To those i trust alot, and talk to everyday, dont be worried. I mean, maybe today i'll be grumpy-ish and vent my anger on you guys... And im really sorry for dumping it all on you.
thanks for catching me when i fall. each. and. every. time.
I wont join your little group of friends because, i know i dont fit in with them. this little mishap just gave me the oppurtunity to show that simple fact to you and your friends. im NOT like you guys, and i really have no intention of trying to join you all.
why?
because i'd have to act as someone im not when im with you guys. I CANT DO THAT. and i have this feeling, you already didnt like me in the first place. and you'd probably be already talking about me behind me back. i dont really mind.
why?
because i already have my own set of friends. those whom i trust. i'd probably even take a bullet for. they are everything. that's all that matters. if i have them, i dont really need another set of "friends" now do i? i'd just be wasting my effort ACTing to fit in. IM NOT GOING TO DO THAT.
Im not going to try. Im not going to act. Im not going to put on a fake smile.
Im going to trust my friends. Im going to treasure their friendship. Im going to be myself when im with them. Im going to live my life for them.
