class...

There are so many amazing things that happened this year, both to me and to the world.

I was blessed in entering CCHMS, in gettin into council board.

I was lucky to have made new friends, but as like every other year, I never lost sight of my old ones.

I was honoured in being able to go back to my grade school and be in the alumni, and the dj for the graduation prom.

There are so many things this year that I am thankful for; more than words can ever say.

The world is blessed with change, the election of Barack Obama.

The world was twisted with change, with our global recession and global warming.

We were tested with the countless trAgedies that struck us, but we pulled through. We're pretty tough (:

I was tested with stress on so many aspects of my life. I was blessed with success in so many things. Something's pushing me to achieve my dreams; to pursue my passions; to start anew.

The box office I must say was blessed with the release of Twilight (:

We've got good friends, good music, good lives, good hearts. Now it's time to change the world one step at a time.

Love you all! Have a very happy new year! It's school time on Friday so don't be late!

"mama? I wanna ride another rollercoaster."

2008-12-31T20:42:00.000+08:00

So what? I'm NOT a rockstar.

2008-12-30T19:07:00.000+08:00

Woohoo. I actually have a theme for this post. It would be unusually plain due to the fact that I am using my iTouch, which I only know how to type with.

Oh I'm SO sorry. Pfft, whatever.

So back to theme. So what?

Everyone judges everyone, we all know that. We, as humans, judge everything. Maybe it's due to the fact that we can't just leave anything alone as a plain Nothing.

And I'm not excluding myself from this. But you know what? Someimes we gotta adopt a SoWhat attitude.

Example.

So, so what if I like Wanted? It may be violent and all, but I like it. Others would go, eww she's so disgusting and sadistic and guy-ish. All of which I'm not, of course. So what to what they say. Cause I'm ME and you're well, a judgemental freakozoid.

Uh, yeaaaah.

So so what if I don't like this clique, or that person, or this class or her hair?? ( obviously I have a very hateful life.) ( naw I'm just kidding.) ( I think.)

ANYWAY, even if i'm like that, making me shunned by everyone, or atleast those I hate, then, SO WHAT? I chose that, don't go around hating me cause of it. Just leave me alone, right?

So there's a key point right here. To successfully break the status quo and being who you wanna be, you gotta adopt a SO WHAT attitude and just do ya own thing.

Might be bitched about for a while, but get used to it cause it'll fade into the background. Sooner or later.

Wow, writing this made me realize I could be a motivational speaker. Uhhh, no thanks.

Oh and I realized I can type real fast on an on-screen QWERTY keyboard.

Yayyyyy ME!!!

Night everybody. (;

Filipino Twilight, not thanks.

2008-12-29T14:22:00.000+08:00

this just annoys me.

I am super proud to be a Filipino, and all our remakes are, pretty remarkable.

But as a huge fan of Twilight and the way the movie was made, this just angers me.

(no, not anger, annoys the heck out of me.)

ABSCBN wants to make a Pinoy Twilight.

huh.

If you're against this idea of ruining such a perfect original, then please, click the link.

thank you.

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/say-no-to-twilight-filipino-version

Good country, I bid thee farewell.

2008-12-28T08:15:00.000+08:00

Hah. it's my last day in the philippines.

I'm kind of sad about it.

I'm really gonna miss this place.

gosh, okay i'm being rushed to finish this thing because everyone in the house is going, "help your mom pack!" when she's not even asking for my help.

And those people asking me to do that, aren't helping either.

So, yeah, it's weird.

Anyway, Christmas here was a blast. I had fun. Though there weren't many fireworks, so that was a downer. But there were so many presents! haha. Simbang Gabi, was suprisingly, fun.

My brother's birthday helped me reconnect a little. Specially with my god-fam here. Keiko, Sarina and Jaime were okay-ish. But apparently Juancho was a little shy so, yeah, nothing there.

oh well.

Dette and I are good-friends-ish now! haha. We used to be so.. alienated before, so now it's all cool :D

Hmm, one thing i regret this time though? That weekend we went to Pagsanjan, i missed my chance to see Sam C. and Cheska O. at Festival Mall. awwww.

What i like about christmas here though, is that you can feel it in the air. Not like singapore, where it ain't a big deal. rahh. that sucks really.

And i had dinner with uhh (tito na ba? o sige, kuya na lng.) Kuya Chester, Ate Tin, Celine and Tita Nancy at Gilligan's. Gosh. That guy in the cap was really good, and cute too!

haha jk.

Right, so, back to administrative matters.

Could someone please tell me WHEN school starts? As in, exact time/day/date. Thanks! And uh, help me with homework please, I BEG YOU.

And i'm just gonna put this up as a notice, that i will be "moving" to Multiply, but i will stil "cross-post" to Blogger using it, so you'll see blogposts from my multiply on blogger. However, you probably won't see the pictures and videos and all that, so, if you want to see them, then, MOVE TO MULTIPLY ASAP!

okay then.

byeeeee .

christmas is coming. christmas fever whee.

2008-12-22T20:31:00.004+08:00

OH AND AFTERTHOUGHT.

IT'S CHRISTMAS WEEK OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!

CHRISTMAS IS COMING.

YULETIDE CHEER.

SIMBANG GABI!

CHRISTMAS PRESENTS!

FIREWORKS.

CHRISTMAS CHRISTMAS

CHRISTMAS FEAST!

okay done.

flickr sucks. tentative. vlog.

2008-12-22T20:26:00.002+08:00

So, tentatively, this will be my post for the day.

I have this thing about Flickr... See, it's so convenient, it's almost unreal right?
Yeah well, my pics are so enormous that they can't fit into the monthly limit.

That sucks.
Really.

I mean, it's a photosharing site for goodness sake. HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE?!

Anyway, my rents are going out so i thought of making a Vlog tonight.
Yep.

We have a new vid-cam so it'd be easier.

So yeah, i'd be vlogging probably.

And i'm uploading a few photos of my trip onto Flickr, so yay.

Just gotta wait a bit.

so yep, tentative post for the day.

ciao,

2008-12-19T20:03:00.002+08:00

1) What is your full name?
It's a very unique name, making me easy to track down, so no, you can't have it.

2) Are you a male or female?
female, most of the time.

3) Do you have any fears?
sure do. i fear the fears.

4) Will you overcome these fears for the person you like/love?
oh, um, i guess so. only if he'd do the same. or else, why risk it?

5) What were you doing 1 hour before this?
I actually had a life before this.

6) What are you doing now?
Absolutely wasting some not-needed time on this list.
and freakin out cause of my undone-homework, which at the back of my mind, i have no intention of doing.

7) Do you miss the person you like if you have one?
sure, maybe, at the back of my mind. something i wouldn't obssess about.

8) List down your 4 favourite sports?
Bowling, Skating (any kind), Netball, Sleeping
(yes, the last one is a most coveted Olympic sport)

9) Name a friend who starts with B?
Bea, cause she tagged me.

10) Describe in little detail about this person you like?
He's a fictional character. He has very defined lines and is very pale. he has golden brown hair and this wicked smile. He has amazing speed and strength, and everything about him dazzles me. He was born in 1901, in Chicago. Yep, i'm not gonna give away who he is though!

11) This is gonna be a silly question, would you die for this person?
Well probably. But i don't think he'd let me die. He'd un-die me, and make me like him!

12) What if you find out this person you like hates you?
Well, i'd freak out. And pummel him, since i'd be stronger. And i'd go on hating him too. And find someone else. I'd be hurt, but i'd accept it.

13) Is the person you like the first serious crush you had?
um, probably. define serious.

14) Can you live a day without the computer or the psp?
Course i could. Why else would i love going on roadtrips so much? Besides, i think our lives are way too ruled by these silly electronics.

15) Are you a busy person?
Yeah, i guess. I have a lot to worry about, if that's what you mean. I have things to do too. Like this.

16) Is there anything you wish to settle quickly or do?
Yeah, everyone's dream. Get done with school, learn to drive, and get rid of homework.

17) Name a friend of yours who studies alot?
I don't have friends who are like that.

18) Can you say ILY in more then three languages?
Mahal kita, I love you, Mi Amore, Ti Amo, Je T'aime, wo-ai-ni

So this quiz goes out to everyone who's reading. If you'd like to do it, just do it. And tag me if you did do it, so i know you did it.

wow, lots of dos and dids in there.

okay, i've had enough.

catch ya'll later.

wheel of time has started turning.

2008-12-19T13:33:00.002+08:00

So, time is speeding fast,
the days are fading past.
nothing we can do,
to make these moments last.

One good friend said recently that i've changed.
How he could know that, i don't know, seeing as he hasn't seen me in months,
but it got me thinking.

I think he's right.

So we'll see now, what's changed with me, that i have managed to pick out myself.

1. Well, this one's pretty obvious. I used to want time to go fast, every day. But now, i'd like to take time and stop at every little thing, just to admire. Another friend's favorite quote is "beauty in the ordinary". And i totally respect that. I think that pretty much sums it up.

2. I changed my judgement of certain things. I used to live to go to school just to see friends/classmates/batchmates. But now, i live to go to school for lessons. Sure, there are some people i'd love to see, but the keyword there is SOME. I guess CCHMS people aren't really for me? Does that mean i wasn't meant for the school? Or is there something really wrong with me?

3. I realised that I was never much to follow trends. Probably in Meridian, so many people had their own style, and cliques were small, so there was a huge variety. In fact, few people had cliques. Everyone mixed with everyone.
Coming into high school was like, being jolted into the world of stereotypes. Cliques are large, gangs are large. And since groups of people tend to act similar, these already-large groups have the same "trends", therefore making it hard AND easy to become your own person.

easy, why? because simply just doing your own thing and rejecting their trends makes you one of a kind.

hard, why? because rejecting their trends would immediately label you a weirdo by the groups you don't follow. so, breaking away or staying still? tough decision.

i decided to break away.

4. I'm definitely more comfortable with who i am now. Sure there are some things i'd like to change, like grow taller and whatever. But being an "alien" in school is kind of okay with me now. As mentioned above, i would still be an alien anyway cause of what i choose to do.

5. I've learnt to trust just a few people, instead of my large group of friends before. You know, out of my large group of friends before, i've only stuck close to a few. 3-4 people from primary school, and 1 from my family friends group. Kinda stinks to some people, but i don't mind. Much easier to share what i really feel.

6. I've been so good at making my own mask lately. Specially this year. I noticed that in my school, as stated in 4, you have to fit in SOMEWHERE to feel like you belong. Well, call me a hypocrite or whatever, but i feel like I belong nowhere, except with myself. It's not that anyone backstabs me, or stuff like that. But it's just that, i feel that i can't get along with anyone. So i stick with myself. Makes sense, right? But if needed, i am able to show just one side of myself, depending on who i'm hanging with. but it's just one side, so it ain't considered KNOWING me.

if you ever wanna get to know me, well, try chilling with me. try understanding me. and well, you'd most likely fail, but it's worth a try.

people are just so easy to read.

7. I got myself thinking more and more. One example would be when i consider buying something expensive (slightly), i used to just think, will i use this? But now, there's a whole new string of questions. It's hard, it gives me a huge headache, but, it's how i am.

8. I'm definitely more expressive now, i don't really care what my mouth says. Of course, i can restrain myself. But sometimes, i think letting go is the best option.

Well, it's a lucky 8 for me.
For anyone else who'd like to tell me how i've changed,
just IM me, leave a tag, or email me.

You all got my contacts, use them.

Here's to the wheel of time and change.

spice girls, sore throat. great combi.

2008-12-15T21:22:00.004+08:00

okay anyway, apparently, I'm sick.

which sucks like !#$%@%^.

but blame me for being so dehydrated (apparently) and so bacteria-infested.

What sucks and rocks living in a house full of doctors is that,
you get a lot of advice.

That's the good part.
the bad part is that you get bombarded with so much information, you think it's better to just sleep.

which is what I think.

So i'm going to rush this post, to meet my criteria of 9.30pm.
because firstly, i could grow taller (whoopee)
and secondly, i will get better.

So hopefully this will do me some good.

I have the Bella's Lullaby score! though it isn't the officially released one yet, but it sounds like it.
GUESS WHAT.

i wrote the whole bloody thing out.

ugh.

Anyway, check out this collaboration between me, my dad, and our video camera.

(feat. my little annoying brother.)

tag properly, finish my homework and practise Bella's Lullaby

2008-12-13T20:00:00.002+08:00

So if you can see, the current playlist is full of awesome songs.
those are the songs currently on my playlist, so yay.

anyway, if ever you should tag my blog saying

"HELLO! PLEASE TAG ME AT (whatever)! BYE!"

or

"hellos(: pweaseee taqq miie kkays? (whatever) :D byyees XD"

or whatever variation,

firstly, i would look at your language and seriously reconsider you as a friend, acquaintance, enemy, or whatever affiliation you are to me.

and if the language disgusts me, i will put an imaginary post-it note in my head, telling myself to RESTRAIN myself from smacking you whenever we are withing touching distance.

sorry.
(not really)

Also, if any of you noticed, i have removed some links.

Do not take this to any personal offence, but i'm in this phase now, that requires the utmost cleanliness/neatness, to a certain extent.

So if i don't link you, well, don't blame me.

And please, feel free to un-link me as well if you feel insulted or outraged.

Couldn't care less.

MOVING ON.

I have mastered (of sorts) Bella's Lullaby on the piano, though just the right hand.
Working on the left now.
And i'm going to shove it into all you Twilight fans faces that i can play it (:

nah.
now THAT'S mean.

NEXT SUBJECT.

i am freaking out. seriously. Though internally.

Because, my holiday homework is almost done. But with the exception of History and CHINESE.

those goddamned effing subjects that i hate so much.

UGH.

anyway, um, yeah, this is going to sound weak and all, but if you have any answers or inspiration per se that i could draw my answers from, PLEASE, feel free to share.

hah, like that'll happen.

goodbye. and i suggest you review your language or risk becoming my enemy.

new year resolution, nothing gold can stay.

2008-12-10T21:39:00.004+08:00

Such a beautiful, innocent poem isn't it?
It's by Robert Frost, mentioned in The Outsiders.

I think that's what's making me make some huge drastic changes in myself.
Or atleast, try to.

If you can understand the poem,
it's mainly talking about how nothing gold (in value) can stay that way.
And most people dissect this poem saying it's talking about CHILDHOOD or INNOCENCE.

I agree.

I realized that kids would love to grow up faster,
so they can drive,
so they can do whatever.

But when they get older, well, things just fall apart in someways.

If you give an adult a drink that could turn back the clock to when they were children,
why i believe that adult would grab it and gulp it down within seconds.

Would you believe it? Being here in the philippines with my cousins makes me wonder why we are speeding through life so fast. I dont know how, it just DOES.

And then there's this whole innocence thing.
How i wish i could be innocent once more.

But no, the things we see on TV, the "music" we hear, our world is a dark world.

We see violence, we see crime. And then we hear the vulgarities that tag along too.
But do we really need all these?

Maybe violence and crime are inevitable, but vulgarities?
We could live with other words.

So I've decided to actually make a New Year's Resolution list this year.
To do what I can to become gold again.

Twilight twice. just another list.

2008-12-09T23:24:00.003+08:00

First post in a long time.

I'm trying to find better ways to blog.
I've considered Vlogging, and it would work,
except i don't have a camera at the ready.

Oh well.

1. The trip to the falls was great. It was cold, there were rapids. But, it was really great. All around us, the place looked really untouched. It was clear and oh-so-innocent. Really beautiful. I don't have much pictures, but i did take a video. But it's with my tita so...

2. I'm intending on making a Christmas/New Year's list. NO, it's not to Santa. Though i wish he'd still give me presents... But nah, it's more on what i'd like to do for the year. RESOLUTIONS you know? Don't know where to record it down though...

3. I'd like to rub it into all Twilight fans whose country isn't showing the movie yet (specially S'pore). I'VE WATCHED THE MOVIE TWICE ALREADY *sticks tongue out*

4. Sorry i just HAD to do that.

5. I would LOVE to grow taller, atleast by 10 cm before i'm 15. HAH. fat chance. But seriously, i wished i had more of my mom's family's genes. jeez, they're all tall.

6. I went stargazing tonight. I saw Orion, Taurus and Cancer. It was really pretty. The wonders of the natural world for you there. Stars...

7. My grandmum is so hilarious. We were watching Animal Planet and the lady was speaking and she was like,

"isn't that Mrs Obama? The mom?"

we started laughing ALOT cause she thought we were watching the news.

oh my god.

8. I watched the Outsiders movie, based on our literature book. And since i cried with the book well, it was expected for me to cry in the movie too! I liked the movie. It was nicely done. Using exact lines from the book too! awwwww.

Well, that's all for now i guess.
It sounded all exciting in my head, but well, i guess it isn't really.

Just to let you know i'm alive though!

UPDATED : Premonition Lovers - http://fanfiction.net/~nineny

TWILIGHT

2008-11-30T09:15:00.003+08:00

OKAY.
here's just a little quick update on what's been going on this week,
before i head off on a road trip to Pagsanjan Falls.

Let's see,

1. Becca got sick. Chicken Pox, so she can't join us in loads of things. It's horrible really. We've been doing lots of interesting stuff. Which she can't do. D:

2. First interesting thing would be going off to Trinoma mall. It was HUGE. well, no surprise because malls here usually are anyway. So yep, went shopping around. Bought a new swimsuit from SPEEDO.

And i saw Haagen-Dazs new icecream inspired by TWILIGHT!

3. It was the Twilight premiere here on Wednesday. And me, being muddled headed and in holiday mood forgot the date, thinking the premiere was the NEXT day. Anyway, i managed to catch Twilight that night, after the concert/party at the plaza.

IT WAS AN EFFING AWESOME MOVIE.
i HAVE to catch it again sometime.

Was really bummed out and stuff because i originally intended to wear my Twilight shirt to watch the movie. UNFORTUNATELY, it was still with Tita Gems, so i couldn't get it. UGH.
I was REALLY crying and freaking out and stuff. But oh well, atleast i can say that i've watched Twilight.

I'VE WATCHED TWILIGHT!

(what number am i on?)

4. Went shopping at SM with Ninang and Mom. Made a beeline for SURPLUS! gosh. I bought alot, and it only cost me S$45. Best thing about surplus though, is that most things are branded.

A&F / Hollister / Old Navy kind of things.
So yes, it is worth it.

We ate at Sbarro again after... 2 years? Yes. Pizza is as great as ever.

Also managed to get new shoes. Like, 3inch(?) heels. WOW.
whatever, they give me blisters but they're still nice.

So that's about it for this week.
It's pretty much a whirlwind.
I feel like i could get used to life here, easily ;D

AND, i get my license in about 2 1/2 years, so...

AWESOME.

okay, ROADTRIP TIME !

PS. MY twilight enjoyment!
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=10726&l=20683&id=1275874437

first day back!

2008-11-22T21:04:00.004+08:00

Finally made it back to the philippines!

I spent about 1 hour reading and eating.
(at the same time)

AND THEN,
i slept for the rest of the 3 hour flight ;D

It was pleasant.

And my uncle was flying the plane, so we got to get into the cockpit.
It was cool.

RAHHH.
i'm so frustrated.

My PREMONITION LOVERS story is really far from being finished.
I've barely finished ONE essay for my portfolio.

HOMEWORK, don't even bother.
CHINESE is a pain,
and HISTORY?
what, are the teachers trying to kill my brain cells?

Oh no, don't even think of answering that.

the other half of my most treasured friendship reminds me of something i read in the literature book.

Cherry Valance : We're cool to the point that we don't feel anything.

Except, i think it only applies to you.
numb.

If, to you, we've only been close since two years ago,
well, i'm deeply hurt.
You probably have all your school friends as bestfriends already.
But even since that time you and our other friend kicked me out of your rooms,
well, i always reserved that spot for you.

I never expected the best of you. Because, i would be happy to see that you're doing some things that I do.
Call once in a while to catch up on things,
Call me and scream in my ear about something exciting, like what i do.

I guess you are right, that we've only been close recently.
(blank), we've known each other for 9 years, maybe more.
So maybe, we weren't meant to be friends because it took us so long, to be just a bit close.
that's, disappointing in a sense.

It feels like, a huge loss.

staring at the photos on the wall,
all our memories flashing past.
you could never hear my call,
we were speeding by way too fast.
always tried to reach,
tried to cross the bridge.
we could never practise
what we preach.
i prefer to take things slow.
revel in the beauty of things all around,
not rushing past at the speed of sound.
so maybe, it's time for me to go.
maybe you'd like to follow me, no?
i'd take you by the hand,
just promise me we'd still walk along the sand.