I think i solved my 1st and 3rd dilemma.

All thanks to the wonderful world of IM and 3 way conversations. I wont be able to sleep tonight.

1. because i have to make presents.
2. because of what i just found out.

& yes baby, its the truth.

Boy, you have no idea how i felt when i was asked that question the first time. then again. but then i saw a little bit of something in me that said SAY IT. because that little bit in me said that i would be able to ask the same thing to you and get a proper answer. And that little bit in me was right.

Hey, you probably felt the same. but i just didnt know it. no. i myself didnt know it too. till you made me feel right. to let me see whether i really did. and i guess i did.

No. probably only a few of you reading this would understand. But the one person who would really truly understand, is the one its meant for.

And no, i didnt just stay in contact because you were all that. Interesting, possibly "hawt" or cute. No. i stayed in contact with you, because i wanted to. Because it was fun to be with you. And because we had so much to talk about.

And i didnt even care what you looked like remember? I only asked for pictures once and that was when you first moved.

and YES i do. I do. ((continuation of our late discussion))((more decisive XP))

But now that we both know it, well what are we to do? We COULD sit back and relax and watch this catastrophe in the making unfold. Or we could discuss it one day. Or we could just put in a little extra something.

I dont know. All i know, is that its a fact. And i know that its almost impossible. And i know that i hope for something. What that is.. I dont know.