Sunday, August 31, 2008
letting go, watch my hopes fade away.
OKAY.this post will be purely about what's in my head,and mostly nothing about today.OKAY.capisce.fine.THIS FRICKIN DAY.desastre.okay.
gosh, it WAS so fun,
materialisticly.But when it comes down to it all, my problems,
nay, my troubles get worse, and
worse.Hey, atleast i know what i'm missing,
what i
SHOULD be missing, for
it aint good for me.You're a frickin
liar you know.
Whatever shit,
about not now,
later.Well go to hell.
No not really.
But thanks, for not being purely honest.
Atleast i know now,
that you aren't all that great.Then what about everything else?
Where i had placed more than half my hopes in ?
Because i was already
99.99999% sure that
he wouldn't work out.
OH.
what another
tragedy.NO.straight flat out eh.
Better to take it now, than later.
Atleast, i think i can concentrate better on studying.No more checking my phone, anxious for your dumb reply.No more planning out my time, to match your online schedule.NAH.
i'm free.always was.I'm telling kaline now.
that it's time to let go,of everyone.so what if my hopes were so high,
and were knocked down so easily?
so what if i wanted it this way,
but got it another?
That's life,deal with it.all im saying,
and Vanessa will be proud of me for this.is that,
ITS TIME TO LET GO,PUSH IT ALL AWAY.CAUSE IT AINT ALL WORTH IT.i'm gonna watch the sun set,
all alone.
it's midnight,
i'll stay up till noon.
i'll face the morning,
charging head on.
walking, wondering,
what went wrong.
but then i'll finally realise,
that it was just full of lies.
that i'm just wasting my time.
i've gotta move on,
learn to be strong,
time to let go.GOODBYE.
Friday, August 29, 2008
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY 2008. my wild fire (:
Like
wow.TEACHERS DAY.first teachers' day going
BACK to a school.
It was so fun, though i admit,
BLAZERS ARE SO FRICKIN HOT.i once told Seraph that our school should invent the first
DRY-FIT BLAZER, or something.
So that we poor students won't have to suffer the terrible heat while wearing those red hot blazers,
and yet still look so damn cool :D
[now i think that's a bimbotic theory]So yep, was an
usher this year.
Rachel Yeo wearing her sexy dress up on stage (:AS AN USHER, you have to stand for a
long long long long time.
Which is what I did.Which is what made me
hungry.Which is what made my legs go really
painful.OW.but whatever, got front row view of the concert not bad le(:
AND OMGOSH
The song
4JT sang was so cool.
haha.
THAT'S called creativity.
And eh,
councillor's performance not bad eh!
So after the concert, chionged to primary school!
woohoooo~
Didn't even bother to change into outside clothes yet.
chiong chiong chiong chiong...FINALLY.reached.woah, earlier than CatHigh guys, and Marist and TKSS guys.
actually, we were comparitively earlier than alot of people.
Went straight up to the HOD room.Saw
Mrs Stephanie Lee,
squealed,panicked,HYPERVENTILATED.Ran up to staff room,saw
LeeLaoShi, Mr Nick Tan, Mr Yip, Ms Eunice Kang, Mr Mohan, Mdm Roslinah, MRS NG, Mrs Irene Lee.CONTINUED TO
HYPERVENTILATE.then omgosh la,
Mr Tan is as lame as ever (:
what,
love-hate relationship D:
Rah, but i didn't see any of my form teachers O:
BUT ATLEAST I SAW MRS LEE AND MRS LEE AND MDM LEE (:
the three best teachers i've ever had.
they've known me since young you know!
hahaha.
I just love them.so yes i was
hyperventilating.Then well, since i've
NEVER seen my
new principal and VP,
i went to wait outside for them to drive in.
Sorta was stalking eh.HAHA.
but oh well.
WENT RIGHT UP TO THEM AND SAID...
HI IM ANNA AND IM AN EX STUDENT HERE. *big big megawatt smile*woah woah, COOL RIGHT. then they smile back at me and start talking to me laaaaa.
coolness (:
And the teachers were leaving for a cruise, so they were all on this bus.
And then i was walking past the bus, cause it was parked.
And i started waving.and
waving.and
waving.and we all shouted
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY.Finally, when the bus was leaving the school gates,
I sprinted right to the side and waved like crazy.Man i love my primary school so much.RIGHT, so went to E!hub for lunch.
PASTA PASTA, MANIA MANIA.then walked back to WhiteSands for no reason.
Pangseh-ed the guys by then, and Denise went home.
So only Christine and I left.
WENT TO THE ARCADE YAY.and saw
alot alot alot of people i knew.
Hmm, i wonder what it would be like if i didn't move away...Yep, then after everything, meeting alot of people,
I went back home yeahhh.
Slept on the MRT the whole way.
Then luckily Hsin Tung called me, or else
i wouldn't wake up and i would miss my stop.T.T
then took the bus and fell asleep again.
SO DAMN TIRED.hush hush darling,
don't you cry.
i'll be staying,
by your side.
watching tears flow,
never wanting to go.
hush hush darling,
i love you so.
WOAH
RANDOM FLOW OF WORDS.anna is too pro.
way too pro.haha!
sheesh,
i better get to work.
STUDY STUDY, HOMEWORK HOMEWORK.less than a month to
EOYs.mug mug mug mug.day and night together,
promising friends forever.
deep inside, secrets hide.
wanting to reach out,
touch your heart.
something's pulling back,
telling me to be smart.
would i regret this?
should i forget this?
wanna be, dont wanna be.
never sure,but i'm wanting more.
baby can't you see you're killing me?
cause i just wan't you to believe.
you'll always be my thunder,
my friend forever, my wild fire.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
shit, EOYs.
shit shit shit shit shit.SHIT.crap crap crap crap crap.
CRAP.damn damn damn damn damn.DAMN.frick frick frick frick frick.FRICK.END OF YEARS ARE IN TWENTY SEVEN (27) DAYS.shit shit shit shit shit.
SHIT.time to mug eh.why aren't I mugging ?I don't know.but i sure am panicking.
your voice, is the soundtrack of my summer,do you know you're unlike any other?you'll always be my thunder, and i said,your eyes, are the brightest of all the colors,i don't wanna ever love another,you'll always be my thunderso bring on the rain,and bring on the thunder.[was singing this song during chinese test today, since it WAS raining and omg i'm just plain obsessed with you and this song (: ]Okay today's like this awesome day to sleep can?
Fell asleep on the bus.Fell asleep during EnglishFell asleep during Geog Fell asleep during Chinese.Fell asleep after lunch.Fell asleep after waking up from that lunch nap.Gonna fall asleep later (:but i cant, i
MUST NOT.cause i gotta do some teachers' day things.
i'll take up my usual tradition of making presents for teachers this year,though im not giving
EVERYONE presents.
that's
crazy.that's
ALOT.i'll just make for some mmhm.
Had chinese test today,
I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA DIE.but hey,
it was quite easy,just the last comprehension was killer.
all the meanings and whatever.
I DONT KNOW PLEASE DONT ASK ME.And
maths, omgosh.
FINALLY,FINALLY.28/30 for the test (:
can you say
AWESOME?
and it's
second in class,
only lost to ENGXUAN.
but oh well,
thats so frickin cool.
*rushes for the first time in her life to ask parents to sign*and people hit my face like
5 times today.
or touched/
ATTEMPTED to slap it.
that is like, um,
weird?
pfft.RIGHT.
gonna go make presents like crazy.
hope it turns out nice,cause i'm out of
1. scrap pictures
2. stock photos
3. nice paper..
4. IDEAS.
but heck i'll try.
i'm so crazy over you, why cant you see that? it's not him, it's YOU. yeah, i'm hoping for the same thing too.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
disney channel netball thingy. half naked man on rooftop!
TODAY IS TUESDAY.okay it isn't such a bad day.
Not compared to other days atleast.Let's start, shall we ?Made it to school in one piece, but somehow
my body was aching like crazy.Yeah and i
dreaded training cause i knew i lost my stamina.
Walked up to class,
re-plugged in earphones,
FELL ASLEEP.and i was the last person to leave the class hahaha.
After FRC was
CMP.
which is the
mother, nay, the
QUEEN (sexist lol) of all
boring subjects.
or also
slack subjects.Went up later than usual with Bryan and Kaline.
But that's cause we went to look for teacher.
YOU KNOW, the CMP teacher is super cute can!
we stalked him while he was walking up,
then we saw him go up to the floor plan,
AND LOOK AT WHERE OUR CLASSROOM WAS.
hahahahahaha.
Then after CMP, was Bio.
Lately,
Bio's getting really really boring.But hey, it's still cool.
AND I ASK INTELLIGENT QUESTIONS.RECESS~~History lecture was a
bore.Spent most of it at the back with
Bryan, Jun Lin, MengShuen and Florence.Talking about random stuff.
Mostly about
ghost stories. I think i
rock at telling stories okay!
Like everyone wants to hear from meeeee.Even Jeanette and XiaoEn.
COOLNESS.cause anna is fantastic.Anyway, my butt was sore after sitting down for 2 hours.
STRAIGHT.so yeah, OW.Had Maths next.
Not bad.Finished the percentage worksheet in like,
1ominutes?So
NO HOMEWORK FOR THAT.hahaha.
Last period was English.
And halfway through
whatever Ms Annisa was saying,
Yuan An shouted : ANNA LOOK ITS THAT HALF NAKED MAN AGAIN!haha.
Then Ms Annisa started talking about how that man was
soo obscene, and that he always
FORGETS to
close the curtains when he changes.
And like,
half the class rushed to the windows to see.HAHAHAHA.
next time we should put some kind of banner outside..
SIR, WE ARE WATCHING.hahaha.
Right, that was interesting (:
English is really fun.That's what i think.And Ms Annisa is an awesome teacher.That's what i think too.PERSONAL OPINIONS :DTraining afterwards,
where that
DISNEY CHANNEL person came.
She asked us to go to her one by one, and talk into the camera.
About ourselves and why we love netball.OH YEAH.
i think i did
quite well,
though not
THAT awesome.fantastic.great.fabulous.Hmm, but i talked alot alot alot.
HAHAHA.
can't stop talking.whoooops.Yes so now im at home,
slacking away.
GONNA STUDY FOR CHINESE TEST LATER.PROMISE.PROMISE.PROMISE.PROMISE.I must do well.
okay and if I WANT to do well,
i better go study.good,
BYEEEE.
Monday, August 25, 2008
Mr Lion, Ms Puppy, and EMCEE-ing (;
self-combust whoooosh. says:kevin im a puppy, hear me roar.[b][c=51][u]Kevin'[/u][/c][/b] When fate starts to take a different turn says:-.-LAME LOLthats so random laself-combust whoooosh. says:HAHAHAHA. sorry was so tempted.[b][c=51][u]Kevin'[/u][/c][/b] When fate starts to take a different turn says:puppy's roar are weakthey whine(:self-combust whoooosh. says:no lor.they seriously growl at you if you disturb them or something.[b][c=51][u]Kevin'[/u][/c][/b] When fate starts to take a different turn says:ya and when i kick them they keep quietmuahahahaself-combust whoooosh. says:you cant kick me : P[b][c=51][u]Kevin'[/u][/c][/b] When fate starts to take a different turn says:duh later someone kill meself-combust whoooosh. says:who ah who ah*looks around*[b][c=51][u]Kevin'[/u][/c][/b] When fate starts to take a different turn says:how i knowsomeone in my classself-combust whoooosh. says:who ahhh.xiaohui eh ?[b][c=51][u]Kevin'[/u][/c][/b] When fate starts to take a different turn says:idkno la she dont bother abt u bahself-combust whoooosh. says:then who ah ?(;[b][c=51][u]Kevin'[/u][/c][/b] When fate starts to take a different turn says:sit somewhere at the fronti give so much hintdont act blurself-combust whoooosh. says:sorry i dont know your seating arrangementall i know is that you are not sitting in front lol.AHEMeventhoughithinkyoushouldbeAHEM[b][c=51][u]Kevin'[/u][/c][/b] When fate starts to take a different turn says:-.-for whatim so smart i dnt need to attend class sighwhy i even bother to go sch hmLOLSHIT LA DISTRACT ME I LOOKING AT MATHSself-combust whoooosh. says:you guys didnt even need come school today laaaa.[b][c=51][u]Kevin'[/u][/c][/b] When fate starts to take a different turn says:yai suppose to study in the end read comicWTHLOLself-combust whoooosh. says:BE HAPPY OKAY.[b][c=51][u]Kevin'[/u][/c][/b] When fate starts to take a different turn says:NO NOT HAPPYself-combust whoooosh. says:maybe i should stalk you or smth and then burn all your comics.or atleast, hide them and sell them eh![b][c=51][u]Kevin'[/u][/c][/b] When fate starts to take a different turn says:physics and ss in 2 days yahoooohavent startHOW COOL IS THATstalk my footself-combust whoooosh. says:NOT COOL LA.[b][c=51][u]Kevin'[/u][/c][/b] When fate starts to take a different turn says:go awayyyyyyDAMN COOLself-combust whoooosh. says:cannot go away.HAHAHA[b][c=51][u]Kevin'[/u][/c][/b] When fate starts to take a different turn says:means i do exam with my extreme pro knowledge and instinctso if i can scoreself-combust whoooosh. says:i thought you got some magnetic power one![b][c=51][u]Kevin'[/u][/c][/b] When fate starts to take a different turn says:pro-.-o yatrueself-combust whoooosh. says:if you cant score then ahaha LOSER.[b][c=51][u]Kevin'[/u][/c][/b] When fate starts to take a different turn says:but only to chio girls HEHEHEHEHEHEself-combust whoooosh. says:can laugh at you.[b][c=51][u]Kevin'[/u][/c][/b] When fate starts to take a different turn says:YOU AHHAHAPUPPYself-combust whoooosh. says:CAN ROAR ONE OKAY.and here Kevin,
Mr Lion loses internet connection.
HAHAHAHA.
Okay today wasn't all that great yeah.
RAINING AGAIN.like
what the hell can't Singapore ever
stop raining.
Lessons were boring.
Recess, Lunch was boring.
But oh yeah afterschool during IP and Assembly (:LETS SEE.
okay,
IP was rehearsal time and getting ready and such.
Exco was at canteen eating and i went there to get drinks.
I bought that
CHOCOLATE DRINK again.
Then Shawn saw me drinking it
again, so he decided to try it.
Unfortunately, he didnt really like it so yeah,
HAHAHA. but eh,
Sheryl thinks it's not bad!People who DONT like it - Shawn, Roi, YiTing.RAHHHHHHH.
but whatever,
i think it's nice.Back to GA time (:
So rehearsed
again and
again.blahblahblah.
hahaha.
FINALLY, assembly time.
okay i think it wasn't perfect, but hey,
NOTHING IS PERFECT.first time emcee-ing for chungcheng oh yeah. Not as scary as primary school,
surprisingly.I was just afraid i'd screw up the names.I mean, i think our school has
cool-weird names that
rock. But hard to pronounce yeah ?Okay i had this
weird experience okay,
but i dont think i should say it here.
I think some people from
Exco, YangJun, KangKiat and Kaline should know.
HAhaha,
you guys believe me right?but,
what's past is past. (:LEAVE IT ALL BEHIND.Tuition after,
and now im back home,
getting ready to do some homework and to
sleep.BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
head pain...
i'll try and make this post as long as i can.
Went to school this morning,
for Teachers' Day preparation.
and yongming, a.k.a.
IN CHARGE,didnt even come.like what the hell. IN CHARGE OKAY!
but nvm, we still got the job done (:
Oh poor
Javier.Keeps getting bullied.
I'll upload pictures of the thing, and you'll see
why he got bullied.
okay then after i ended off just now,
i had tuition.
then i was like,
holding this icepack the whole time.
And when i told my tuition teacher about it right,
she just
laughed.
SHE LAUGHED AT ME.
what the heck.
but afterwards i took this
super super super quick shower
then went off to this wedding reception.
HONESTLY,i didnt
really know anyone there.
rahhh.
but i still went.
haha.
oh what a stupid lovely phone conversation.
hmmm,
so i came back home and
changed.super super super quick change.
and went off
jogging.why?
Cause there was gonna be
fireworks and i wanted to catch it.
HAHAHAHA.frick, shit damn.[edit]
Sorry for that vulgar ending.
I was being nagged at.
I have to type really really fast cause my head throbs when im not putting ice on it.
AHHHHHHHHHH.okay well after the fireworks would be now.
Where i am.
At home.
Comfortable.wheeeee~
Here's something dedicated to XINHAO.
that bus ride must have forever been etched across your forehead right? And the mrt ride, wow, packed like satins in a tin ? OMGOSH, thats very full. and im so glad that yes, we still keep on touching each other. maybe that bus ride was traumatic for you, if i were you, my limps would be wobbly. Like that time... BOMPBOMPBEEP, and i heard the sound of the horn too late. Maybe cause i was distracted by those porcupine like male students with extremely spiked hair.. Or maybe it was cause of...HAHA.1EP people would know huh huh!
that was so
funny.and i was laughing so so so hard,
and yet
xinhao made it funnier.
ell oh ell.I'm NOT tired,
but my head seriously hurts.
LIKE,
seriously.Thinking hurts my head ):
*awwwwwwwww*HAHAHAHA OH MY GOSH THIS IS SO
RETARDED.im watching the PM Lee's National Day Rally,
and like, people are seriously
seriously nodding off.but, thats not the worst.
GOT PEOPLE SLEEPING SOMEMORE!head down, eyes close, deep breathing.HAHAHAHA.
Eh, but his video is
really cute!
all the typical Singaporean actions i guess.
EWW,
"the gold digger".(guy picks nose on bus, and rubs it on seat infront)HAHAHAHA EW EW
EW.permenantly traumatised D:i'm so tempted to go on ranting about how my head throbs.
and
hurts.and makes me
slightly dizzy.and how there's a
bump.and how the bump's kinda
visible?
and how i so
stupidly got this head pain.
and
every single detail.like the
action i was doing.
like what i did after i got hit.
like what everyone said afterwards.
like
how im dealing with the pain.like how
seriously painful it is.
and whoops,
accidental ranting.right this is as long as i can go now.
tataaaaa.
bimbotic. rae's bday!
OH SNAP.i hit my own head.with the
door.and
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAEdont forget to
self-combust boooooom.longer post later (:
Friday, August 22, 2008
avril concert.
thanks for everything. being able to go, hanging out with me, hmmm.. it's great(:Wahahaha Friday's
rock.Or suck at the same time ?
Finished my
piano theory during ESD period.
And talked and talked and
talked to Ernest.
Hoho my
Cherry Lozenges helped him yay !
Then had Charisma
Which Ms Ho
informally took over.
She talked about efforts and stuff.Yeah it really left a mark in my mind
(heehee etched across my forehead lol) But i cant seem to put it in words.hmmmmmm...But
she started crying, and the rest of the class started to tear up.
awwwww (:Recess was spent mostly in the canteen for once.
Why ?
CAUSE OF LIVE TELECAST OF OLYMPICS.haha.
the sec fours came down after prelims and
they were making so much noise during the table tennis match,
that it got EVERYONE hyped up.
So if Singapore scored, we cheered.If we didnt, we boo-ed like crazy.awesomeeeeeeeee. Then after Recess was Geog.
As usual, grouped with
Jeanette, YanLing, Chantel, XiaoEn and Vanessa and Elysia. and as usual,
we crapped on the thing we were supposed to do.
But oh well, cannot be helped if we are
supremely great at
multitasking.After Geog was
CHEMISTRY.
gosh, since Ms Ho's taking over the HCL periods
since Wednesday,
we have had chemistry.EVERY SINGLE DAY.that is like,
so so so so boring.Can't stand it.
But Ms Ho didnt teach much.
She just went through the
EOY schedule,
for the whole lesson.
and
dun dun DUN.music was next.
supposed to sing,but there was
no time left!YAYNESS.and OH YES.
thank gosh you could come yay!I got someone to go with me to
the Avril concert whooooooooooooosh.After school had
piano.Where i have successfully gotten a
PERFECT for theory homework.
like,
IS THAT COOL OR WHAT!-.-But,
thats a new world record for me so YAY.
*self combust*it's all so confusing. do you or do you not? and then there's the distant one. what to do? You both got signs, that i can't read.
Thursday, August 21, 2008
smart musical people discuss theory together (:
and that's where my heart belongs (:
we're the rockstars of the world with our flashy iPods, designer clothes, and dear Pepsi (:
Trip down memory lane back into the philippines (:
RIGHT.
im updating again today!
Hmm..
Not as fun as yesterday, but still great (:
Got recruited by section FOUR to do duty.
RAWR.
you guys owe me.
BIG TIME.
see im so nice to help them since they dont have enough people.
And so that Kaline won't be scared (:
WAHHAHAHA.
Then hmmm...
Lessons weren't too boring, not too interesting either.
Like, JUST ANOTHER DAY.
whoosh, i like that phrase.
Stayed back after Chem Test = After school
for no reason really.
Hahaha.
Waste time.
SHOULD HAVE GONE TO SEE MR AND MRS SMITH.
and now they have left the school for a long long long long time.
RAHH.
did i mention, LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG.
Gonna have to sing for Music tomorrow.
Oh please~
My voice is too nice to be heard.
ell oh ell.
nahhh.
i'm not meant to sing.
but to DANCE.
wheeeeeeeee~
and i taught Rae how to self-combust.
haha i was a bit high after drinking TWO CANS of chocolate drink.
oh yeahhh.
Currently having a mass convo on msn with the musical people in class.
1. Rae
2. Vanessa
3. Xin Yun
4. Ernest
5. MEEEEE.
oh right, WE ROCK.
and we are seriously discussing music,
cause we all doing theory homework muahaha.
VANESSA REMEMBER TO BRING THE PAPERS OKAY!
you see!
Vanessa Teo says:
F#, G# A B C# D E# F#
Vanessa Teo says:
what scale is this weird
Xin Yun says:
in total how many sharps?
Vanessa Teo says:
4
RaeHsiang says:
you're missing D.
JAJABOORAHHH.
okay gonna go now.
sleep, sleep and sleep.
AND STUDY FOR CHEM QUIZ.
tataaaaaa.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
laddeeedum.
Okay since
Vanessa has been asking for an update.
I will.Only cause i love her very very much.Okay here goes.
MondayI went to school.
HAHA. and it was like,
horrible. I was bored, and tired, and had
absolutely nothing to do.
But thank gosh i had to go for the
safety workshop that afternoon during interaction.
Mr Soon was conducting it, and even though it was a
SERIOUS topic, it was just so much fun.
Okay that's lame but whatever.He said that he was sorry to have to drag us down, for sabo-ing us. Then he said that actually,
HE TOO WAS SABO-ED. he didnt know until Sunday that he was in charge of us, so he got quite a shock.
Then well the workshop ended at like 3.30, and he said
"you may go for Assembly".But everyone kinda
groaned and moaned and whatever, and he just let us stay,
OR GO HOME.
wooots~
I went home of course (:
and the rest of the sec1s got out an hour later!Had tuition that night, but i dont wanna talk about it yeah.
Too boring :OTuesdayThings really start to bore me.
CMP period was totally wasted.Even went around with Bryan, Kaline and Roi
before lessons cause there wasn't any
FRC.
We played
standing broad jump woohoo.
I'm
super super
super pro at it okay!
Had PE afterwards,
where i
owned Kaline at badminton.
muahahaha.
RECESS~~~Then next was
Literature, which again was boring.
I mean, yeah sure
i LOVE literature and
i LIKE Ms Ranita,
but i find the syllabus so so so so so so
extremely excruciatingly boring.
WHY CANT WE STUDY TWILIGHT.or
HAMLET.or
ARTHUR.or something that
isnt CLAY MARBLE.
After Ms Ranita left right, i felt so
SLEEPY,i just HAD to sleep.
i mean.
REALLY.so i just put my head on the table and slept.
For like 10min before Jeanette poked my shoulder, and i opened my eyes to see EVERYONE standing up and Ms Annisa looking at me.
I THOUGHT i was gonna get in trouble but nope (:
She just asked if i was sick, or sleepy.
like duh, i was sick.I really really really love English lessons ya know!
So interesting.
That period we watched
"The Others".Atleast, the last portion.
I shall tell you about it because it is TOO FUNNY to pass up.
Right so there's this scene where the two kids were in the closet,
hiding from the "intruders" (which were ghosts to them)
and the little boy was panting really badly.
And the older sister was like SHUSH.
and when all was quiet.
an eerie woman's voice went "come, join us."
and the door flew open and the old lady's face was there!
and of course the children SCREAMED LIKE HECK.
where's the funny part ?when the door opened and the face came into view,
KALINE SCREAMED SO DAMN LOUD SHE HURT MY EARS.her voice was soooo in tune with that of the children's okay!
coolness.
Sorry kaline i just HAD to tell the whole wide world.After English was Chinese,which was very boring.Again.I hate chinese ya know ?I really do.It's torture.I wasn't MEANT for chinese.Yeah we go together like oil and water.Afterwards had netball interclass.
where we rocked.
and we rocked.
and we rocked.
and we rocked.
and we rocked.
and we rocked.Beat MD
9-4.woohooo.
That's third placing for us in cohort (:Went back to class to slack
and soak in our glory lol.
Learned THREE THINGS from Bryan that day.
1. How to turn around while marching.
2. How to throw that paper card thingy.
3. How to throw that bottle cap thingy.
HAHA I FEEL PROUD OF MYSELF.
Wednesday - TODAY.
Dragged my half zombie self out of bed, and into the bathroom to wash up. Ate my breakfast bit by bit, and walked out of the house barely conscious. Sat in the bus and stared into space, cause i didnt feel like sleeping. Reached school and wanted to sleep, but just COULDNT. oh and finally fell asleep between periods.SLEEPING SPREEEEEEEEE.and i think the lessons today were pretty boring.
English was kind of a bore.
Except for the writing part.
RIGHT KALINE!And before lessons even began, Ms Ho came into class and scolded us for handing in chem worksheet late.
And whole class tio detention, except those who handed in at the right time.
Number of people ? SIX.I was like, shit detention.
And then realised that i DIDNT have detention coz i was at the
safety workshop. YAY!
But recess omgosh.
It was super lame can!
Case #1Kaline : huh why need buy lightbulb for me and Roi?Me : dian deng pao what!K : But why must BUY?Me : Cause i don't have right!K : Oh....................K : I realise we dont understand each other's lame jokes.M : Yeah cos one too pro and one too lame. *ahemahem*K : Yeahhh. and now also the weather a bit cold huh, so yeahhh.M : WHAT LAME COLD JOKE LAAAAA.K: HAHA THATS DOUBLE COLD JOKE!!Case #2Ivy walks past us doing duty at linkway.I tell her her skirt is too short, unfold or something.Tze Fung says : Either you pull your skirt down, or you pull your knees up.WLAO LAME LAME LAME LAME.
Case #3Two sec one guys holding one H-TWO-O bottle.Keep telling each other to drink faster.Later councillors will catch.Problem ? They aren't walking towards the classrooms.They're walking towards the canteen.-.-Case #4Jia Ying : eh you all watch out for that guy over there ah! *points to staircase at canteen*Me : why ley ?JY : Cos he holding pink dolphin like want to smuggle.Me : which guy ? That guy is it ? *points to same guy walking on service road*JY : nono that one that one! *points to staircase*Me : But that guy got pink dolphin ley! JY : EH SHIT. it IS that guy! *runs after and confiscates*Me : *laugh*JY : *comes back*Me : there that guy that guy! *points back at staircase*JY : *whacks me*Case #5Tze Fung : eh kaline your socks very low ley.Kaline : So? Not that low what.Tze Fung : Think you so cool right! so cool so cool. Kaline : nah i think my feet too hot le.HAHAHA OKAY DAMN LAME RIGHT.
*sigh*
happy times (:So after recess was back to the monotonous life of a secondary-er.
so so boring.
so very boring.
so glad to go home!
and now i sit here,
planning out my
Avril concert.
heeheee.
byeeeee.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
am i not enough ?
Okay totally skipped Cat. class today.
Cause i'm deadbeat.ACTUALLY.
i shouldn't even
BE awake at this time.
But
noooooo.My brother just
HAD to come into my room, and turn on the tv.
and switch the frickin channel to
DORAEMON.in
CHINESE.and gah,
my ears have bled profusely. OH OH YESTERDAY I TALKED TO RYAN HIGA. as in, chatted to him
on YOUTUUUUUUUBE.and it aint a poser, cause it was
HIS account.
like
OH EM GEEEEE.*faints*So last night was Tita Connie's little party thingy.
And i was kinda stuck with everyone younger than me,
cause Ariel wasn't there.So i was kinda alone for a while.
then when Ariel came i was already
half-dead.and needed sleep.
but cause it's a bbq, and
OUTDOORS.there's nowhere to sleep now is there?Then ended up having a
midnight convo on the phone.
And Ariel kept crapping
on and
on and
on and
on and...
blahblahblahblahblah.And
FINALLY,FINALLY.at
one o'clock.I could go home.
and
sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.UNFORTUNATELY.that midnight convo on the phone,
dragged on to be a early-morning-text-convo.Which is more hassle than a phone call.
i dont get why you're so into her. she's just another normal girl. maybe cause she's your age, and cause she's my friend..WHATEVER.i already said i dont want you guys hanging out, and she isn't interested, did you know? i'm just kind enough not to say it. Well, i have absolutely no idea
how im gonna
survive this sunday.
When i woke up being thoroughly irritated,and
no one is texting me back.except him, who keeps asking about Ariel.so yeah, i have a feeling this would be
one helluva crappy day. good,
BYE.am i not enough for you already? you know she isn't interested, so why bother?and if you do know, then stop asking me already.
Friday, August 15, 2008
two oh two ? OUTDOOR CHEM LESSON!
IM BAAAAAAAAAACK.
okay
one good night's sleep,
a helluva lot of chocolate and
a nice book has made me
happier (:Today was kinda boring.
I mean,
i have been forced against my will to wake up early in the morning to drag myself out of bed and get into the school bus which will transport me to my school where i will sit in a classroom listening to a teacher drone on and on until i am dismissed. OF COURSE BORING RIGHT!
But today, i was forced into going into
CHINESE DRAMA for end of year performance.
LIKE WHAT THE HECK.i can
NOT do chinese.
i repeat.
NOT.I am
pure English okay!
anyway, yeah i want to do backstage things like
MAKEUP muahaha.
fun-ness (:I swear
Shawn Johnson, Nastia Liukin, Tomas Daley and Michael Phelps are the best Olympic people in the world rahhhh.
I don't like China winning so much. ):- Triple Ys - Because we believe. {physicssss} says:play in sec1, start to mug abit in sec2, study in sec3, chiong in sec4OKAY OKAY dearest ex-SL, i will listen to you! hahaha.
Hmm...
yes so after English Drama, where i was placed into Chinese Drama (-.-)
It was
Charisma.Which was nothing.
just another slack lesson...
Then it was
CHINESE.omg teacher tricked us okay!
she used some kind of psychology!
Yesterday...she says,
tomorrow there will be some kind of test.We say, is it counted in CA ?
She says, maybe (:
[trying to make us panic right!]*panic*Today...She takes out a paper and hands it to us.
It's a bliddy worksheet.We say, teacher no test ah!
She says, testing you now!
We say, counted in CA ?
She says, No...
We say,
WALAOOOO!!But never mind, i did well for the "test" :D
Cause i studied muahaha.Why are the Russians and Americans so great at gymnastics, yet China is still winning ?Then we had our health check.
Nurse says that..
1. My eyesight not bad! (woots)
2. Backbone is okay (:
3. No longer considered short.
YEAH POINT THREE IS NOT CORRECT RIGHT!but nevermind aha.
And this took place in innosphere...
so while waiting for the last few girls to come out, and we can go back to class..
We saw Ms Ho walking towards us..
With Chemistry things in hand.SO...
we ended up having an
OUTDOOR chem lesson!
will upload the
114MB video ASAP!!
Right okay.
I am
seriously slacking on
Piano theory so i should get started.
CIAOOOOO.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
watch me die, cause you're the one killing me. DEEP INSIDE.
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
We lost Netball Interclass match to 1FG.like
omgggggggg D:
*sigh*
it was a good match i guess...
(refusing to comment too much for fear of being hunted down and shot.)But i just hope that we have a chance at
THIRD place atleast..
SHULING YOU MUST THANK ME.for cleaning that super super
RED netball!
(netballs arent supposed to be so red btw.)haha.
if you guys are wondering
WHY i cleaned that ball.
it's cause i was
sad, mad, angry, FRUSTRATED. and somehow,
the cleaning process helped.
ALOT.
wow am i weird or what!
(please don't answer that. that was rhethorical.)You know what.
some days.
MOST days.
i dont want to come home.WHY ?
because whatever i do at home...
My dad will find SOMETHING to get mad about.Does he not know how much that affects me ?When i first joined netball, and he found out.
He told me it wasn't a real sport.And that i should find something else to join.
Well guess what Dad, i'm proud of what i and my team have achieved.And also,
most dinner meals with him at the table,
result in a heated argument about something.
that well, ruins the whole atmosphere in the house.
I don't go into my parents' room,
nor does he (or my parents) come into mine.
It's a fact of life i guess..
I could go on for days about all he's said,
that has affected me.
That can't seem to get out of my head.
But i won't traumatise you.Because you may not accept any invite to come to my house anymore afterwards.HAHA.not funny.i'm the world's best actress aren't i?I smile alot.
In case you haven't noticed.
But inside,
"i'm just dying" so to speak.
I've supported my friends, and watch their wildest dreams come true.Then i stand back, and be happy for them.But soon, when all conversations are directed ONLY to that dream (or whatever),well then, i'd pretend to be genuinely interested.But inside, you know what.I really dont care.Because, it does not affect me in anyway right ?But i still want my friend to be happy,and there's my smile right there again.yet there's no one there to listen to me.to be my support.. .What the hell is wrong with me.I just made myself sound like a total bitch.
And right now,
I really do believe that what I'm doing is bitchy, selfish. But i don't know any other way to handle it.
Gosh.
well.
my dad's beginning to get pissed off again.
AT WHAT i dont know.i
bet it's my fault again.Like it always seems to be.I really hate my house.
It's supposed to be the one place i can be myself.Well,
in actuality,
it's the one place i can't be.
The place i always have to be on my guard.My defence is shattering.
And the tears are brimming.
One day, one day.
I'll finally break away.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
him or him.. TWO HUNDRED.
TWO HUNDRED.Today is
Tuesday.Nothing much happened.
ever so boring.like, SERIOUSLY.either that, or
i can't remember anything good.
ALTHOUGH.i did compose this
awesome song/poem thing.
About Hamlet and Ophelia (:Not gonna post it up,
cause ppl might steal!So ask from me if you want to see it.GAH.i injured a finger on my
LEFT hand now.
remember, it's
my new life mission to injure both hands (:
okay right.
so
IM SERIOUSLY CONFUSED.about my life.
i wish someone could help me.
and
i wish that that someone is not some weird psychopathic therapist who sits in a room all day labelled "GUIDANCE COUNSELLOR". i still believe though, that the only people who CAN help me about this,
are the ones it's about...
and it's hardest to approach them.
RAHHHHH.*tears pillow up in frustration*
Monday, August 11, 2008
Ophelia, Hamlet, dearest Elizabeth-ian times.
ONE NINETY NINE.like
what the heck !i frickin cut my finger tips on this rock.
and
they bled like crazy.it looked like
three layers of my skin tore(?) off.
ew-ness.gross-ness.
cool-ness.But it's making it
nearly impossible for me to type nor text.
gah.there goes my life of chatting!!!!!!!!!!!Anyway, tuition today was
HILARIOUS.i mean, it's usually just funny.
but today it was
all time high (:
everything we did, everything we said had
almost no link.
a random conversation.and what the hell does
REGRESS mean ?!
is there even such a word -.-This sucks.
Chem test on thursday.and i dont frickin' understand!
I mean, I DO, but
i cant memorise.ahhhh
boohoo.Wow im so
hooked on
Elizabeth-ian and Victorian timed things.
as in,
Novels and movies.Okay well.
i'm hooked on anything that has a timeframe of the
1600s to the 1800s.the 1900s just killed it.And well,
this new millenium aint all that interesting.Now wouldn't you agree ?What a love between Hamlet and Ophelia,
what a courtship between Darcy and Elizabeth..
The darkest times, the sweetest love.
What could be more appealing than that!
Of course, there is
TWILIGHT.but it has
an element of the older world, because of the immortal vampires.TADAHHHH.Okay
my fingers are tired.gah.
this is
horrific.GOODNIGHT PEOPLE.
Sunday, August 10, 2008
sigh..
1. I hate
Ariel and her stupid post about
Singfest. 2. I
really wanna
murder the people who
didn't let me go ):
3. I will
probably become one of those people who complain on
STOMP soon. ((:
4.
Sundays suck and rock at the
same time.
5.
Country music seems to be my current playlist ?
6. I'm
insanely slacking on homework.
7.
The Olympic dudes are hot. Like the
US gymnast Justin Spring,
the Luxembourg flagbearer and
the 14-year-old diver.
8. I'm missing out on too many movies.
9. It's now
11:11 o'clock :D
10. I'm wondering what's stopping me from texting you these few days.
GOODNIGHT PEOPLE.
Saturday, August 9, 2008
one ninety seven.
*sigh*everyday begins with a sigh.
getting out of bed everyday takes
so much effort,
it's like lifting the whole world on your shoulders.So well, i just said goodbye to my
dearest bestest best best best childhood friend,
who i havent properly spoken to in
FIVE years.
that's right,FIVE.(she just left my house, not the country or whatever)it was possible the most
awkward moment in my life with her.
I was even speaking more to her sister.
Well actually,
the three of us are pretty close.I spent what,
half my kindergarten life with them.
sleepovers, play dates, whatever.I heard my first Britney Spears song from her sister's CD
(Lucky ;D)and i got my first animal bite with them
(hamsters T.T)and i also had my first HUGE injury with them
(road + scooter + steep slope = bone-deep cuts that become permenant scars.)such joyous memories...
hmmmm...
let's talk of a
hypothetical case.
There's a girl named Alice, who has a bestfriend named Jane.One day, Alice kinds of intros Jane to her friend, Jack.Jane and Jack hit it off. Now Alice isn't jealous because she has someone else in her eye.But, she's jealous of what Jane has.The luckiest bitch on earth is her bestfriend, tragic.And everyday Alice hangs out with Jane, friends as always.But when Jack comes along, Alice feels like the third wheel and wanders off on her own.Alice's grades are slipping, while Jane's seems to either be constant, or better.All Jane can talk about is Jack, and Alice has no comments.Why should she comment, when it concerns nothing about her ?Alice wonders how long she can keep this up, how long she can take being the third wheel, how long she can stand watching her daydreams come true for her bestfriend, how long she can keep up the cheerful facade that she has built for herself, to keep her friend happy, to keep her friend from slipping into a miserable demise that has befallen her.oh what a wonderful soap opera in the making.hypothetical.i lost my chance, probably.
or,
i may not even have had a chance at all.
Wow, horrible mood swings isnt it ?
One minute, this cheerful always-smiling girl bouncing around, skipping from room to room..the next minute, a moody lonely old hag sitting by herself, contemplating the troubles of life. whooosh, hooray for the complicated mind of a teenage girl.'somedays, i'm talking to you. you seem to hear me, but you aint listening to me. distracted, un-aware, seemingly un-caring. i dont mind i guess. i try not to let it get to me. after all, you have a life, that involves another precious person. you're tried to change, but i already told you that's an impossible act. no miracle can be performed for it. it's a fact of life. i'm crazy jealous over what you have, and if i were you, i'd grab and take whatever chance comes my way. nothing comes along for me as good as you.. my life is full of daydreams and hopes, while yours is full of life-sized action figures, living out your dream. what better life is there than the perfect, carefree, happy life you have ?
Friday, August 8, 2008
long long x-country and netball interclass post.
wow. i really do owe you guys a nice long sensible post..THURSDAY.so thursday was basically a
chinese filled day.
which totally does
NOT rock my socks.
it's like,
CHINESE - CL Drama - ACCthere's my funeral right there. Surprisingly fun though.
SLACK in other words.
Most of the netball interclass people were like, leading some kind of
"INTRO TO COMMUNITY SONGS" session during Chinese.
And we were making a hella alot of noise
but the relief teacher just carried on doing her stuff. Some people were quite enthu (:CL drama is as usual SLACK, cause im not in the chinese group so i don't have to do anything much.
hooray for english group ahaha."Rushed" back to class for ACC.
late as usual.
(wow everything's as usual now..)And then
EWWWWW,
tan say hoe flirted with Mr Chua D:
Mr Chua came in and mumbled something like "what are you doing"
and she sidled right up to his side and said, "我在讲鬼故事,你要听吗?"
AND
EWWWWWWWW, he flirted right back, giving the "oh im so scared" look.
YUCKK.
*throws up*So yes ACC is getting more and more fun, though with the same amount of
CONFUSION and SCOLDINGS.that's the
best it goes i guess...
So next period was DnT, and
Mr Sim was hitting on MingSiew again (:
Poor girl.After DnT, netball interclass peeps ate our lunch in like TEN MINUTES,
and then we went to the netball court.
EMPATHY vs GRACE.who shall win ???OH NO.it's hard to tell.DUN DUN DUN.SCORE WAS....1-12.12 being...ONE EMPATHY!OWNAGE BAYBEE :D
oh man and it was like,
a superb netball match okay!
The ball was like
flying here and there.
HERE AND THERE.
SIDE TO SIDE.and *sigh*, being Center,
I HAD TO RUN WITH THE BALL. zomg so tired D:BUT WORTH IT.thanks everyone who came and supported us!
And thanks to those who wished us luck!
Right so that made my thursday.
Went home to make the headbands for x-country.
THREE FRICKIN HOURS WASTED ON MAKING THEM LOOK SUPER NICE AND STRAIGHT AND NICE AND PERFECT.but whatever,
it was worth it in the end (:i probably wrote "I (heart) SG" 3 million gazillion trillion times. just to let you know.Fell asleep flat on my bed at 10.30pm.
Got up at 6am.
and so we move into....
FRIDAY!oh the jitters.
as you can see, i woke up quite late. because i was supposed to report at
6.40am.
BEING A GIRL, i can't possibly get ready in less than forty minutes.But surprisingly, i did!
hooray for me yay!
So dad drove me to carpark F2, and im surprised we didn't get lost.
what with his sense of direction and my terrible sleepiness.THANK GOODNESS I MET KAHBING AND SERAPH.so we were walking towards the event area when we heard some voices behind us.
it was Mrs Susan Lau (?) and our dearest principal and i can't remember who.
BUT OMG,
it made us panic for some reason.So we started walking faster and faster hahahaha!
[omg i totally digressed from posting this for about 30 minutes. OOPS]ANYWAY.soon after we did duty and stuff, sec one girls had to start running :D
Started running with
Kaline.AND IT WAS FREAKIN TOP TEN OVER THERE.and then, i slowly lagged.
and lagged.
and lagged.
and lagged.
and lagged.
and lagged.
and lagged.
Till about Jamie there. which is still in the n-teens area.then lagged.
and lagged.
and lagged.
and lagged.
till about the middle of the group.WOAH.hahaha.
came in
THIRTY THIRD.
which i kinda didnt like at first, but i came to
NOT mind it at all later.
just a little dejected.*sigh*
So after the run and everything..
was prize presentation.
ONE EMPATHY WON A TOTAL OF FOUR AWARDS. well,
four TEAM awards.
we got more for individuals !1. Team Spirit Award
2. Most Patriotic Team Award
3. Girls Tean Award
4. Boys Team Award. (or whatever it is.)
OWNAGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.and also, every other Empathy class got some kind of prize too. 1ep, 2ep, 3ep, 4ep (:went to Vivo afterwards for a small class outing.
OMG
ROI TAN AND KALINE LIM, you must thank me.for bringing you guys both safely to VivoCity without getting lost.now,
imagine if you didnt have me (:OH I AM SMART :D
kachingggggg.Anyway,
yeah.
played a bit and stuff.
Went home with my mom who just happened to be at Vivo too (:
So then i came home, showered. and now im blogging.
Im gonna eat, then sleep. then wake up late tonight !it's my day's task to ruin my sleeping pattern oh yeah.pictures are available at
http://1empathy2008.blogspot.com/OR, you could just wait til i upload some yeah.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
a good bucket of tears..
I finally have
SOME mood to blog.
I'm still so
deeply in love with my
dearest Edward Cullen and his little family of
vampires. And the
dearest book called
Breaking Dawn which is part of the most
awesome-tastic series of
TWILIGHT!
one day, one day,
i'll find my own Edward Cullen (:
warning : post does not get any happier from this point on. just a little heads up.Would there be
a greater hell...Than forgetting your earphones with a stupid bus ride to school.Oh yes, i experienced that today.
it was
horrible.Anyway, we had like
THREE HOURS of free period today.
Chinese, English and History.woahhhh sian.
History was worst cause Mr Soon from next door came and scolded us.
No relief teacher lalalala~
Had a friendly netball match with IT during recess.
So funny!It's like,
three different games,
three different balls,
ONE COURT.
and everyone was clashing and everything! hahahaha.
sigh.
i'm getting
confused about
everything.
I mean,
i bet the answer is right there, RIGHT THERE.but i can never find it.And if i do find it, and to everyone else,
it IS right,
i can't seem to take the plunge.WOAH, lucky i still dont have white hair (:My day starts best with a smile from
you, and a text from
him..
I get the smile, but i never ever get that text. SAD D:
MY DAD MADE A PROMISE HE CANT KEEP.atleast i bet he can't.
he said,
"sorry for not letting you go to singfest but its a sunday night, and you have
school the next day. also, it isnt seated so there might be a stampede and
blahblahblah so you would be in horrible danger. i promise you the next concert
here at the singapore indoor stadium i will buy you the ticket."
Dad,
sorry, but don't make such promises you
probably wont keep.
AND, he
was saying i was
small somewhat, not able to defend myself.
Yeah that was
a huge blow man. You know, i bet if i was taller, like 158+, he'd let me go.
............-.-
I'm not happy today... A little high, but inside i'm not happy.
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY.I feel sad, depressed (?), unhappy, worried, confused.i know a good cry should make me feel better.
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
one ninety four.
Gosh,
BREAKING DAWN IS AWESOME.and
just to rub it in your faces further,
i'm done reading it. and it's supremely awesometastic and it's so real.RAHHHH.
Posting this post would be the first time i touched the computer today. Which goes to show that i am
NOT addicted and i
CAN control myself.
Oh bravo anna (:So today
SECTION FIVE section meeting became
SECTION FIVE birthday celebration. Thanks you guys! HOHO, i enjoyed it and i bet GaoXiang did too!!!
And i'm so happy cause there's no training today! I mean yeah my original plan was to run
3 rounds (which is practically insane for me..) around the school instead of the normal 2, but
heck,
i felt so tired. and it was
BURNING. Speaking of netball, Kaline and i played netball with some
4EP people. Which goes to prove that we know lots of people from the
EP classes (:
Sec1, sec2, sec3 and sec4!
wow i AM crapping. I tend to do that when i'm rushing. I'm sorry for turning your brains to mush. Actually, i'm turning your brains to mush because my brain is turning into mush. My mom's playing some educational CD for my brother. As in,
NURSERY RHYMES, and it's kinda repeating so
ewww.
I'm getting retarded bay-beeee.Today's lessons were
excruciatingly painfully horribly disastrously boring. I mean, i could barely concentrate cause it was so boring!
New extra study things to do... Write out BIO and CHEM notes properly.OH COOLNESS,
Stephenie Meyer's playlist is slightly similar to mine. (not the blog one obviously) Wow that's great.
I LOVE MY MUSIC. I had this
awesome-tastic fantabulous plan to make this post
supremely long, but i kinda forgot what i was going to say. I had
soooo much to crap about just now, before i signed in,
BUT i guess i do have
STM, therefore i have forgotten.
OOPS. Oh about
BREAKING DAWN. I locked myself up in my room for
5 hours,
not touching my phone. Not touching the computer. I just
read and read and read. Yes i sound like a
crazy nerdy geeky bookworm. Don't be afraid, it's my
alter-ego (:
The book was so frickin' exciting, and addictive, and wow its awesome. I really do feel like i've seen it all for myself... I guess i have barely anything to crap about now, and this post is veryyyy boring.
SORRY.Anyway, gonna go now.
Promising to post a proper update soon.
AND,
XIAOHUI. yes please go shoo away to some deserted country so that you won't chase everyone else away. although, if you stay here... everyone's gonna zao and you'd STILL be all alone! hahahaha.shizzammm, bada-bing, bada-boom. (: