"It's better to be the worst of the best, than to be the best of the worst."

Stressed, worried and desperate.


And no, it's not for exams. Those were looooong over. This, this is what matters. Our (goddamned) streaming choices.


I'm really curious as to why the government has to make us make such a huge decision so early in our life. At this stage, we know that the subjects we choose would affect our future. Not so much which career you would take, because not taking Physics now doesn't mean you can't be an engineer in future (though it would help). Not taking Literature doesn't mean you won't become a writer in future.

It affects our future, as to our credentials, our foundation. Say you made a huge mistake and picked the wrong combination for yourself. You fail, you do absolutely terribly, and so you don't go to a good JC, and end up not going to a good college. Some may be knocked down by this, and end up leading boring lives. But a special few would somehow pick themselves back up and shine, climbing up the career ladder at the speed of light. That's up to you of course, but for some, it'd just be much easier (and much more impressive) to be in top schools all through their education.


Back to the point.


Early decisions stress us out. We think too much, and we can't handle such big decisions. Not just because of our young age, but because we are teenagers! The age of which we are known to be rash, indecisive, unsure of what to do with our lives!


And now the argument would be, but you have parents that can guide you and lead you in making your choice.


MY argument is that my parents are foreign and did NOT study in Singapore with the British GCSE system, so they wouldn't know the procedure, and hence have almost absolutely no idea what to do as well. (In my case of course, the folks are trying their best to understand what the hell is going on. Appreciate the effort, but it's really annoying when you have to explain everything...) They might not even know how to calculate the bloody O level score!


So it sucks, sucks to have to choose at our age.


did i mention it also sucks to be the first-born of a family with parents who did not have the Singapore school system? Yeah it sucks big time.


Why? Because as mentioned, my parents have no idea what's going on. And secondly, being first-born, I don't know what the syllabus looks like, and what problems were faced and all that. Sure, I could have asked my seniors, but they aren't related to me, so they'd more likely be on a different brainwave frequency. Having an older sibling would have allowed me to see what went on in class, what changed between Sec 2, and Sec 3. Such an advantage that would have been.


Would have been, and will never be.


We're back to square one, I have a first choice in mind already. But what if I don't get into it? I don't have a back up plan. I have other combinations I'd like to consider, but I don't know which way to order them.


I'm worried, stressed and very confused.

Right, it's time for me to make a comeback from the dead.

if you want some Doctor Who-ness, I shall say, I am regenerating :D
But most of you won't know who DW is anyway, so moving on...


I haven't updated in a while, and i'm sorry. Things have just been really busy, ya know? Exams and all that.

It's all over now though, going through our papers this week.

I've gotten back English, Chinese, Literature, Physics and Geography.

I gotta say, those were ultimate heartbreakers (I mean the last three, the first two were fine)

I was so stressed and was having a massive headache by Geography that I finally cracked, and I was pretty much a leaky fountain, from my eyes and my nose. And I honestly felt that I couldn't breathe. What a tornado...



We shall rewind to happier times, when the sun was gold and the skies were like diamonds (another DW trivia there!)

(alright, i have GOT to stop doing all those little DW things.. Just can't help it though, DW sticks to your head. like a drumbeat, never stopping... alright there I go again and back to the point!)


LAST FRIDAY.

if any of you actually read the newspapers, you would know that last friday, Carrie Underwood had a free showcase at Ion Orchard. I've got a video up on Facebook of one of the songs she sang (COWBOY CASANOVA!), and there's more on Youtube of course.

I went there an hour early with Eunice and Gitta. It was pretty darn awesome, though our feet was aching by the end. We were so thirsty too! Made a mad rush to Burger King after the concert. It was good though. And Eunice couldn't get over the fact that Carrie was unbelievably pretty.

haha.


Nothing much happened over the weekend, though Tito Dino bought NOTHING PERSONAL and MITCHEL MUSSO (the album, not the person duh) for me from the states. I screamed.

Nothing more exciting than having Mitchel Musso and All Time Low staring you right in your face eh?

Joey, Bela, and Tito Adjo sent over a parcel, and what was inside??? A V-TECH JACKET! yay (:



Moving on to.... Monday? Tuesday? I don't actually remember doing anything else over the weekend...


So we move on to the most recent event, which is WEDNESDAY.

Went to the official opening of "Land of the Mornings" exhibit in the Asian Civilisation Museum. You all should really go check it out, see what the Filipino culture is all about. It was pretty good. Ended up taking loads of pictures outside with Mom and Tita Gina.

I got offered a glass of wine... does that mean I look old??
(and a cute boy smiled and nodded at me..)



AND....... BACK TO HEARTBREAK!

Today.

THE day.

the first day I've ever cried looking at my results.

You'd all probably say, oh it isn't too bad. And some might even say "HELL THAT WAS BETTER THAN MINE WHAT ARE YOU CRYING FOR?!"

Well it matters to me that I didn't do as well as expected. And it matters to me that I think these results would totally kill my average! I didn't get a single A all day, and that's saying something, considering I had 3 of my best subjects today.

that sucks.

life sucks.

Though, I could say English was the only good thing today. 31/50. Not that high? Well guess what, it's higher than a majority of the cohort, so that's pretty darn good.

that's only the comprehension though.

holy crap what if my composition was terrible?!


argh. And now, i'm back to having WEIGHTLESS - ALL TIME LOW as my sub-concious soundtrack-of-my-life.


I hope this update was good enough for you. At this point i'm actually considering not adding my usual blast of colors and size variation, but I think I will... In a while.



did i mention I managed to be one of the first few people to hear the Chartjackers song, I've Got Nothing?

Yes, they are awesome.

If you don't know who they are, then you're a loser. (or if you want to be a winner, go check them out on youtube.)

they're awesome for a huge number of things, and for introducing me to DW :D (yep there I go again...)



OH and when I went to Paragon yesterday, I stopped by Marks&Spencers and I saw the most awesome pair of boots.

Should I get them? I would love some boots, but hardly anyone wears boots here, much less back home in the Philippines. so wouldn't that make the boots pretty worthless to buy?

Opinions please (:



AND, when I'm done making a couple of All Time Low shirts, and a couple of Chartjackers shirts, I'd probably get back to re-personalizing this darned blogskin.



PS. HALLOWEEN IS AROUND THE CORNER, AND I'M SO EXCITED!