Alright, i'm depressed.
My results weren't TOO bad, I'm still in the top 150 in level, but I dropped 100 positions, and that makes me sad more than anything. I also dropped out of the top 10 in class, which sucks a hell of a lot.
I'm one of the 5 people in the level who got A2 for English though. Fat lot of good that would do for streaming since all streams only need a "pass" for English.
Mr. D says I'm too complacent, hence the terrible results. Ms Chia says that if I could set clear goals and work to be BETTER than I already am, then I would be really really good. But because i'm too content with where I am, I suck. (I'm curious as to why neither of my teachers could have told me this if they'd already observed it for a long time. thanks a lot for being such a great help teachers -.- )
That's the reality of it.. Because of my lack of interest in somethings, I lose out, and hence, suck.
Too bad for me, isn't it?
Atleast I didn't have to face my results alone. I was with the other councillors doing duty with me, so I didn't have the urge to cry or be sour the entire day. Thanks you guys (:
Unfortunately, it didn't help that the new batch of councillors for both Sec 1 and 2 had met the minimum requirement of being in the top 30% of the cohort to get into the board. So, other than Ivy and Zhen An, we were surrounded with the "elite" and the smart-ass geniuses.
Tough and demoralising ya know.
Anyway, for the calm before today's storm, I shall talk about yesterday. After the briefing for Open House duty, Kaline, Bryan and I went to KFC to eat a really late lunch. We were kind of bored, so we played "don't-say-words-with-S-or-F-for-half-an-hour". It was tough, and of course, me being the blur one, lost. I made one mistake every two minutes! bliddy hell.
It was fun though, and we couldn't stop laughing.
And as per usual, they both ended up on the bus to my house for the loop. Such great friends you guys are, nice enough to accompany me most of the way home (:
These few days have been tough.. I know it's after exams, but it just seems so much more complicated and tiring.
The only thing that's keeping me afloat after my disastrous comments and results is what Li Han said.
"It's better to be the worst of the best, than to be the best of the worst."
Wise words from a wise man, who loses his shoes often :p
Next year, I promise. No more complacency, no more "camping". I'm going to work out a study plan, a good one, that keeps me going. I won't become a burnout, not like what happened this year. I won't fall below anyone's expectations. I'll pick up the pieces and get back into the top 100 atleast.
Because my first three choices were all double science, I'm kind of worried. Won't people think that I'm not smart enough to get into triple science? It's not that i'm interested in triple, i'm more of a humanities person, but you know, being in double isn't exactly the BEST.
I'm afraid everyone will look down on me, specially since most people I know were aiming for triple...
but i'm just not a science person!
ugh.
life sucks.
