So everybody, it's a new year and well, I think it's time to start afresh.

If only it were a new school and class...

There are so many amazing things that happened this year, both to me and to the world.

I was blessed in entering CCHMS, in gettin into council board.

I was lucky to have made new friends, but as like every other year, I never lost sight of my old ones.

I was honoured in being able to go back to my grade school and be in the alumni, and the dj for the graduation prom.

There are so many things this year that I am thankful for; more than words can ever say.

The world is blessed with change, the election of Barack Obama.

The world was twisted with change, with our global recession and global warming.

We were tested with the countless trAgedies that struck us, but we pulled through. We're pretty tough (:

I was tested with stress on so many aspects of my life. I was blessed with success in so many things. Something's pushing me to achieve my dreams; to pursue my passions; to start anew.

The box office I must say was blessed with the release of Twilight (:

We've got good friends, good music, good lives, good hearts. Now it's time to change the world one step at a time.

Love you all! Have a very happy new year! It's school time on Friday so don't be late!

So everybody, it's a new year and well, I think it's time to start afresh.

If only it were a new school and class...

There are so many amazing things that happened this year, both to me and to the world.

I was blessed in entering CCHMS, in gettin into council board.

I was lucky to have made new friends, but as like every other year, I never lost sight of my old ones.

I was honoured in being able to go back to my grade school and be in the alumni, and the dj for the graduation prom.

There are so many things this year that I am thankful for; more than words can ever say.

The world is blessed with change, the election of Barack Obama.

The world was twisted with change, with our global recession and global warming.

We were tested with the countless trAgedies that struck us, but we pulled through. We're pretty tough (:

I was tested with stress on so many aspects of my life. I was blessed with success in so many things. Something's pushing me to achieve my dreams; to pursue my passions; to start anew.

The box office I must say was blessed with the release of Twilight (:

We've got good friends, good music, good lives, good hearts. Now it's time to change the world one step at a time.

Love you all! Have a very happy new year! It's school time on Friday so don't be late!

Woohoo. I actually have a theme for this post. It would be unusually plain due to the fact that I am using my iTouch, which I only know how to type with.

Oh I'm SO sorry. Pfft, whatever.

So back to theme. So what?

Everyone judges everyone, we all know that. We, as humans, judge everything. Maybe it's due to the fact that we can't just leave anything alone as a plain Nothing.

And I'm not excluding myself from this. But you know what? Someimes we gotta adopt a SoWhat attitude.

Example.

So, so what if I like Wanted? It may be violent and all, but I like it. Others would go, eww she's so disgusting and sadistic and guy-ish. All of which I'm not, of course. So what to what they say. Cause I'm ME and you're well, a judgemental freakozoid.

Uh, yeaaaah.

So so what if I don't like this clique, or that person, or this class or her hair?? ( obviously I have a very hateful life.) ( naw I'm just kidding.) ( I think.)

ANYWAY, even if i'm like that, making me shunned by everyone, or atleast those I hate, then, SO WHAT? I chose that, don't go around hating me cause of it. Just leave me alone, right?

So there's a key point right here. To successfully break the status quo and being who you wanna be, you gotta adopt a SO WHAT attitude and just do ya own thing.

Might be bitched about for a while, but get used to it cause it'll fade into the background. Sooner or later.

Wow, writing this made me realize I could be a motivational speaker. Uhhh, no thanks.

Oh and I realized I can type real fast on an on-screen QWERTY keyboard.

Yayyyyy ME!!!

Night everybody. (;

this just annoys me.

I am super proud to be a Filipino, and all our remakes are, pretty remarkable.

But as a huge fan of Twilight and the way the movie was made, this just angers me.

(no, not anger, annoys the heck out of me.)

ABSCBN wants to make a Pinoy Twilight.

huh.

If you're against this idea of ruining such a perfect original, then please, click the link.

thank you.

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/say-no-to-twilight-filipino-version

Hah. it's my last day in the philippines.

I'm kind of sad about it.

I'm really gonna miss this place.

gosh, okay i'm being rushed to finish this thing because everyone in the house is going, "help your mom pack!" when she's not even asking for my help.

And those people asking me to do that, aren't helping either.

So, yeah, it's weird.

Anyway, Christmas here was a blast. I had fun. Though there weren't many fireworks, so that was a downer. But there were so many presents! haha. Simbang Gabi, was suprisingly, fun.

My brother's birthday helped me reconnect a little. Specially with my god-fam here. Keiko, Sarina and Jaime were okay-ish. But apparently Juancho was a little shy so, yeah, nothing there.

oh well.

Dette and I are good-friends-ish now! haha. We used to be so.. alienated before, so now it's all cool :D

Hmm, one thing i regret this time though? That weekend we went to Pagsanjan, i missed my chance to see Sam C. and Cheska O. at Festival Mall. awwww.

What i like about christmas here though, is that you can feel it in the air. Not like singapore, where it ain't a big deal. rahh. that sucks really.

And i had dinner with uhh (tito na ba? o sige, kuya na lng.) Kuya Chester, Ate Tin, Celine and Tita Nancy at Gilligan's. Gosh. That guy in the cap was really good, and cute too!

haha jk.

Right, so, back to administrative matters.

Could someone please tell me WHEN school starts? As in, exact time/day/date. Thanks! And uh, help me with homework please, I BEG YOU.

And i'm just gonna put this up as a notice, that i will be "moving" to Multiply, but i will stil "cross-post" to Blogger using it, so you'll see blogposts from my multiply on blogger. However, you probably won't see the pictures and videos and all that, so, if you want to see them, then, MOVE TO MULTIPLY ASAP!

okay then.

byeeeee .

OH AND AFTERTHOUGHT.


















IT'S CHRISTMAS WEEK OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!




CHRISTMAS IS COMING.






YULETIDE CHEER.








SIMBANG GABI!










CHRISTMAS PRESENTS!









FIREWORKS.









CHRISTMAS CHRISTMAS









CHRISTMAS FEAST!








okay done.

So, tentatively, this will be my post for the day.

I have this thing about Flickr... See, it's so convenient, it's almost unreal right?
Yeah well, my pics are so enormous that they can't fit into the monthly limit.

That sucks.
Really.

I mean, it's a photosharing site for goodness sake. HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE?!


Anyway, my rents are going out so i thought of making a Vlog tonight.
Yep.

We have a new vid-cam so it'd be easier.

So yeah, i'd be vlogging probably.

And i'm uploading a few photos of my trip onto Flickr, so yay.

Just gotta wait a bit.

so yep, tentative post for the day.

ciao,

1) What is your full name?
It's a very unique name, making me easy to track down, so no, you can't have it.

2) Are you a male or female?
female, most of the time.

3) Do you have any fears?
sure do. i fear the fears.

4) Will you overcome these fears for the person you like/love?
oh, um, i guess so. only if he'd do the same. or else, why risk it?

5) What were you doing 1 hour before this?
I actually had a life before this.

6) What are you doing now?
Absolutely wasting some not-needed time on this list.
and freakin out cause of my undone-homework, which at the back of my mind, i have no intention of doing.

7) Do you miss the person you like if you have one?
sure, maybe, at the back of my mind. something i wouldn't obssess about.

8) List down your 4 favourite sports?
Bowling, Skating (any kind), Netball, Sleeping
(yes, the last one is a most coveted Olympic sport)

9) Name a friend who starts with B?
Bea, cause she tagged me.

10) Describe in little detail about this person you like?
He's a fictional character. He has very defined lines and is very pale. he has golden brown hair and this wicked smile. He has amazing speed and strength, and everything about him dazzles me. He was born in 1901, in Chicago. Yep, i'm not gonna give away who he is though!


11) This is gonna be a silly question, would you die for this person?
Well probably. But i don't think he'd let me die. He'd un-die me, and make me like him!

12) What if you find out this person you like hates you?
Well, i'd freak out. And pummel him, since i'd be stronger. And i'd go on hating him too. And find someone else. I'd be hurt, but i'd accept it.

13) Is the person you like the first serious crush you had?
um, probably. define serious.

14) Can you live a day without the computer or the psp?
Course i could. Why else would i love going on roadtrips so much? Besides, i think our lives are way too ruled by these silly electronics.


15) Are you a busy person?
Yeah, i guess. I have a lot to worry about, if that's what you mean. I have things to do too. Like this.

16) Is there anything you wish to settle quickly or do?
Yeah, everyone's dream. Get done with school, learn to drive, and get rid of homework.

17) Name a friend of yours who studies alot?
I don't have friends who are like that.

18) Can you say ILY in more then three languages?
Mahal kita, I love you, Mi Amore, Ti Amo, Je T'aime, wo-ai-ni

So this quiz goes out to everyone who's reading. If you'd like to do it, just do it. And tag me if you did do it, so i know you did it.

wow, lots of dos and dids in there.

okay, i've had enough.

catch ya'll later.

So, time is speeding fast,
the days are fading past.
nothing we can do,
to make these moments last.

One good friend said recently that i've changed.
How he could know that, i don't know, seeing as he hasn't seen me in months,
but it got me thinking.


I think he's right.


So we'll see now, what's changed with me, that i have managed to pick out myself.

1. Well, this one's pretty obvious. I used to want time to go fast, every day. But now, i'd like to take time and stop at every little thing, just to admire. Another friend's favorite quote is "beauty in the ordinary". And i totally respect that. I think that pretty much sums it up.



2. I changed my judgement of certain things. I used to live to go to school just to see friends/classmates/batchmates. But now, i live to go to school for lessons. Sure, there are some people i'd love to see, but the keyword there is SOME. I guess CCHMS people aren't really for me? Does that mean i wasn't meant for the school? Or is there something really wrong with me?



3. I realised that I was never much to follow trends. Probably in Meridian, so many people had their own style, and cliques were small, so there was a huge variety. In fact, few people had cliques. Everyone mixed with everyone.
Coming into high school was like, being jolted into the world of stereotypes. Cliques are large, gangs are large. And since groups of people tend to act similar, these already-large groups have the same "trends", therefore making it hard AND easy to become your own person.

easy, why? because simply just doing your own thing and rejecting their trends makes you one of a kind.

hard, why? because rejecting their trends would immediately label you a weirdo by the groups you don't follow. so, breaking away or staying still? tough decision.


i decided to break away.



4. I'm definitely more comfortable with who i am now. Sure there are some things i'd like to change, like grow taller and whatever. But being an "alien" in school is kind of okay with me now. As mentioned above, i would still be an alien anyway cause of what i choose to do.



5. I've learnt to trust just a few people, instead of my large group of friends before. You know, out of my large group of friends before, i've only stuck close to a few. 3-4 people from primary school, and 1 from my family friends group. Kinda stinks to some people, but i don't mind. Much easier to share what i really feel.



6. I've been so good at making my own mask lately. Specially this year. I noticed that in my school, as stated in 4, you have to fit in SOMEWHERE to feel like you belong. Well, call me a hypocrite or whatever, but i feel like I belong nowhere, except with myself. It's not that anyone backstabs me, or stuff like that. But it's just that, i feel that i can't get along with anyone. So i stick with myself. Makes sense, right? But if needed, i am able to show just one side of myself, depending on who i'm hanging with. but it's just one side, so it ain't considered KNOWING me.

if you ever wanna get to know me, well, try chilling with me. try understanding me. and well, you'd most likely fail, but it's worth a try.

people are just so easy to read.



7. I got myself thinking more and more. One example would be when i consider buying something expensive (slightly), i used to just think, will i use this? But now, there's a whole new string of questions. It's hard, it gives me a huge headache, but, it's how i am.



8. I'm definitely more expressive now, i don't really care what my mouth says. Of course, i can restrain myself. But sometimes, i think letting go is the best option.



Well, it's a lucky 8 for me.
For anyone else who'd like to tell me how i've changed,
just IM me, leave a tag, or email me.

You all got my contacts, use them.

Here's to the wheel of time and change.

okay anyway, apparently, I'm sick.

which sucks like !#$%@%^.

but blame me for being so dehydrated (apparently) and so bacteria-infested.

What sucks and rocks living in a house full of doctors is that,
you get a lot of advice.

That's the good part.
the bad part is that you get bombarded with so much information, you think it's better to just sleep.


which is what I think.


So i'm going to rush this post, to meet my criteria of 9.30pm.
because firstly, i could grow taller (whoopee)
and secondly, i will get better.

So hopefully this will do me some good.

I have the Bella's Lullaby score! though it isn't the officially released one yet, but it sounds like it.
GUESS WHAT.

i wrote the whole bloody thing out.

ugh.

Anyway, check out this collaboration between me, my dad, and our video camera.

(feat. my little annoying brother.)

So if you can see, the current playlist is full of awesome songs.
those are the songs currently on my playlist, so yay.

anyway, if ever you should tag my blog saying

"HELLO! PLEASE TAG ME AT (whatever)! BYE!"

or

"hellos(: pweaseee taqq miie kkays? (whatever) :D byyees XD"

or whatever variation,

firstly, i would look at your language and seriously reconsider you as a friend, acquaintance, enemy, or whatever affiliation you are to me.

and if the language disgusts me, i will put an imaginary post-it note in my head, telling myself to RESTRAIN myself from smacking you whenever we are withing touching distance.

sorry.
(not really)



Also, if any of you noticed, i have removed some links.

Do not take this to any personal offence, but i'm in this phase now, that requires the utmost cleanliness/neatness, to a certain extent.

So if i don't link you, well, don't blame me.

And please, feel free to un-link me as well if you feel insulted or outraged.

Couldn't care less.




MOVING ON.

I have mastered (of sorts) Bella's Lullaby on the piano, though just the right hand.
Working on the left now.
And i'm going to shove it into all you Twilight fans faces that i can play it (:


nah.
now THAT'S mean.




NEXT SUBJECT.

i am freaking out. seriously. Though internally.

Because, my holiday homework is almost done. But with the exception of History and CHINESE.

those goddamned effing subjects that i hate so much.

UGH.

anyway, um, yeah, this is going to sound weak and all, but if you have any answers or inspiration per se that i could draw my answers from, PLEASE, feel free to share.

hah, like that'll happen.


goodbye. and i suggest you review your language or risk becoming my enemy.

Such a beautiful, innocent poem isn't it?
It's by Robert Frost, mentioned in The Outsiders.

I think that's what's making me make some huge drastic changes in myself.
Or atleast, try to.

If you can understand the poem,
it's mainly talking about how nothing gold (in value) can stay that way.
And most people dissect this poem saying it's talking about CHILDHOOD or INNOCENCE.

I agree.

I realized that kids would love to grow up faster,
so they can drive,
so they can do whatever.

But when they get older, well, things just fall apart in someways.

If you give an adult a drink that could turn back the clock to when they were children,
why i believe that adult would grab it and gulp it down within seconds.



Would you believe it? Being here in the philippines with my cousins makes me wonder why we are speeding through life so fast. I dont know how, it just DOES.


And then there's this whole innocence thing.
How i wish i could be innocent once more.

But no, the things we see on TV, the "music" we hear, our world is a dark world.

We see violence, we see crime. And then we hear the vulgarities that tag along too.
But do we really need all these?

Maybe violence and crime are inevitable, but vulgarities?
We could live with other words.

So I've decided to actually make a New Year's Resolution list this year.
To do what I can to become gold again.

First post in a long time.

I'm trying to find better ways to blog.
I've considered Vlogging, and it would work,
except i don't have a camera at the ready.

Oh well.

1. The trip to the falls was great. It was cold, there were rapids. But, it was really great. All around us, the place looked really untouched. It was clear and oh-so-innocent. Really beautiful. I don't have much pictures, but i did take a video. But it's with my tita so...




2. I'm intending on making a Christmas/New Year's list. NO, it's not to Santa. Though i wish he'd still give me presents... But nah, it's more on what i'd like to do for the year. RESOLUTIONS you know? Don't know where to record it down though...




3. I'd like to rub it into all Twilight fans whose country isn't showing the movie yet (specially S'pore). I'VE WATCHED THE MOVIE TWICE ALREADY *sticks tongue out*




4. Sorry i just HAD to do that.





5. I would LOVE to grow taller, atleast by 10 cm before i'm 15. HAH. fat chance. But seriously, i wished i had more of my mom's family's genes. jeez, they're all tall.





6. I went stargazing tonight. I saw Orion, Taurus and Cancer. It was really pretty. The wonders of the natural world for you there. Stars...






7. My grandmum is so hilarious. We were watching Animal Planet and the lady was speaking and she was like,

"isn't that Mrs Obama? The mom?"

we started laughing ALOT cause she thought we were watching the news.

oh my god.





8. I watched the Outsiders movie, based on our literature book. And since i cried with the book well, it was expected for me to cry in the movie too! I liked the movie. It was nicely done. Using exact lines from the book too! awwwww.




Well, that's all for now i guess.
It sounded all exciting in my head, but well, i guess it isn't really.

Just to let you know i'm alive though!

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