EEEUUURRRRGGHHHHHH.I'm sick again.I look bliddy
shagged and deadbeat.
Is it because i'm sick?
Or because i really am already shagged and deadbeat?
Anyway, my mom came to pick me up after school today, and we passed these students who were obviously sec one.
Her main differential points were that they still looked fresh and bright, as compared to the tired-looking stressed-out students the rest of the school has.she's right though.
And it seems like i'm trying to be
superwoman by forcing myself to study NOW. Few people are mugging like crazy, and well, i'm one of the few.
Is it too early to mug?
Everyone has theories that going too fast too early would eventually cause your engine to fail. I don't want my engine to die out in the middle of the mountain climb.
Mr M. talked to me after class today.
He said he was very disappointed in my history essay marks. I was too for that matter.
So then he asked me why i was doing so badly.
I told him i was just deadbeat and tired.and that's when I had an epiphany.
maybe I wasn't made to be a mugger. but my psychological program is so screwed that i think i am. and maybe i've been slacking off way too much.
so i can't get it straight.
have i been slacking too much? or have i been working myself too hard?help D:in the meantime, i'll be stuck here at home, feeling
awful and miserable and uncomfortable.
sigh.
and bestie, i know you're trying for me, but please stop trying to be superman ):
